Hi everyone,
Today has been a really bad day, I'm not so sure I can do this now, I've been putting a brace face on since I was diagnosed. But inside I can feel myself crumbling.
Everything Is not okay, I'm terrified.
I've finally had my date for chemo confirmed, consent forms all signed. Six cycles, three weeks a cycle. I'll be having a port put in in between my first and second cycle, as my veins are not good.
The waiting for treatment to start is painfully slow. It's less than two weeks away but that feels like an eternity right now. I'm really struggling to sleep, I'm so tried all the time, I feel sick and I don't want to eat. Everything seems so pointless.
Please tell me this is normal, that everyone goes through this, things will get better.
Sorry for the negitive post, I don't want to worry my family anymore than they already are. I just needed somewhere to vent.