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Sassybro
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I have stage 3 malignant melanoma. Initially was told the would remove a little of my ear and that would be the end of it. 3 ops down, a mini ear and all the lymph nodes in the left side of my neck removed, and a salivary gland, and now I'm facing 6 weeks of radiotherapy from above my ear, down my neck and across my chest and left shoulder. I feel scared, alone, my husband picks fights so much so that I'm starting treatment on my own. Through stress I've stopped eating, I'm constantly exhausted. I worry that it's not going to work and that my boys won't have a mum. I think it's worse dealing with it after finding out my so called best friend lied about having cancer so I now have no confidant.  Please advise me how to get through this. 

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    Hello !

    First of all I suggest to take it one day at the time, anticipation will do you no good, nutrition is essential you have to eat it's a must, as for your husband maybe you could ask a family member to step in or somebody that he respect's to set him straight and to backoff, you didn't ask for this  now as for your exhaustion try to sleep as much as you can if you feel the need.

    I know it's a hard time (believe me) so focus all your energy's on yourself now is the time to be selfish, put yourself first your kids will thank you for it down the road.

    Merino from Canada

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    I have recently completed 6 weeks of radiotherapy for neck cancer. I felt very alone despite having support from family and friends. I don't think that I appreciated how worried and stressed my family where...this may manifest itself with arguments or appearing not to care when deep down they do. I recently starting counselling as I am very tearful and down....my partners reply to this was.....how about me!!! I need help too...and yes I think he probably does...
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    Nobody in my family have really taken it seriously as mine is skin or started out as that. They don't realise how serious or aggressive it is because it's not a known cancer. They don't believe you can die from it even when I was told that another couple of months untreated and I would have been. I will see about some counselling. Thank you. What was your pain like with the radio? They told me I will have trouble swallowing and eating. 

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    I think I'm gonna go for counselling. My family have not taken my cancer serious as it's not a known cancer. They don't realise how serious my cancer is. Just feel I'm banging my head against a brick wall. I will try to eat but my appetite has gone. Not eaten since Friday. 

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    Top of the morniong to you !

    If you have a blender try making yourself some healthy smoothie's they are great

    1) 2 cups of milk

    2) 1  egg

    3) 3 tbs of naturel greek yougurt

    4) a handfull of blueberry's or strawberry's, banana

    5) a pinch of cinamon

    optional: few cubes of ice

    Breakfast of Champions :)

    p.s. I don't know how it works in the UK with your health system but couselling seem's like a great idea

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    Merino

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    Hi Sassybro, 

    i am in same situation ATM. Completed my 6 chemo and waiting for results. Feel empty and exhausted all the time. Crying all the time. Just don't know what to wait for. Family who cares and worry is far away, but some friends when u need them they not here. Alone in 4 walls. Not easy journey.... 

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