its more of a mental issue than a physical,i had breast cancer and a masectomy 10yrs ago,i now have bowel cancer,op next thurs with probably chemo after,i cant seem to gather any inner strength thinking if i endure all of this i might face the same or worse in the future,life doesnt seem to hold anything but pain and worry,i felt more optinistic the first cancer,is this a common reaction 2nd time around?