Dear Carol,  Certainly sounds like your night has thrown you off kilter.  Probably a good idea to forego your walk with how your day started.  I think we all occassionally have days like that.
Really good to hear Norman is doing well.  Deana did a nice tea tonight, (she usually does) Mid loin lamb chops with a Moroccon quinoa and roast vegetable salad.  Love that Norman has filed his broken teeth.

A rather lazy day here although I did my nails, Just clear polish, I can't put it on well enough for colours, but at least they look ok now.  Tomorrow I'm going out, Deana need someone to deliver flowers she has 6 orders which I'll be delivering.  Nick usually does the odd one or two during his lunch break, but with so many and 1 of them being a 20 min drive out of town he wouldn't be able to.  I'm really looking forward to it, just to go out for a drive, it's been so long.  Shame the weather turn tomorrow and we have rain with possible thunderstorms, at least it's not supposed to be bitterly cold.

Hopefully tomorrow you will be able to go for your walk.

Take care, love to all.  Sue xx

Dear Sue, so lovely to hear from you.  Its sounds like you are coping well, can you imagine if the family were not there with you.  If Norman had been fit I think I would have had to nail him to the floor.  He keeps saying he's going out, then ends up sleeping in the warm conservatory.  Mary rang me, her car would not start, Joe had gone to play golf, she rang him for the breakdown number, he then rang back saying he'd hit the kerb with his car and punctured two tyres!  So he's near Sunderland, she's twenty miles away, the garage ring to say is she in lockdown, oh yes she says!  I did laugh as she goes shopping every week, pops out during the day, she could have quite easily stood six feet away from her car but no, she hides behind her front door!!  I have no idea if Joe got home, I'm sure she'll ring me tomorrow.  I've changed the beds today, picked all the garden rubbish up, cleaned the kitchen windows and done a load of washing.  I think my tooth next too my missing one has been hurting me, it's made my mouth swell again!  So we're doing OK and still awaiting the scan results.  Love Carol x 

It's not even lunch time but I'm in the mood of Can't Be Bothered today!  Some days it's hard to find something to do that doesn't involve house work or cooking, I so miss my friends, good coffee and cake, laughter and silly chats and catch ups, these are the things that make life bearable and have kept me going since the cancer diagnosis.  I'm assuming that Joe got home safely, I'll ring Mary and get the full story.  My food parcel has arrived, we have enough Lynx shower gel to keep us going all year!  There was a little treat in the box some Cadbury chocolate drinks, I might have one and a piece of cake this afternoon and pretend I'm out with friends.  Christine is still making scrub bags and headbands, Ron said he was fed up with her being in the sewing room, I didn't say anything but I think if she wasn't he might be buried in the garden by now with  Pan marking the place!  The sun is making an appearance and we have so many birds nesting in our garden it's wonderful to watch them, mind there is one blackbird who keeps dive bombing me each time I set foot outside the front door, I bent down to pick the food delivery up this morning and he swooped over my head, he is obviously protecting his new family that are living in the laburnham on the front lawn, Norman and I did laugh last night as our neighbours have a growth of plants growing out of the guttering, we've told them about it for two years but Paul has left it so it's got bigger and bigger, there are now a pair of great *** nesting in it!  Take care all, love Carol x 

Dear Carol.

Love the birds nesting in your neighbours guttering.  I had a great day delivering flowers for Deana.  Four were local (in town) and one almost to Camperdown, which was very hard to find even though it was on the main road.  I had my gps set so I wouldn't miss it.  Well it told me I was there, but there was absolutely nothing around just land.  So I drove to the next drivway and that was numbered 2806, I wanted 2700.  So I do a u-turn when I'm able and go back. I did pass one narrow dirt road but couldn't see a house so kept going to the next driveway, that was numbered 2580.  So another u-turn and the house I wanted was on the tiny dirt road.  So they finally got delivered.  It was so good being in the car going somewhere.  And the weather was ok also, a little cool, but the thunderstorm and rain held off until tonight.  Like you I miss seeing friends, going for a coffee with them in a little cafe.  Cafes are opening here but still have distancing, so very limited on the number of customers they can have.have.  Having a chuckle over my two cats, they are both on the windowsill in the study, trying to catch a moth, only problem it is on the outside, they are inside.
Tomorrow I have Eli, we'll have fun.

Take care, stay safe.  Love to all.  Sue xx

Hi Carol, 

I just popped in to say hello, and I'm laughing now.  Why?  Read your 16th and 17 th blogs.  Can you see there may be a link between the fourteen year old gin and the funny day you had next day???  

Thank you for making me smile, I'm beginning to feel some unpleasant side effects of my hormone therapy, which is making me grumpy.

