Hi I'm sorry to hear about everything you've been through. I know we're all going through similar situations, some worse and some better than others. But we're all going through cancer of some sort, whether it's ourselves or a family or friend we care for and love. 

My dad was diagnosed with terminal aggressive prostate cancer 3 months ago, he's currently on hormone therapy. He is unable to have any treatment as its spread to his lymph nodes and his lungs. He seems ok physically at the moment, but he still rushes to the toilet and can't always make it in time :(

hes only 65 and we don't know how long he has left. His Gleason score is 9. We're waiting to hear if he has it in his bones. His next oncology appointment is in a week's time.

It feels like a bomb ticking away waiting to go off, as we don't know how long he has left, or when he will start deteriorating. I can't cope, life still goes on and we still have to go to work, put on a front. Days of feeling angry and upset. But also making the most of the time my dad has left. Also scared about my mom incase something happens to her too, and she isn't great medically either. My grandmother isn't great either. And my little sister is going through some medical issues of her own too. I feel like I'm the strong one and inside I'm falling apart and constantly feel down. 

Coming to this site and forum helps, as well as talking to friends, but u hate to be a burden, and hate being miserable around others. So I keep the hurt and anger to myself. 

I guess u can only try to do what u can, make the most of the time, be positive (well I hate being told that as we can't receive any good news now!) 

see what treatment u can have, and what is best for u, as every individual is different. Prostate cancer is becoming more and more common but everyone is different. Do what makes u happy (as can be!) and make the most of the positive out of a horrible situation