Hi I know it's hard, but try to keep your mind occupied find something to do you have to consontrate on. We're all in the same boat here more or less being medical could help you know the good news as well as the bad, most people think C and that's it. I know treatment can be rough but you can pull through, (make sure you can swim) good luck show us you can do it.

Billy 

You might find Mindfulness techniques useful.  There's a lot of info available on the internet, but this short video is a useful taster:  How to Medidate in a Moment

Hi. I know just what you mean. I’m just the same. I was diagnosed last year with T cell peripheral NOS NHL. A mouthful. Quite a rare one I’m told. Mine appears as lumps turn to open sores and then heal on the surface. Have had 6 and pet scans show not gone into any of my organs or lymph nodes thank God so far. I have had radiotherapy and CHOP Chemo last year. Now a new lump has appeared. My oncologist said in January not to panic as we now know the pattern they follow but I am worried. Can’t get it off my mind. Got dressing on it and hoping it heals soon. Don’t see oncologist til June 4 th. Trying to stay strong but it is not easy is it. At least my hair is growing back well and a bit of strength is coming back. I know with every little pang or ache I get worried too. You are not on your own. Sending lots of hugs xx