Oh Beckyboo - it is a fright and people react so differently.  A close friend of mine just did all he could to have fun and share and give and giggle and be as long as he could - he taught me that this was the right road for me too.  But I get scared and miserable and angry and down and snappy and lazy and .....horrible!  He didn't - so, I excuse myself when I get lost in despair and try to refocus on the second and the minute.  Tough for me as I have alwayd mentally leapfrogged in life - jumping to next rather than being in present.  No words of wisdom from me - I am just struggling to enjoy now and I do hope that by just receiving this......you will feel good that someone else is thinking of you and for you and about you.  Sian

Hi Becky.

My wife died of a peritoneal cancer ( related to ovarian ) in October - it's aggressive and average survival is 2 years from diagnosis - she made 3. Her mother died of the same condition and she made 4..

Whilst 50% dies of this after 2 years, 25% make 5 so it's much more complex and what's important is the quality of life you're getting. Melaine was very lucky - she had no real pain until the last couple of weeks and was pretty mobile throughout. She tolerated the Chemo well and proudly walked around with her bald head delighting in outrageous ear-cuffs!

I have an amazing picture of her a year after diagnosis balancing on a garden chair constructing a greenhouse.

She fully believed in the value of denial - sticking your head in the sand and pretending it wasn't real.

I'm not sure it's advisable for everyone and it has given me some issues to sort out now she's gone! But it certainly got her through the day. I don't know whether you're as lucky as her or have really difficult symptoms - I do know that it's not the length of time you have left it's important but what you do in that time