Count me in! Pack a great right hook!

Morning peeps 

ah.... all showing solidarity.... in short dizzel we care and are there if u need us :-)

bad :- a few months ago I mentioned I had bumped into a friend in school yard and she told me she had just been diagnosed with leukaemia( stable so no treatment) and her husband with late stage prostate cancer. Her husband is recovering from his 3rd op ( but is very unwell) my friend is now having chemo....  I hope they are both feeling better soon ️ 

Good :- lil ones daddy not at work so another free day for me :-)

successful sale shopping done on line over the hols....new winter rugs down in sitting room ( I normally have cream rugs down but they are not winter friendly so dark grey order of the day). No more nearly hyperventilating when family land with wet mucky shoes lol.  Those who know me will not b surprised I am waiting on 2 new coats coming :-0 someone actually said in the school yard “u have more coats than I have tops” lol... yes...yes I do have a problem ;-)

Dreading getting on the scales! Oh well all good things must come to an end will let u know the damage later :-)

have as good a day as u can peeps x

Happy new year ladies! Sad to see your post dizzle. 

Hope this year will be a better year for everyone x 

Dizzle...Alcohol brings out the worst in people especially in an already stressful situation. I recently had a massive row with my husband and the precursor to that was too much booze...plus him bottling stuff up. He flipped, shouted it was all about me and threw a cup across the room. Unfortunately I’m a red rag to a bull kinda girl so after shouting back that I didn’t want it to be all about me and I ******* hate it, I threw a plate and a glass back. Took every last ounce of self control not to take a baseball bat to the entire dining service. The kitchen cupboards have the war scars to prove it. 

Alcohol is not an excuse though, just a reason. I find cancer like a pressure cooker. People on all sides bottle it up. The pressure builds and builds and then it blows. Usually I’ve found the aftermath and tearful apologies at least provides a safe opening to talk about how we are both really feeling and get stuff off our chests...sorry probably wrong expression! I hope once the dust has settled you can work things through. Xx

Morning ladies. Day 3 of the new year. Let's leave the woes of 2018 there and move forward. Be strong. Be brave and remember we are all still here so make time your priority. We will never be able to get those precious mins or hours back. Take care of number one and just say what you need to say, move on and remove negativity from your life.

Being where we are is hard enough and we can only control our emotions or reactions. Others cannot so that's their problem and not in our control so let it go. You health and your sanity are the most important and that is your responsibility.  If I have learned one thing - it is to do that and just distance myself no matter who it is.

Life is for living and we get one shot at it so make it matter. Cancer is trying to challenge that so heal both physically and emotionally doing all that's in your ability to do so. It's a reset button to make the flow of life better and get rid of the riff raff. So ladies, onwards and upwards no matter how much of a struggle that climb is. We are all here together so you're never alone.

Thanks for your replies ladies. Still no word from him. Not had a wink of sleep coz of this horrible feeling of dread I have and God knows what I've done to my boob but I'm in absolute agony. Can't even life my arm. Scared to call cancer line in case they say I need to go to hospital and have no-one here for my dog and don't wanna leave the place unattended in case I get unwanted visitors. All just feel like a bad dream. A couple of days ago I was excited about my wedding and starting a fresh new year and now I'm just in bits. Haven't even been to my radiotherapy appointments or herceptin one. Getting better just seems pointless now. Sorry I'm all doom and gloom. But have never felt so down. Even going through chemo be was there by my side but now I literally have no-one xx

Hey dizzle. My goodness I want to sit hear and cry reading what's happened. You must be so desperately hurt. But please do not miss any more appointments. You are both under tremendous pressure which in no way excuses Jamie's insensitivity but I'm sure he would not want you to stop attending your treatments. Please pick up the phone and arrange to go today so that you can at least take care of yourself.  

Hi Dizzle. .

I just looked on here, quickly as I'm on holiday ... and it's 4.30 here so hopefully I make some sense ...

I had an expierance with my son shortly after my masectomy. . We were in the car and I said something funny, (Well I thought it was funny) and he said "mum your a right ***" and I said actually you can't call me that any more, I havnt got one ... his face looked really shocked, but I saw the funny side and burst out laughing, as did he then... it just stopped what could have been a difficult situation ... he would never had said it if he'd thought as has been my rock ....

So please lift the phone, text him, just explain why you felt hurt, but you love him so much more then he knows ... they are our babies, always will be... this life is too short ... just tell him you don't want to loose him ... and do anything you need to, to get him back in your life ....fingers crossed ... 

I lost one son as things were left unsaid too long, and now nothing will bring him back ... maybe sorry, is the word you both need to say now .. l wish I'd have done more 6 years ago with my oldest lad ... xx

Chrissie ...

Dizzle

Just please look after yourself. You owe it to yourself after all you’ve come through,

Sundial