A beautiful day for a change, hubby looks happy and says he's going out for fresh air, me I'm off to the gym.  So had a decent work out, no one verbally attacked me, downstairs I wait for my swim, there is a chap weighing about sixteen stone who is also apparently waiting for a swim so off we go.  He immediately goes in the jacuzzi whilst I swim quietly up and down, then I hear an Almighty splash like a whale landing and he's joined me in the pool.  What I didn't realise was that as he swam he would cause a tsunami  across the pool, drenching me with water, up my nose, down my throat, in my ears, oh for goodness sake I think I'm blooming unlucky in all I do.  So I watch him like a meerkat from my end of the pool and realise that if I swap ends I can mostly miss the waves, so as he goes to one end I visit the other!  But it worked.  Hubby laughed his head off when I tell him what had happened.  Margaret rang me, we are furious that we can't see each other and plan our break out plan, then guess what Boris had misspoke, we can see each other outside in the  north, does this man have any idea of the anguish he is causing with his King Canute rule?  Anyway, tea is over and a large white wine spritzer has been drunk.  Treatment day tomorrow.  Take care all, Billy I hope you are doing OK.  Love Carol x 

Hi Carol. 

Sorry not messaging earlier been rough lately, when I'm like that job to understand what I've put, 

My new tablets are bringing my cancer count down still got another bone scan and Mri to have yet see if bone cancer is going down. 

Didn't realise problems i was having wasn't any thing to do with new meds. 

It was caused by my addisons, (Heart slowed down trouble eating without feeling full straight away dizziness sickness always tired.) 

I called Dr and specialist both said increase my medicines for my heart it'll take couple of weeks so finally feeling better.

Hope I'll keep like this now or better bren was getting worried, 

Had a talk (phone) to brens psychiatrist just before lunch he won't admit bren doesn't have bipolar even though she doesn't have any of the symptoms so won't take her completely off the medication even though the dose has been dropped and bren has improved ever so much, (talking, moving taking notice, even standing a bit on her own) hasn't been able to stand up for about four years.

Sorry for the big moans but nice to tell someone who understands. 

Love Billy xxx 

Dear Billy I was worried about you, poor thing, that's the only problem on here we don't have any personal details apart from our forum chats.  So let's hope that you are soon your normal cheery self and that Bren can see you get better.  So today I dropped  Norman off and went to TK Maxx on the way home, I was going to buy him a jumper as he says he's cold but they had no V necks but guess what, I found one for me!!  On the way to fetch him I got stuck behind a hearse so when I got there he was talking to a female, do you recognise who it is he asks, No, it's Joy he says.  Now Joy was my best friend and we lived next door to each other, I was 26 and she was 35, we saw each other every day, socialised with her brought out children up together and helped each other, then she fell backwards off step ladders through a glass door, Paul who was just 9 years old came home for lunch unexpectedly as all our children were at the village school so this was unusual but he found Joy in a pool of blood.  So I'll cut the story short but Joy wouldn't have a blood transfusion as this was the 1980s and HIV was rampant and contaminated blood was rife.  Ken came and got me, took me to the hospital and asked me to talk to her as she was going to die without a  blood transfusion, It was an awful situation for me, my friend was cut to shreds, dying in front of me, lying on a trolley waiting to be operated on, but I had to bully her into having blood, using the children as blackmail, and she signed the consent form. .  But do you  know, we were never the same again.  She lived with the fear of contacting HIV and her back was so painful due to nerve damage, she held me responsible and I couldn't blame her.  So today we said Hi, she's 81 years old now and Ken is very ill, that's why she was at the hospital, sat outside in the wind and rain waiting for her husband.  So we are home safely, hubby has not been stabbed and bruised and is sat eating a custard tart and drinking tea.  Take care all of you, Carol x 

Today was gym day but don't laugh I forgot my underwear because hubby got stuck on the stairlift and I couldn't get downstairs so I was late, so after my swim I had to put my clothes on minus my bra and knickers, it did feel weird!  In the pool there was me and a lady swimming quietly but my larger gentleman decided to join us, I was at the shallow end and he made his way down the steps but lost his footing and went under, fortunately the water is only 4ft deep so he didn't drown.  Anyway I ended up talking to the lady and of course I knew her!  We nattered for ten minutes, she's a health worker and like me has no understanding of the new rules, six strangers in the gym and pool but can't see your own family, Mary had rang me whilst out so we ended up talking about this, we are worlds apart on this covid 19 and it's best we don't discuss it.  Hubby looks well and our scan is in two weeks so let's hope it's a good result.  See you tomorrow, love Carol x 

