Morning everyone,
I feel like I only come in here these days to moan, sorry, I’m so confused with my feelings at the moment though.
so diagnosed with stage 1 on 16th May, felt incredibly positive from the minute I found out, had a lumpectomy last Friday 31st, felt a bit down on the Saturday but picked up during the week.
Yesterday was the first time I cried about it all, I can’t stop thinking to myself will I be here in 2, 5, 10 years? My daughter turned 12 last week and I can’t bear the thought of not being therefor her through her teenage years.
I lost my mum to oral cancer when I was 30, my sister and I nursed her for 18months and it was horrendous. My mum smoked her entire life and I would imagine this maybe was a factor in why she got it. But I just keep thinking she only lasted 18 months, what if I’m the same, my daughter will only be 13.
Is all this normal, I hate feeling so negative and I was doing so well.
Sorry again for such a negative post:-(