Hello everyone; Sue if you read this, so sorry to hear that Neil isn't doing so well.  I have been thinking of you all and miss reading your posts.  Today my new credit card pin arrived but I haven't had time to do anything with it today; will leave it until I return from Somerset in a week's time.  I was talking to my neighbour (on the left hand side, called Lance as opposed to Eileen on my right hand side - she is no good at computers - for heavens sake she comes to me if she wants help!) to tell him I was going away - I think he was relieved that he was not being asked to do another fiddle-around on the pc - I am keeping fingers crossed that it doesn't start going wrong again just now.  Carol, sorry to read that you were hassled at the school.  I can imagine that such articles are a real problem for some families - not that gives them a right to take it out on yourselves.  I am glad I could get into the internet this evening: I looked up PeeWeeToms with whom I have been corresponding for some time on other forums and sadly discovered that he had died today - only 32 years old.  His family bravely got together on YouTube to tell all his followers what had happened.  I remember seeing Summer Holiday many, many years ago when I was young and Cliff Richard fan.  There wasn't the amount of well-known stars to follow (or so it seemed) in those days.  Hello to you Julie, I usually post more often but my pc has all but given up but is kept going by a helpful neighbour when (as often happens) it just stops working.  Love to you all.  Annie

Hello all

I've had some problems logging on here for the past few days, but things seem to have sorted themselves out now.

So sorry to hear that Neil is not ok.  My love and thoughts go out to him, Sue and their family.  Such a tough time. 

Caz, enjoy your time with Harry. They bring such joy.  I was hoping to see Matilda this afternoon but she may have to do wedding prep things with her mum.  Hubby will not be able to go to the wedding due to having intravenous antibiotics.  Once we got over the disappointment, it's a relief not to have to worry whether or not he would be able to!  Does that make sense?  We will rig up some kind of link via iPad/phone so he can be part of it from a distance.  He was moved off the ICU yesterday and seems to be doing well.  The infection in his pancreas has spread a little to his heart, which sounds alarming to me, but the Drs don't seem to be too concerned about this.  I do wonder if there will be any lasting effects on his heart - it's been through a lot in the last few days!

Our son is visiting his dad this afternoon so I have a free day until evening visiting.  I'm learning how to do all sorts of things - managed to move his car to put bins out AND reversed it back up the drive, wound up clock although it is an hour fast (it's a chimer and tricky to wind...) and now I think I need to mow the lawn.  Wish me luck.

Love and hugs to everyone, keep your collective peckers up!!

Julie

Hello everyone,  Thank you so much for your concern, it means a lot to us.  It is so heartbreaking to see,  He is not in pain though, so I'm thankful for that.  
Annie, I had also been reading PeeWee Toms blog, such an inspiration.  I was saddened to hear of his passing in your post.  I hadn't checked his blog in the last week with all that's happened here.
Julie, So sorry to hear your husband won't make it to your son's wedding, the link sounds wonderful so he can still be part of it all. It is good that he is out of ICU and improving.  Like you I am learning to do things I have never had to do, although our printer is still a major problem for me, I'm convinced it hates me.  My son-in-law will change the ink cartridges, and he also mows the lawn.  
Carol, Thank you for everything.

Love to you all.  Sue xx

I'm  sat here having a quick cup of coffee before everyone arrives again.  I did logon a at Midnight when I got home but having drank four vodka and limes plus a strawberry gin that my son in law talked me into having, things were a little blurred.  So I'll catch you all up tomorrow  because obviously there is a lot going on with you all.  Julie I'm sorry about the wedding but it's a relief sometimes on this cancer roller coaster to just make a decision and know it's the right one for you.  Sue I know we've been privately messaging every day and it's been a joy to communicate,  so thank you also.  Annie, it's lovely to have you back.  So love to you all and my manic Saturday will be posted on Monday.  Xxq