I met Margaret for coffee in town and she said she had to confess to something, they've put the house on the market.  Oh no, where are you going I asked, thinking I'm going to miss her so much.  Anyway they have no idea where to go, please stay around here I beg!!  So last night someone came to see it but just commented on all the negatives, it's so difficult to listen to your home being pulled apart and it's rude to do it.  Hubby has been to see Lukes new business and is very impressed with what he has done, he was a doubting Thomas about this venture and said so many times but I knew he would do well, hubby admitted it tonight, so apparently I was right again!!  So that's about it today, take care, Carol x 

The weather is atrocious today and so dark.  Hubby has ruined my non stick pans by scraping a metal spoon around them as apparently stuff is stuck on, yes because you've scraped the non stick coating off I retort.  Anyway I set off and ran straight into a traffic jam, it tooke nearly and hour to do seven miles and when I arrived Dunelm Mill had a queue a mile long but I persisted and got my pans!  Maureen texted me first thing a picture of her beautiful new granddaughter born at 6am this morning so I've just popped over with pink roses and cards for them all, she was thrilled but exhausted as Stephanie had gone into labour yesterday morning and Maureen couldn't sleep, she said I look younger  each time she sees me, it's lack of sleep I smile!!  Hubby's mouth is not good after the treatment so I've got to be careful with his tea, I normally do a hot curry but it will have to be a Korma tonight.  So signing off now, take care, Carol x 

Dear Carol and Billy,

Sorry to hear you haven't been feeling too good Billy, but sounds like you should soon be feeling much better.  With luck when you have the bone scann and MRi it will show positive results also.

Congratulations to Maureen and family for the birth of their granddaughter/daughter.  Lovely to hear some happy news.  Hope Norman's mouth improves quickly after his treatment.  We had a glorious day yesterday, sunshine and 25 degrees.  We took Eli to the park and decided to get fish and chips for tea, we were going to eat at the park but it was starting to cool down, so came home with them.  Today was lovely also, but we have some cold days coming next week.  
Our premier wasn't happy with people living in Melbourne, with the nice weather so many had flocked to the beach, no social distancing and no masks for most.  
Not much else happening here apart from us all having a cold, thanks to Eli.  It's only a cold though, nothing more.  No cases of the virus here at present, only 1 still listed as having it here and he is still in hospital in Geelong, our hospital doesn't take anyone with the virus.

Take care all and stay safe.  Love Sue xx

Dear Sue and Billy, not a lot going on as the rain has spoilt everything.  I did town Saturday but yesterday the sun came out so we rode the moors, it was glorious and the sun dappling the valleys and the magnificent cloud formations were a joy to behold, it lifts your heart to be looking at the changing seasons.  Today is Alfies 13th birthday we rang him but he hasn't opened his cards yet.  Lisa rang as she moves out the house today so the work can start, then it's half term so they are off to the Isle of White again.  Hubby is looking well and is so much happier.  I rang Jean today (kidney cancer) but she is so unwell she says she looks like a skeleton and she must as she only weighed under 7 stone when I saw her last, a Pet scan and head scan has been done, results Thursday but I don't think the news  will be good, I am very upset about her as she has really been neglected by the NHS and her surgery.  So that's it really.  Love Carol x 

I went to Teesside Park yesterday and it was so busy, I behaved and wore my mask but didn't stay long M&S didn't have any of the sizes I needed so I gave up.  On the way home I bought some roses for Jean as she lives in Darlington and I could go home that way.  She gets her scan results tomorrow and we don't think they will be good.  It was a lovely day and she was thrilled to see me, she must weight about five and a half stone now, its so sad to see my friend of over fifty years in such a pitiful state, I could have cried.  We sat six foot apart in the garden but her husband Paul decided to come out and start hammering and drilling the ongoing patio he is building, this has been going on for 8 months, so not exactly a rush job.  So Jean and I tried to talk but she is deaf and could not hear me, I gave it five minutes and left.  I told hubby when I got home, he said that was so mean, it would be like me hoovering around him and his friends, exactly I said!  I know Paul is worried and wants to keep busy but fifteen minutes wouldn't have harmed him.  Jean looked so disappointed when I left.  Will I see her again, who knows?  I have just had a flu jab, the first in fifteen years, my arm is killing me.  Hopefully I'll be able to swim tomorrow.  I did smile the other day when I was cycling in the gym, three blokes on the weights were discussing another guy, apparently someone had complained about him!!  A woman they said, what a nerve the other guy replied, I kept my head down and carried on cycling!!  So hope you're all well, everyone's gone quiet so hope I'm not boring you all.  Carol xx