Is this really happening to me?

So on 18th Feb 2016 I was diagnosed with stage 2 breast cancer. I have undergone an operation to remove the cancer and a full lymph node clearence under my left arm and I am currently waiting to start my 6 sessions of chemotheropy followed by a month of radiotherapy. 

4 days before starting my chemotherpay and it has only just sunk in what is happening thanks to the shock and whirlwind over the last 67 days (to be exact). To say I'm nervous is an understatement, I am completely TERRIFIED with the unknown that's to come but I'm assuming that's normal? 

I've recently realised I can no longer hide behind the phrase 'I'm ok' but I am starting to really struggle with my diagnosis and everything I'm about to go through. I've decided to attend some counselling sessions with Tenovus in a hope that speaking to someone will take the strain of keeping things in away.

I suppose the question I want to know is will this feeling of 'my life is over' go away? I was so positive when I found out up until I had my operation but I feel as though I'm a broken person now and I've completely lost myself.

 

 

Parents
  • Hi hunni, I'm waiting to see if I've ovarian cancer, but I also feel quite like giving up, but like me you're young, I don't no if you have little ones, but I've recently joined the page and you no what, your never alone and your life is far from over! Your a beautiful young lady, that life's thrown a spanner in the works, what doesn't break us, makes us stronger. I no I don't no what your going through, but my main point is - do not give up! Once your better, live life to the full and make every second count. Always here if you need a moan - God knows I do xxx 

  • Hello :) thank you for replying. Sorry to hear about your position, it's horrid waiting isn't it. I waiting a week for my results and it was the worst week of my life! 

    Its so strange because I was so positive about it all but I think the closer I get to starting chemo, the more I'm going down hill. The age is a big thing for me also. I am single with no children so I feel like there is no chance in me getting those thing now which is making me worse. I had fertility treatment so freeze my eggs just in case the chemo makes me infertile but it's the whole thing of meeting someone etc if/when I get better. 

    Thank you for being so sweet. It's nice to hear that people feel the same way. I hope you get the results you need! I have everything crossed for you.

     

    xx

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  • Hello :) thank you for replying. Sorry to hear about your position, it's horrid waiting isn't it. I waiting a week for my results and it was the worst week of my life! 

    Its so strange because I was so positive about it all but I think the closer I get to starting chemo, the more I'm going down hill. The age is a big thing for me also. I am single with no children so I feel like there is no chance in me getting those thing now which is making me worse. I had fertility treatment so freeze my eggs just in case the chemo makes me infertile but it's the whole thing of meeting someone etc if/when I get better. 

    Thank you for being so sweet. It's nice to hear that people feel the same way. I hope you get the results you need! I have everything crossed for you.

     

    xx

Children
  • Hiya, to me the waiting is the worst bit! I lost 6 before having the 3 little ones I have, very difficult pregnancies and labours, but i can do it, so can you! You seem very prepared and up beat - I wish! I've like a dark cloud above me I can't shake of, but I'm sure both of us will be fine. I'm going to see if there's a group here in nottm, be nice to speak with others like me, it's great on here, all in a sim boat, but always remember to keep your head high. - you can do this xxx