Hubby has a rumbly chest but wakes at his normal time.  He seems a little better and has more colour than the last two weeks.  It's sunny and bright so I decide to get my nails done and because they now do more treatments get my eyebrows waxed, the Chinese owner tells me I am very fashionable and could wear any colour nail varnish, this puts a spring in my step, have you got them yet, no she says they've lost them on the way from China!! Coffee and lemon cake in. Binns, a new blouse and I call hubby to pick me up. When he arrives he says he's felt squeamish, did you take one of your sickness pills, no I forgot they'd given me them!!  He's had one and is now asleep in his chair, if it's nice tomorrow we're going for a country drive and maybe a drink, just for a change of scenery, he needs to get out of the house as he has practically been housebound lately.  On the way home we saw lots of daffodils and crocuses blowing in the wind, the daffodils look like they're dancing, the birds in our garden are actually starting to build nests, we have lots of hedges and bushes for them, so it's lovely to watch, I've just thrown a load of old grapes on to the lawn and they gobbled them up straight away.  Spring is definitely in the air and it will be nice not to have dark grey skies, pouring rain and snow showers beating at our door.  See you soon, love Carol x 

We were going to have a drive out but it's now half one and he needs a sleep, the treatment is making him tired again and although the mind is willing the body is weak.  I don't mind, it's a bitterly cold wind again and apart from feeding the birds for which I had to put my padded coat on and my fur hood up I'm not unhappy to be staying home.  We've just read the news telling over 65s to stay away from pubs, clubs and shopping centres, so for once in our long lives we'll take the government's advice!!  So I'm watching Scott of the antarctic, looks a lot colder at the North Pole than here.  Lisa has managed to get out of the house and posted on Facebook that everyone had sidled away from her on the high Street when she coughed giving her bad looks, I was so cross that she'd gone out that I posted that if I'd been there she would have one of her Mum's Looks!!  That's it for today guys, hope all is well, speak soon, love Carol x 

Hi Everyone,
Billy, Glad your are ok now and that Bren is as well as can be.  Getting old is tough sometimes, and it seems to happen so quickly, one minute your fine, then everything seems to start failing.  Would have been nice if you had managed to at least have a little of your retirement by the seaside.  

Carol, Your day sounded fun. dance class, the movies and lunch.  Hoping Lisa will be feeling better shortly now that she has antibiotics.  Glad you still went to the theatre.  It's good to hear Norman still has his appetite.
Like you I don't run anywhere either, but it's my knees, not my boobs that prevent that particular activity.  Not that I mind unless it's teeming rain.  Trying to picture you looking hamsterish, but your night out sounds like it was worth looking hamsterish for.  Those leather jogging pants should definitely be banned.  Please Norman's treatment was hassle free, it certainly sounds like he had a great sleep.  If I can figure out how to get a photo from my phone to the computer I will send a picture once the grass has grown.  Deana and Nick have spent most of the day outside building planters for a veggies.  It's expensive getting removations, especially for a kitchen or bathroom.
It's nice to hear there are signs of Spring.  Although mostly still pleasant today has been warn. hunid and now tonight it's pouring, tomorrow though we have showers and much cooler.    Even though Norman's treatment is making him tired, it's good if that seems to be the only side-effect from it.
Are they saying over 65's should stay away from crowds because of the coronavirus.  I can't decide if it's as serious as some are claiming, so many different things are being reported.  Some say it's no worse than the flu, and others are panicking.  I do know we don't have the Asian tourist numbers that we usually do for this time of year.  The coronavirus would be why Lisa was getting bad looks.  

I have been wondering how Anthea is?  Hoping she ok, and has lots of support.

I ended up having Eli most of the week, because of a very mild case of hand, foot and mouth virus, He wasn't allowed at daycare, despite the fact that he has been fine and only had 3 spots.  At least tomorrow my day will be mine.  A fairly quiet week I think.

Take care and love to all.  Sue xx

 

Dear all, hubby has made it to his 74th birthday, I've made it to another one he proudly announced to me!  He's just surfaced from his warm bed and I'm ready for zumba.  If he's OK we're going out for lunch, Sue and Luke are coming later and I've bought a birthday cake for us to cheer him on!  You'd have laughed last night, Faye face timed us asking for the model number off his I pad so she can buy a new cover, the old one is hanging in there, it's a little bit like the owner!  Turn it over she instructed and the model number is on the back, well it must have been written by an ant, neither of us could decipher it!  Take a photo and send it to me she says, two hours later, it's too blurred, you haven't enlarged it, it wouldn't send, we finally get Gordy and his new camera that enlarges everything to take a picture of my picture and success.  I bought him a new top box for his TV, it's still not installed as he can't understand the instructions, I Am Not getting involved because if it all goes wrong, guess who he will blame,  so Luke is going to try tonight, unfortunately our spare Norman has gone away again!  Just been invited to Mary and Joe's Golden wedding lunch, they've organised it so hubby can get in and out easily, such good friends.  I read on here how people neglect cancer friends because they are unable to cope with the restrictions, we've never encountered that and I feel blessed about how we've been kept in the loop.  Love to you all.  Carol xx 

Hi Carol, here hubby is another year older and another day wiser. Hope you bought him something nice.