Christine xxx

Dear all the Oncologist rang at 4.45pm, the treatment has made a vast difference she told him, smiles all round.  Unfortunately his back is very bad today, the shingles pain is not going away, so I popped to get painkillers but the queue was past the pub so I came home, hunted all the old handbags and found 4, he will have to wait until tomorrow.  Harry rang me to say he didn't think he wanted to go to his new school sooner, we're face timing tomorrow to see what decision he finally makes.  I have done a load of gardening today but it was hard work, so I rang Sarah to see if she can come back but it's a No which is understandable.  So a gardener is coming instead, I'd rather be outside than scrubbing loos so not much gain really!  Another weekend approaching the weeks are flying by.  Love to you all, Carol x 

So we have a little dilemma!  Two weeks ago I rang our McMillan nurse, she read the last paragraph of the scan results, "partially responding to the treatment", I didn't tell him as I wanted him to hear it from the Oncologist.  The problem is that when hubby spoke to her for the sum total of one minute he somehow has turned it into "a vast improvement" but his hearing is not 100% (he was a fitter and Turner for British Rail, thus damaged hearing).  So he's told Faye that he's practically cancer free, she's asked him if I'd spoken to them, No he said.  So yesterday she rang to get a clear picture.  We've decided that as he's happy with what he heard we will leave well alone,  as the treatment is only half way we will have another scan at the end.  It seems mean to burst his bubble but he's a little confused as to why we aren't jumping for joy!  Anyway, a busy two days as we've had the patio cleaned whuch meant I then had to clean everything else.  The wind has been horrendous and is blowing the chairs onto the lawn, I've had to pin them down with a plant pot, my poor Golden anniversary rose is hanging on for grim life, I'd be devastated if it breaks as I've looked after it like a baby.  I think Mary isn't talking to me!  I posted a picture of Margaret and me socially distancing on the village green with chilled wine on face book, fifteen friends and family have commented, saying you look fabulous Darling, what a lovely photo and so on, from Mary NaDa, nothing, zilch, do you think she's ghosting me!  You're not going to believe this but my tooth is giving me gip again (the one that's left) a stiff gin and tonic may help!!  See you soon.  Love Carol x 

The wind is howling round our house and our friendly rat is back!  Hubby banged on the conservatory window when I wasn't looking, I jumped a mile but the rat stood his ground, washing his whiskers and sticking his nose in the air whilst ignoring him, he looks very healthy (the rat not hubby) he can stay he's not harming us.  I'll tell you a funny story about our old house in the village, we had an extension and our bedroom was over the garage, so it was really just a floor with heating pipes running all round the ceiling in the garage.  We were in bed and I could hear this boring, boring under us, having pointed out that something was walking the pipes I was ignored as being hysterical.  Long story short we had a rat, he'd eaten his way through the wooden door, climbed the heating pipes and made a nest in the attic!  We got a bag of poison, well he did as we knew farmers, where have you put it I asked him that Sunday, in the garage, as the girls were still young I wasn't amused about it being just left, so we went to move it, it was nowhere to be seen!  We had that garage upside down, bags of potatoes were opened, tins of paint moved, both girls were cross examined as to whether they had moved it, I was definitely hysterical by now as no one had any idea where it had gone.  We never saw the rat again so the logical conclusion was that it had pinched it and run off with it and hopefully died a painful death, honestly Men haven't got the brains they were born with I told my husband who was so in the dog house.  Anyway said husband has just been fed Victoria sponge cake, a cup of tea and is now in a coma in his favourite chair.  Still no word from Mary!!  Love Carol x 

We had a good ride out yesterday and ended up in Barnard Castle, or as the Press in the South call it, Castle Barrn herd, the now infamous place visited by a poor sighted political adviser!  We thought we could have fish and chips but it was shut so we drove to Richmond which had numerous bikers, families and a fish shop that was open.  They were scrumptious and we sat in the car watching the black headed gulls trying to pinch chips from those sat in the sun.  Faye face timed us and they are finally considering getting Ella a dog, a rescue dog that they can visit and ensure Ella is not allergic too.  Luke rang and hubby told him his good news telling him his problem was disappearing!  I'm having to speak to them later about it as everyone can't understand how stage 4 cancer can disappear!  We had to go for bloods this morning at the hospital, he moaned constantly about being kept waiting, I tried to explain that they had lost a day yesterday so there would be more today, he wasn't interested, then every woman that came in was so overweight that he started commenting on it, especially the receptionist who was so large she could hardly walk, Not a good advertisement for the NHS he comments, I had to tell him to shush, he then starts his wobbly head movements which mean I've annoyed him, then when he came out he complained about being asked to go out a different door, apparently he told the poor woman she should try walking that far on one leg, they gave in and handed him back to me!  So fortunately it's a lovely day and he's gone to the golf club, for goodness sake I tell him don't shake hands with anyone, Woodham Golf club have thrown four men out for doing that, the fees wer'e paying he needs to behave.  So not sure what's going on but I've a feeling he's going to be unwell again, I can always tell. 

Take care and see you tomorrow, love Carol x