Hi Grace, welcome to the forum, but sorry to hear you have cancer. I guess it is your age that makes this even more difficult, but we know that age is not a factor in a cancer diagnosis. I'm not sure from your post if you're losing faith because you are minding the treatments, or if you are just feeling discouraged about the diagnosis; perhaps a little of both. Its' not unusual to have a delayed reaction to the diagnosis. Sometimes it take a bit of time for the reality to sink in, or the treatments become more challenging. I don't know what your living situation is, so I will ask if you have family and loved ones around to support you through this? It certainly isn't something to get through alone, regardless of your age. Perhaps a candid conversation with your treatment team might be beneficial in getting you over the hump as you go through your treatment. I'm sure they would have dealt with other patients undergoing treatment and hopefully would have some words of wisdom to share with you.

Dealing with cancer at any age is very stressful and downright scary, so don't feel that you are alone in your feelings. Many of us out here know what that feels like and would be the first to tell you that we went through the same feelings as you are having right now. I would guess that your cancer was diagnosed very early on in the disease and of course your young age hopefully would give you a chance for success in your treatment. I think your feelings of defeat will pass. Give it some time and in the meantime, try to do things you enjoy and are able to do, that bring you comfort and contentment. I hope you have family and friends around you to support you through your treatment. Certainly, come back on here to the forum and "talk" with other forum members who can relate to how you are managing.

Sending you hugs.

Lorraine