Had some good news. Bone scan reveals cancer still there but not spread anywhere else. 

Dreading all these bugs going about. With not having much of immune system left. Only go out when have to now. A neighbour has started coming round so i can get a lovely shower. Usto have a strip wash in kitchen before. If I'm in shower can't hear if bren calls so haven't bothered. Had a word with oncologist and occupational therapist to see if they know if something can be sorted so neighbour doesn't kneed to come. Don't want to put on her she says she doesn't mind BUT it doesn't seem right. Hopefully get something sorted soon.. 

Love to all.... Billy xxx 

Hi Billy and everyone, we had a lovely day and had lunch at the Otter and Fish in Hurworth, then off to see Sue and Luke, I had bought a birthday cake which we managed to eat despite what we'd already eaten!  Lots of presents, a new cup with a photo of Harry and Lisa on it, a new I pad cover, some beautiful photos as well.  However he paid for the day out as he was in constant pain that night from a swollen arm due to the new treatment.  He couldn't get dressed or do his buttons up and looked dreadful, he'd scrubbed the scab off his nose so I had to try and stop the bleeding, his mouth is splitting as well so vaseline was applied, but he struggled on and once he was settled Josie and I went for lunch and a drink, knowing he was OK.  He says he's becoming high maintenance again. Lots of rest and painkillers and today is a better day.  Billy, you should have some help so you get some time to carry out your ablutions in private!!  Neighbours are fine but if Bren needs to call you then a fifteen minute care package would be good.  We're going for a little ride to Barnard Castle to a showroom shop to see if I can find a replacement stag or something similar.  The sun is shining, the birds are nesting, we have a blooming rat as well, need to get rid of that, that's what comes of living near fields.  All the crocuses are popping up with beautiful colours, lilac, purple, yellow and pink, daffodils are starting to grow as well, so Spring is approaching fast, thank goodness.  Take care all, Carol. X

I haven't posted for a couple of days as my mindset has not been good.  Lisa is still not well and I'm angry that I'm stuck on this cancer treadmill which is stopping me from leading a normal life, so I get angry at the person stopping me.  He's not been well either, looks terrible and everytime he stumbles just a little bit he says he nearly fell over, I pointed out yesterday that as he was leaning against the sink there was no way he was going to fall, it's just attention seeking when he knows I'm not 100% invested in him and his cancer, so basically very annoying.  I asked if he'd drunk some water yesterday, yes he says, where's the glass you used I enquired, upstairs he shoots back, I assume the water upstairs is the same as downstairs, so another snappy moment, I pull him up on it, honestly he says I wasn't being funny, really I say back!  So we're both crabby and annoying each other, I'm weary and fed up and it's not going to get any better.  He now has scabs on his head, stop rubbing it with the rough towel, oh it's not that he states, can you understand why I lose the will to live.  So today he's had a bath and looks fresher, we've driven up to Pity Me (how appropriate) and bought some pansies, new hyacinths and ten bunches of daffodils for one pound, they're one pound a bunch in Sainsbury.  They look lovely in the vases, smell delicious and have cheered me up.  We called at the shop and bought some pomegranate and pink gin, which I've just had with loads of ice.  Lisa is not going to London but staying home safe, they have agreed she can work from home, so that's helped me.  Mothers day is approaching and for the 3rd year I'll be alone, no daughters, no Sunday lunch with giggles and gin, I hate cancer so much now, it's debilitating for all involved and when you know the outcome, it's even worse.  Love to you all, Carol x 

Hi Carol i definitely agree about cancer just makes things worse to control your daily routine. And keep going strong.

The weather doesn't help eather cold and damp. Hopefully when weather improves so will other things. 

Bren stops in bed alot now chair starts aches and pains off wear air mattress is very soft going to try around see if can find different chair. 

Things will improve even if it doesn't seem like it, keep being positive. 

Love... Billy xxx 

To all the lovely people on here we will get there soon just keep going. Xx 

Hi everyone, I've been reading all your posts and I thank you all for your kind words but I haven't got too much to say at the moment. The funeral is on Friday 13th March, I think he would approve of the date and laugh. If I hadn't had it then I would have to have waited until the week of 23rd March! It's crazy how long you have to wait. Carol, I really feel for you and know how hard it is. We too got so snappy with each other. I have done one positive thing and booked a trip to New York for my birthday. I think I told you that we shared the same birthday which means will not be the same again. I thought it would be good to get away and to go somewhere that he had no interest in so New York it is. I hope everyone else is well and doing ok. Love to you all, Anthea xxx