I joined this forum last night and posted a topic 'Lumpectomy or mascectomy'

I was encouraged to read this thread which I'm making my way through now... There's a lot to read. 

Whilst reading I smiled at the good but found myself bursting in to tears too. I feel vulnerable and scared and denying it is getting harder and harder. I feel quite alone with it all but that's because I'm not reaching out. Not wanting to make a 'thing' out of it.

Im really early stages but have three family members that have had the same as me. Two have passed away and my mum, who originally had a lumpectomy ended up needing a double mastectomy and chemo which mealy killed and they had to stop the treatment when she went on to a coma. She's OK now thank god.

My experience of this disease are all quite full on and horrendous so it's refreshing to read some positive stuff.

Im scared.. That's a fact. Scared of the unknown I guess.?

Bad: this disease is crap

Good: I'm off to Thailand on the 16th April to spend a month with my daughter who's a diving instructor and lives in Koh Tao. It's beautiful there and she's my world. 

One love ladies. So glad I joined this forum

Hey Dizzle- a wedding is a paper. The true commitment is in the heart and Jamie is committed and so are you therefore that's marriage. You've now got a miracle bump to cement that commitment further - to me these are the most important reality factors. Who is to say you won't have your dream wedding? It will one day. You've come a long way - on your own - which is admirable and we are very proud of you.

Hey Ms May. This forum is a godsend. We are all here to support. One thing I've learned is everyone reacts differently to every stage of this journey. One day at a time and big virtual hug. I also have 2 members of immediate family with cancer but we've all reacted differently with breast cancer. Science and research has advanced so much and more and more people are surviving so hang in there. You got this.

Ladies hope all is well and enjoy your day.

Yeah,been eating a lot of choc lately so have stopped buying it. Clothes are fitting me again at least. 

I’m putting weight on on my diet.... not supposed t work like that :| but it tastes so good..... everything and all of it lol.

lil ones in bed asleep here.... I always come up t bed nd watch tv in my room so can hear if they wake..... so.... carried the goodies ( chocolate, crisps nd fruit pastilles) no wonder I’m gaining nd not loosing. Meh it’s a diet just not a good or health one lol. 

Go you in loosing x

Teddy was born at 05.24 this morning weighing 8lb 8oz. 

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Awwww congrats cornish and to the rest of the family. 8lb 8 is exactly what my Grace weighed. Ouch! Lol! Lovely news xx

Congratulations Cornisj.

Teddy looks all warm and cosy. 

Sundial

Oh my how gorgeous is Teddy ️

Congratulations to all with special thoughts to u Cornish you have been long due some joyous moments in your life. 

Welcome to the world baby Teddy ️ X

Morning peeps 

bad :- none yay

good :- just ya standard breakfast at grans... well it is when you forgot the milk for cereal so try t big up a boiled egg:D :D :D lil ones loved it .. phew. 

Have as good a day as u can peeps 

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Hello ladies,

Glad that some good things are happening in your lifes.

Unfortunately my boyfriend is not so well and I'm struggling with a doubt, and perhaps you could help me with some advice.

This week on Monday my boyfriend was hospitalised due to vomiting blood and it appears he is in his final days. I was a bit anxious, so on Wednesday I came to his city to visit him and help to support his parents. On Monday doctors said he could live like 4 or 5 days, but he is now on the 6th day of admission... I have been helping every single day, because most people can't stand much time in his hospital bedroom (it's too painful) but me and his mum are handling. Today is Sunday and I must decide if I go back to my city to work tomorrow or if I stay here.

He's almost not responsive anymore, with oxygen tubes, difficulty to pee (he's on diapers), fevers, cannot eat, cannot talk or communicate, sleeps 90% of the time due to the drugs for the pain. I don't know if I should stay here (it's like waiting for him to die) but if I go to work I don't feel fine either because I don't have almost no work (my boss doenst give me tasks and it's my last week at the job anyway, I'll be there looking to the ceiling pretending I'm working most of the time)... What should I do? 

Hi so sorry t b reading this unfortunately this must b your own decision( difficult though it is). You are still between a rock and a hard place. It’s not that I don’t want t help you just can’t advise. 

I am however sending my tightest of virtual hugs and saying whatever you choose t do I support you ️ X

Congratulations to you Cornish and to the new mummy and all your family :love: 

your new baby grandson Teddy is absolutely adorable xxx

Awwww happy days for you all :love:

Congratulations to you Cornish and to the new mummy and all your family :love: 

your new baby grandson Teddy is absolutely adorable xxx

Awwww happy days for you all :love: