Hardly surprising you’re tired with what you pack in to your life. Put your feet up for a little while woman!

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I think it will be cold in Newcastle - if the train gets there at all!

Annie xx

Well I tootle up to bed a 10pm so I can put this gum shield in and read whilst I become accustomed to it.  Not too bad I think despite the saliva (apparently your mouth thinks you're putting food in it and the saliva starts).  I settle down and try to sleep, I'm grinding my teeth on rubber now and by 2.30 am I have ear rache,  toothache a sore throat and feel sick! I climb out of my warm bed and try to pull it off, it's stuck like glue I have horrific images of all my capped teeth coming out with it!!  I'm in such a state I have to hunt for ibuprofen  (they're hidden so hubby can't take them as he is not allowed and we all know how well behaved he is!!)  Three ibuprofen ànd a glass of water and I climb back into bed and sleep.  I look great when I get up, bags on bags!  Great it's snowing again heavily but I brave it, leave him in bed and head out.  I leave his breakfast ready and he has booked another appointment without telling me to go to  James Cook again, it clashes with my all ready booked 1920 afternoon themed day out at Hardwick.   I'm not giving in he can book hospital patient travel or ask a friend, many of  whom  have offered their services, but he wants me with him, not going to happen this time!!!  Off out tonight for Mary's birthday as long as we are not snowed in.  See you tomorrow .

Hubby kindly offered to drive us for our meal so I could drink, but this morning it's not helping my zumba moves!   I go and get my car washed as I am picking everyone up to have after  noon tea at Wynyard and a good mooch around the glass house.   I come home, make us a sandwich,  he's staying in his wheelchair to help his scar, and seems a lot more content in doing this, or he's accepted the status quo.  Quick shower and I'm off.  Pick everyone up, get to Wynyard and the flipping glass house is shut for a revamp and a big pop up shop day at the end of the month! !  I really am fated in everything I plan  Anyway we sit and chat over coffee and cake for two hours until we are thrown out!!  Back home he's wheeled himself into the front room for a comfy seat, the conservatory is out of bounds due to the runner for the patio doors. I quietly check my new furniture for scratches,  there are none so well done to him.  Steak burgers for his tea.  Food shop tomorrow before everyone lands on us!!  See you tomorrow. 

Hi ANNIE,  so glad all went well it sounds like he was A well liked gentleman.  I know sometimes my plans go awry but my life has always been like that, as my Mother would have said best laid plans and all that I think I was coming off the site before checking the posts were posted, so I will have to be more careful.   Anyway I'm off to Tesco so I can feed all my family.  Have a peaceful day. Xx

Well I'm back from Tesco after a marathon shop and as I don't normally shop there a marathon walkabout looking for everything!   Ella is severely allergic to egg so I have to read the ingredients on everything I purchase,  so one and a half hours later I'm home.  Hubby has put his leg on and seems more comfortable but asks me why I have been so long.   He soon knows why   It takes me ages to unpack and put away and by 2.3pm I'm done,  great a sit down and some food, nope the doorbell rings and it's our lovely friend John come to see how we are.  He's just gone I've had no food, my feet are killing me and hubby has gone for a sleep as he's worn out he says!!  Anyway last bit of me time until next Friday when everyone should have gone home.  The surgery have just telephoned for me, very unexpected,  my blood pressure needs checking after last years diagnosis,  can I make an appointment  next week.  I politely decline next week I think I might end up hospitalised, due to everyone being here.  We agree the week after, I'm not expecting it to have gone down

I have a really good night's sleep (sheer exhaustion comes to mind) and take Hubby his tea, feeling cheerful about family arriving.   He groans and tells me he's had a horrible night with a dry cough and no sleep and my heart sinks.  I give him some pain killers and tell him to stay put.  He finally comes down at 11 am minus his leg and uses the wheelchair,  he'll do this until they arrive he tells me.  Apparently the 15th March is the 15th February,  and I get blamed  for writing it down wrong! !  I don't even bother arguing, he is so tied up in Monday's appointment everything else is not remembered.  Lisa rings from the car phone,they are on their way and Harry is shouting I love you Grandma, this cheers me up and I feel happy again.  He wanted his Mummy to count his toes last night as he was worried he had frost bite!!  He asks her how would you know and she says that she's not sure, ring Grandma he tells her, she knows everything,  out of the mouth of babe's.   If I go missing for a few days it's because I won't have time!!   See you soon.xx

The family arrive but hubby has got a terrible cough and a stonking cold and is not in a good place.   We are up in the night and I get back into bed at 3 am and am still awake at 5am.   I have a headache when I get up and he stays in bed.  He comes down and is on my case all the time. We go out without him and have a fun day, back home he has knocked the scab off again by answering the front door, which he didn't need to do so I am made to feel guilty about not being there.   Doesn't want any tea, but our friend rings to say back from America and lumch out tomorrow do we,want to go,  no I tell her.   I relay this too hubby and he pulls a face  and said he wanted to go.  He is on another planet and my daughter says to ignore him.  This is all about Monday as he tells me he will find out if he us going to survive.  God give me strength because I am losing the plot and am not sure how much longer I can take this.

Oh dear, I know it is good for you to have your family with you but it all sounds a bit much.  You need to set aside an hour say for yourself I am thinking but after reading this I laugh at my naivety!   Excuse me, I am feeling a bit cranky at the moment; I keep seeing my uncle's coffin on the bier and I think because he is the last of my mother's siblings I feel all links are now broken.  And he was so nice and I must make extra efforts to write and phone to my aunt.  They have three children with whom we are all quite close and chatty fortunately but my aunt looked so small and weary at the funeral.  Well, I know these things happen and I will get used to it. How are you feeling about Monday's appointment; your hubby sounds somewhat stressed about it.  Enjoy your time with your daughter and try to grab a bit of rest wherever you can!  Hide somewhere!