You got this Dizzle - never forget that. That little miracle inside you is what matters and you. Live, love and laugh - we don't need anyone. The flow of life has changed - go with it. Big massive virtual hug to all you ladies. We are what matters. Keep your heart pure and clean and you will reap the rewards. Always.

Ah dizzel... stick em stick em alllllll. 

See t u nd yrs and the rest unless positive drop kick em out of your life. Don’t burn bridges ( we never know what the future holds) but do walk away to a sunnier side of life away from them. 

Take care lass ️ X

Morning peeps 

bad :- none yay!

good :- boxes were a hit pippin- we grans rock. Mine like a climb up into the attic of occasion too ( I put their pirate dresses on em and let them rummage for treasure  lol).

cup cakes were made. They decided they wanted to make rainbow cakes with a chocolate Freddie frog on top ok then... not the classiest cupcake but delish.  Just had mine with a coffee for breakfast :D  ! Lol way t start the day eh. Have as good a day as u can peeps 

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OMG, that is really the exact opposite of what support is... :/ I'm sorry you can't count on them. Unfortunately, there are some people who are selfish and have bad behaviours like your mum and sister... It is really better for you to focus on people who have a good influence and support you better. I guess they're the ones who lose the opportunity to know your baby, it's they're loss. 

Take care**

Oh dizzle just caught up on here as been proper poorly with chemo ( feeling better now) 

i am so sorry your family are reacting this way..there's nowt as *** as folk....don't let it take the shine off, your a miracle and so is rainbow....it was all meant to happen...

sadly i I fell out with my sister when I told her I will be having chemo, the one time I needed her love and support she flew...no messages..nothing...I haven't heard from her since jan 17 th....what did I deserve for that to happen?  And what did you do to deserve all this stress from the people who should be flocking around you? Gather yourself with the people who love and care for you....that's all that mattters right now...and your beautiful little rainbow baby....xxxxxxx

Dizzle, to just to agree with everything that has been said.  You and peanut are what matters now. Your mum and sister to be blunt, don’t. Yes, it would be lovely if they would support you through your pregnancy but they’ve been noticeably absent during your cancer treatment. 

As Jbains says, you’ve got this. You’ve done cancer and yes, because of it, you are probably gonna be a bit more jumpy than you would have been otherwise throughout your pregnancy, but you can and will do this. 

The good: I got a new job, don't know how I'm going to proceed, because I think I have to notice the actual institution I work with 30 days ahead or something. it's in the same town I'm in now, it seems more stable, and hopefully, it will be more interesting. However, I'm a bit afraid of changes right now...

The bad: Started to feel really depressed last week because of my boyfriend's situation. Spend the weekend with him and he's getting worse. His parents think he will die. He is struggling to eat, and now he's struggling to breathe so much that is hard for him to talk, we almost can't hear him. He is a zombie, due to a mix of depression, pills and the disease symptoms... I'm very concerned. He will go to Lisbon to do his treatment and some exams and I think I will take some days off to join him, and perhaps ask his doctor some questions to understand clearly what is going on, and for what do I have to prepare.

I feel confused, I'm afraid of the big changes that are coming, I wished he could stay alive and be cured, and we would be a happy couple, I tried to be prepare to lose him, but I cannot imagine, I think I'll be forever unhappy and suffering. I'm very afraid of getting lonely without him, but I'm already so depressed right now. I watched his mum crying, and I avoid cry in front of them, I'm always so strong, and struggle to speak, because If I said all that is in my head I would start crying too...I'm afraid of accepting the new job. I wished I could cope a little better... 

Take the job, lonelygirl. You need to start planning for you future. I know it’s hard and all you may be able to see is darkness but setting small, achievable goals for yourself will give you a boost and give you focus. 

Hi lonelygirl 

Rileyroo is right take the job ( you wouldn’t have applied for it if u did not want it). There is nothing wrong with continuing on with your life and moving forward. Being there for your partner does not mean your life should stagnate. You can do both. ️