Oh Beckyboo - it is a fright and people react so differently.  A close friend of mine just did all he could to have fun and share and give and giggle and be as long as he could - he taught me that this was the right road for me too.  But I get scared and miserable and angry and down and snappy and lazy and .....horrible!  He didn't - so, I excuse myself when I get lost in despair and try to refocus on the second and the minute.  Tough for me as I have alwayd mentally leapfrogged in life - jumping to next rather than being in present.  No words of wisdom from me - I am just struggling to enjoy now and I do hope that by just receiving this......you will feel good that someone else is thinking of you and for you and about you.  Sian

Oh Beckyboo - it is a fright and people react so differently.  A close friend of mine just did all he could to have fun and share and give and giggle and be as long as he could - he taught me that this was the right road for me too.  But I get scared and miserable and angry and down and snappy and lazy and .....horrible!  He didn't - so, I excuse myself when I get lost in despair and try to refocus on the second and the minute.  Tough for me as I have alwayd mentally leapfrogged in life - jumping to next rather than being in present.  No words of wisdom from me - I am just struggling to enjoy now and I do hope that by just receiving this......you will feel good that someone else is thinking of you and for you and about you.  Sian