Hello Kelakela,

It's all pretty tough isn't it?

I am on Zoladex. I have been on it for the past 7 years. Yes I was very emotional to start with, but I'm not sure if that was the Zoladex or not. It could have been for any number of reasons for me. It's pretty hard getting any kind of cancer diagnosis isn't it? I was also really suspicious of it as it was something new to me and I never like taking stuff unless I have to.

But now, 8 years after diagnosis, I am really pleased to say that everything was still stable at last scan and I am living my life.

Although I question everything still (I'm a bit of a pain I think actually), I am learning to trust more and I am sure that the Zoladex has helped me to remain stable for as long as I have. And my emotions are relatively settled at the moment. I've even got used to the wasp sting feeling that I get with it each month. And I celebrate being here to have it! And my nurse at my doctors is fabulous and we have got to know each other quite well through the years.

So far so good.

Hope this helps, it's just my experience of it. Everyone is different, but please don't worry too much as it's early days isn't it. I used to waste a lot of my time worrying about everything. Now I don't so much, as it's never the things I'm actually worrying about that are the things that I should have (if you see what I mean?)...

I'm in danger of waffling now so I'll say goodbye for now. Please feel free to pm me if you like. I don't always get on here much, but I will always reply eventually.

Big hugs, and all best wishes to you,

Mary

xxxxx

Hi Mary, 

Yes it’s been a real shock going through the diagnosis and then the treatment. It still feels unreal as it all happened so fast. 

I’m exactly the same about taking medication, esp when they have unpleasant side effects and messing with hormones strikes me as a terrible idea! As my cancer feeds off oestrogen it makes sense to stop my oestrogen production, but I’m worried I’ll feel like this for ages. I have a family to look after and crying all the time just isn’t sustainable. I still have to take Letrozole yet but I don’t want to until these side effects have abated. Some days it all feels a bit too much. I’m also losing quite a lot of hair too which is making me dread brushing and washing it. 

Thanks for your reply xx

Hi Mary, 

Yes it’s been a real shock going through the diagnosis and then the treatment. It still feels unreal as it all happened so fast. 

I’m exactly the same about taking medication, esp when they have unpleasant side effects and messing with hormones strikes me as a terrible idea! As my cancer feeds off oestrogen it makes sense to stop my oestrogen production, but I’m worried I’ll feel like this for ages. I have a family to look after and crying all the time just isn’t sustainable. I still have to take Letrozole yet but I don’t want to until these side effects have abated. Some days it all feels a bit too much. I’m also losing quite a lot of hair too which is making me dread brushing and washing it. 

Thanks for your reply xx

No problem,

I just look at it like the oestrogen production was probably partly the cause of it all, and I'm actually quite pleased to be off oestrogen now ;)

My hair has stayed really thick (it grew back after chemo and is still really thick). 

Hang on in there,

xxx

Mary