Hello.
About a month ago my Nanny was diagnosed with stage 4 lung cancer - this was completely out of the blue and 2 weeks before her diagnosis she had been totally mobile and fine. The doctors are all shocked and say this is the most aggressive they have ever seen and the most fast paced.
Despite it being stage 4 we are very lucky that they have started chemotherapy AND immunotherapy, her DNA is a perfect match with the immunotherapy and I know wonderful things can happen with this treatment so we are praying this works.
The thing is she doesn’t have much time at the moment unless the chemotherapy begins to work quickly, so as the doctor has put it, every day is touch and go. One day she is feeling much better and the next I leave worrying it is the last time I will see her.
I am meant to be going on holiday with my other half for 3 and a half weeks to America, a trip we have planned and saved for for almost a year, it really is a once in a lifetime holiday. Right now I’m feeling so torn and upset, how can I leave and travel thousands of miles away when things could go downhill anyway and I may not be there? I spend everyday with her at the moment so the thought of being away from her for a month is so so hard - I’m worried I will spend my holiday worrying and feeling upset rather than enjoying myself. The selfish part of me is so heartbroken we have saved thousands for this once in a lifetime trip and I know it won’t be what we hoped for now as I will be constantly worrying.
We can only hope she begins to improve in the month and I can leave knowing she is stable but I’m aware this may not happen.
What do you think I should do? Help and advice please! :(
