Hi all.  Sue, I almost rolled on the floor laughing when I read about your two year hydrotherapy.  I had five half-hour sessions - this is hydrotherapy National Health Service style.  No wonder I didn't feel any improvement!  Actually my ankle/foot is not too bad during the day but it doesn't half hurt during the night.  I usually end of hanging my foot down the side of the bed as that seems to help.  I just cannot face trying to interest someone at the doctor's surgery about it.  Actually I need to contact them anyway.  I had a vaginal prolapse a couple of years ago and got sent to the local hospital who inserted a small white ball-type thingie to keep everything in place.  Everything is still in place (or feels like it) but I have started getting a discharge so I need to get it looked at.  It is so difficult getting through to the doctor's surgery on the phone "You are number six in the queue" and this goes on for ages but I need to speak to them - I only need to be sent back to the hospital I should think.  Julie, hope all goes well with Dave at home.  Much love to all; life has its ups and its horrible downs.  Annie

Hi girls, I've been to zumba today and we did a breast cancer awareness week so all in pink and photographer taking lots of photos, if I can I'll post one so you can see what we do!  Nothing has broken today and my lovely neighbour has cut my back lawn for me so very happy.  Hubby has gone to Richmond hoping the power is back on.  He's still struggling badly with arthriths in both hands and wrists that he has been left with, obviously the immune system is attacked by chemo and his hasn't recovered well.  I must admit it did feel like Fawlty towers here this week but the old saying, everything comes in threes rang true.  I think hubby realised he'd pushed mea bit too far over the past few days and sort of apologised in a roundabout way, without actually apologising!  I'm u sure you girls kwow exactly what I mean!!  Anyway I remind him that Harry and Tugs are homes Saturday as he forgets easily, then Faye and her two,  I thought everyone had left home, he comments,  we seem to not have empty nest syndrome,  just half empty nest syndrome he states.  What can I say, they all love coming home, lots of older parents never see their children,  we should count our blessings, I got an eyes to the ceiling and a rictus grin in reply.   Keith and June have just popped round, she has early onset dementia at our age, we tried to go and see them but they were never home.  Keith has had to put her in a home for a week as she had a water infection that sent her into free fall,  trying to climb out of Windows, running  into the road and being totally out of control,  Keith looks thin and under a lot of pressure,  life is cruel sometimes,  we all worked from age sixteen, bought houses, reared children and saved for our retirement and within a few years were dealing with cancer,  dementia and loss of other freedoms, It's a wonder we don't all go mad!  Well on that cheery note, I'll see you soon. X

Hi Annie

do get your undercarriage checked out!  My mother in law has a prolapse (not sure if it's vagina or bladder) and she has a band which is changed every six months.  It works well for her, although she hates having it changed, it's only a five minute job.

Julie

You are so right Carol, I know lots of people who don't see their children as much as they want to.  I'm having coffee tomorrow with a friend whose 3 sons live in London.  Yes she sees them and her grandchildren quite often, but it means they spend half their lives on the motorway going down there to babysit during school holidays etc...It's lovely your family want to come and stay. 

Ah yes, the apology that's not really an apology...!

So sad about your friends.  

Still not sure if hubby's coming out Friday...it's all gone a bit quiet.  Will keep you posted.

Julie x

Hi Sue

How are you sleeping?  

I'm sure we will settle back into our routine after a day or two!  I just hope he can cope with Matilda for three days next week.  I committed to that before we knew he might be coming out!  He says he will be fine so I'll have to believe him!

Julie. X

Hi girls. Been reading all your news. Not been too good since my chemo ended. Overjoyed that I am in remission but still not much energy and got awful aches in my back, shoulders and my limbs. Think my arthritis has gone into overdrive . At least that’s all I hope it is. Got so worried and low. In tears most days . Really silly and weak I know. Trying to pull myself together and get out a little bit more. All day in the house not good. It’s hard to keep pottering when feeling achy but I’ve got to get out of this self pitying . Oh sorry I sound pathetic don’t I . I thought I’d be overjoyed at being in remission but although I am very grateful I don’t feel as happy as I should. You are all going through or have gone through dreadful stuff I know so sorry to go on. Sending you all lots of love and hugs xxx

Hi gloden

You are not silly, weak or pathetic.  I think it's only natural to feel achy, worried and low at the end of treatment. I expected to feel elated but felt alone and scared, and, under pressure to feel that everything was OK!  It's a sort of anticlimax I think.  Do try to get out for a walk if you can, enjoy the autumn colour and you might feel your spirits lift if only for 5 mins, it's a start.  The way you're feeling is totally understandable.  Don't try to be brave, have a good cry if you want, a few glasses of wine with a good friend, whatever works for you.  Feeling better will come gradually.

Much love

Julie x

Hi my girls, I think we are all coping marvellously with all that life had thrown at us.  Gloria you are doing so well to be in remission,  how good is that?  The problem is that you cope with the bad stuff then think you'll be alright but it takes time to get fully better.  Hubby was like you with terrible aches and it was awful to see.  In the end he had a blood test and he was anaemic so not enough oxygenated blood circulating , he needed a blood transfusion which worked so get a blood test, if you haven't had one.  I think we feel slightly abandoned after treatment and left to our own devices.   That is why this forum helps so much, we support each other and use our experience of cancer to help each other .  Annie, I didn't get round to replying to you as I now have a few on private messaging and because they are cancer based I've answered them.  So I hope you get your nether regions sorted!  We all have our own health issues because we're not twenty anymore! ! So let's carry on supporting each other daily,  living as good a life as we can and love each other.  Love Carol xx