I've just realised that I had a sixteen hour day on Saturday and it took me all Sunday afternoon to recover.   I set off at 9.00 am for a nail bar I frequently use, they were shut!  After three other visits I gave up and went for coffee and scone,  I'll have to sit on my hands when not drinking or eating.   I drive to the station nearly get wiped out trying to park the car and it was all worth it,  Harry saw me and ran full pelt smiling his toothy grin and flung himself into my arms!  He is so solid I couldn't lift him up.   We go home, have lunch,build lego and then Daddy arrives having spent two days travelling from a funeral in Exeter.  They leave and it's so late I dash to get ready.  I'm so unused to wearing high heels now I forget how far I need to walk in them, needless to say by 10pm I'm barefoot with a blister on my heel!   Alison was stunned at her surprise party but I struggled with the disco music and flashing lights, even whilst we ate and having been put on the front table, trust me I suffered greatly for my drinks!  I'm pleased my birthday will be meals and chatter,  where we can hear each other and not end up with a sore throat through shouting.  I struggle to understand a party where people have travelled hundreds of miles to see you and you can't talk to each other.  AusSue's has contacted me today, Neil is failing rapidly and will not be going home,  she is relieved about that,  I have friends whose husband's have died at home and it has not been pleasant and left them with the nightmare of seeing them fail at home.  Julie I hope all us a little better for you. Xx

Dear all, Neil passed away peacefully with his family at his side.  I have sent my private wishes to Sue.  

Hi Carol. Been for result of latest biopsy and pet scan this morning. No cancer in latest breast lump. Just a cyst. Pet scan absolutely cancer free. I’m in full remission. After 12 months of radiotherapy, biopsies and chemo which knocked me for six and I’ve lost all my hair I can’t take it in let alone believe it. My Haematology lovely Dr said he was shocked too as he really thought with this latest lump appearing just at the end of chemo treatment that cancer was back and chemo not working for me. If it had because it’s a rare one I’ve got treatments are limited. Probably clinical trials. My daughter was with me and we both broke down and he got out the tissue box bless him. I can’t stop having tears. I’m so very humble and grateful. Thank goodness for our wonderful nhs and my caring wonderful doc. I know like any cancer this may not be for ever but my bloods were very good he said and I am feeling stronger every day. Even got tufts of hair. Awful grey but it’s hair. Wanted to share my news with you. I feel I know you and enjoy your posts each day. Hope you and hubby and family ok. Miracles do happen I feel. Lots of love Gloria xxx

Firstly, thank you all for the messages regarding Sue's husband, I will message her privately and pass them on.  Secondly,  Gloden what fabulous uplifting news, there is a God and he has seen in his heart your struggle.  Long may it last, sod the grey tufty hair, plenty of wigs and later hair dye!  Julie I hope hubby is doing a little better and you are coping.   My legs still ache from Saturday so my zumba class is not as exuberant as usual, plus the lawn needs mowing, I wish it would stop growing.  I just swept up and the window cleaner lands,  so I have a quick shower and knock the ornament off the shelf and smash the toilet seat.  I am honestly getting to the stage where  when these things happen I don't even get cross anymore , what's a broken toilet seat compared to cancer, nothing.   I've just given hubby some big smackeroos and he looks bemused but after Sue's news,  it brought home to me how short life can be with cancer.  He doesn't know about this forum or who I write to so how can I say I want you to know I love you because a good friends husband has died.   It's a gorgeous day, sunny and blue skies but the wind is fierce,  I've just had to pick another dead bird up, it must have flown into the window, it makes me shudder and gives me the creeps.   These are the sort of thing men are made for but mine can't stand up in the wind so I'd probably end up having to pick him up as well, except he wouldn't end up in the bushes!  I'm being lazy again for his tea, braised steak amd mash from the lovely M & S shop, I've had a gippy tummy since Lumley Castle,  definitely the food, certainly not the drink!  So a little bit of pasta for me.  Funny story, I came home today and hubby yells down the stairs, I can't get my leg off, WHAT do you mean, the buttons not releasing it he says, guess where we're off to again tomorrow! Fortunately he's fiddled with it and is now wearing the other one.  Crikey it's one thing after another.   Take care all of you. Xx