Not a good start to the New year, hubby has had one if his worst nights ever, coughing, being sick and to cap it all terrible phantom pain.  He looks worn out and is struggling to stay upright, as he is feeling giddy.  He's asleep now in the conservatory and I'm hoping he feels better when he wakes up.  I've managed to smash my new gin glass in the front room and ended up with gin, lemonade and cut limes all over my carpet, I'm so cross as it was a Christmas present.  I've had to strip the bed again and wash his sheets and it's so cold nothing is drying.  We face timed Faye, she says she's fed up and upset at not coming and looked really down.  Sue rang and offered to drive me down on Saturday but that would be a nine hour car journey in one day and I'm really not up to it, I don't think Faye would want us landing on her anyway as she will have to work Sunday and get everything ready for school on Monday.  I may pop for a drink with a friend but only if Norman feels well enough to be left alone.  So it's not a good day but a lot of them aren't, so I hope you are all having a better start than us and Happy New to you all.  Love Carol x 

I have threatened to get the doctor to come out but its the usual argument, what can they do, nothing, I feel better this morning, no you're not getting them out.  I am sick of arguing so leave him be and take off to Richmond to drop off the presents, see Luke and my brother and some old friends that we used to go racing with, guess what, David has prostate cancer and he left going to the GP for so long it became serious.  Heather and I look at each other and raise our eyes as if to say, Men, what can we do with them.  Back home hubby tells me he fell over in the hall and feels giddy and unwell, I tell him straight, make a decision because the weekend is coming up again and that I have little sympathy if he's ignoring all my advice!  It's so bloody wearing, fighting the cancer is bad enough but to fight me as well is ludicrous.  I've fed and watered him and am now watching a historical movie about the fall of Rome, with Sophia Loren (so beautiful) and lots of other famous actors in it.  So a decision will be made before bed as to doctor or not, I also think the CT scan results are playing on his mind, as they are mine, it's never ending, 2020 and we're still in the same predicament as we were in 2017, what more can I say.  Love Carol x 

Thanks Billy, he's asleep and safe!  I've given up getting cross, I'm not suffering, he is, well apart from my tooth, still waiting for appointment to remove it, it's like the olden days, pass me the pliers!  I suppose in a way Norman is right, there is nothing much they can do, his immune system is shot to pieces and unfortunately a few days of enjoying the holiday and family have took him down.  Dave has had his prostate out and his radiotherapy and like us has been left half well, but thanks for the offer of help.  Take care of you and your lovely Bren.  Xx

Hi Billy, Carol and Chriss,

It was a great day despite the long drive. I was asked to their New Years Eve night also but declined that one.  We had our own little gathering, just a few friends.  I had to laugh though everyone had gone by 10.30, everyoone was exhausted.  So I saw the NY in by myself with a glass of wine.  I was tired too but refused to give in before midnight.

Carol,  I hope they actually do something with your tooth soon.  Somehow I can't even imagine you looking like a chipmunk.  Sorry to hear Norman is not well.  I know they don't like to see the Dr, but I hope he decided to.see the Dr in the end.  Men just don't think the same way we do.  Hope you had a good day out with your brother and friends.  I hope Norman didn't hurt himself when he fell.  Some of those old movies are great.  The results would be playing on his mind also, and that won't ease until you get the results.  Kepp fighting cancer, it's got you this far.

Chriss, Hope you had a wonderful New Year's Eve, and wish you all the best for the coming year.

Been quiet here, but tomorrow I'm off to Melbourne for the twins birthday dinner.  Then have the Bunnings bbq on Sunday.  Not a else happening which is actually nice after Christmas and the New Year.

Take care, and love to all.  Sue xx
 

The doctor came at 8.30am as hubby had a terrible night, I climbed into bed at 1am after getting up three times to make sure he didn't fall over again, he agreed he needed a doctor.  So they think he may have a touch of pneumonia and he needed to go into hospital, but there probably wouldn't be a bed for him!  Can you imagine being stuck on a trolley in a corridor in his state, I said to him there's no way he is going in, it will finish him off and he'll probably get another infection.  The doctor who I've known for years nodded, they know what can happen.  I've given him the tablets and he's asleep, he was going to get up and have a shave to look respectable for him coming, one look from me and he backed down.  I'm taking everything down as I have no festive spirit and they're annoying me!  Lisa has just rang and said she will drive back up but I have told her to stay put as I don't need to worry about her as well, we had a little laugh and said we loved each other.  Faye is with Aunty Sue today so I will let her have a good day before I ring her, she will be worried.  The doctor has gone to try and find out our ct results and is coming back Monday with hopefully more idea of what is going on.  Love to you all, Carol xx 

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Sue, I'm so sorry I didn't see you had nipped on whilst I wasn't looking.  So pleased all went well for your New year, it must be terrifying in Sydney with all these fires, my half brother is in Sydney and he said its just so smokey, his wife is 6 months pregnant so not ideal.  Norman has just got up and aches all over, he isn't hungry but needs to eat to take his steroids, so he's munching on kit kats.  Everything is back in.the loft, my spare Norman came in handy, I've hoovered up, dusted and just having some lunch.  Take care.  Xx

Dear chipmunk (Carol) hehe hope the new year gets better for you both. I don't know how I've done it but I've pulled my shoulder, luckily it's not bad and I can still lift bren. But nice start to new year..

Hoping everyone has had less problems than we are happy new year to all...... 

Love. 

Billy xxxxxxx 

Well, aren't we all having a fab time.  Hubby is asleep again, he looks really poorly.  The bed was soaked right through so I've changed that, it was like the olden days as I hung the duvet out the window to dry!  I'll have to see if I have a spare one in the loft.    I'm off to get some painkillers as my tooth is throbbing.  Xx

Hi all, sorry to hear about everyone's woes, Happy bloody new year! I haven't been about much as things have gone very downhill here. I'm not sure when I last wrote so I can't remember if I told you that the cancer has now spread to his brain. Christmas was a bit of a sorry affair. We did make it to my sisters for dinner but he didn't sit at the table with the rest of us and he slept most of the day. He seems confused and yesterday was slurring so much I could have sworn he was drunk! It was pretty scary. I didn't make it to work as I was too scared to leave him. He seems better today and we have been to the hospital for a scan. He is so breathless that I had to put him in a wheelchair to get him to the department. He hates it but he can't walk any distance at all. Monday is results day. I'm trying to stay positive but it's hard after so many knock backs! This is one of the reasons I haven't been on here, I'm not much of a ray of sunshine at the moment! Carol, some of your stories really make me laugh out loud! I have read every bodies posts but I have to confess I haven't taken it all in. Take care of yourselves, Anthea xx