So 11 days ago I had my mammoplasty, apart from the effects of the anaesthetic which I managed to dispose of in recovery (yuk) all went well. Without a word of a lie I have absolutely no pain or discomfort either from the breast or the node biopsy. Taking painkillers as standard though as advised by the doctor. 

I blame myself for feeling slightly smug that it all went well and, yes, thankful that I am one of the lucky ones.

Might have known life thought otherwise LOL went I  yesterday for biopsy results and there was good news and not so good news. Good news was node biopsy clear so hurrah for that. On the downside was told  by surgeon  that when they operated, apart from the two areas they were removing, they also found in  the same area 4 additional small tumours.  Luckily as I am large breasted they were still able to do the mammoplasty with a good area of clear tissue. Again I though yay that's great but oh no, he has said that due to my dense breast tissue they now have no confidence in the previous accuracy of either the mammogram or ultrasound in determining any cancers that may still be lurking. So I've been give  the option of MRI scan which will show if anything still there, if that's ok then onwards to radiation. If there are other sites found then it has to be a mastectomy which was something I was prepared for in the future should cancer return but not mentally prepared just now to be honest.

I feel incredibly low, much the same as when my first operation was cancelled. I think what I've  learned from  this is nothing is set in stone and just when you think you have a handle on it, life throws a spanner in the works.

I think im also a bit resentful that my lovely new breast might be taken away after the wonderful work of the surgeon . Losing the breast itself was never a big issue for me initially so this is a bit of a mental glitch.

Don't relish MRI close confines and apparently the hole is quite small so i might have to be measured to see if I fit in LOL Ah well once again  we wait