I was diagnosed with breast cancer in November 14 the days after my 29th birthday.it was a massive shock to everyone.luckily (everyone keeps saying this-lucky?!) I had a lumpectomy with clear margins & clear lymph nodes.radiotherapy for 4 weeks & tamoxifen & that should be it.So why am I struggling so much emotionally?I had to go back to work 3 weeks after surgery as I don't get sick pay & have rent/bills to pay.Im also still in quite a bit of pain.My boyfriend expects me to go back to my usual girlfriend duties ie house work/sex like nothing has happened.Yet I just want to stay in bed & cry.also not sleeping well.currently on Tramadol & zolpidem which is helping but don't want to get addicted.help!!
2 weeks into Radiotherapy treatment.feeling very tight & sore.things gone from bad to worse with the boyfriend.he makes me feel guilty about him having to take me on his days off as "he's got better things to be doing with his time" I don't think anyone wants to do this!?the wear & tear on his car & mileage on his car.so I've been trying to get my sister & uncle to take me.they have booked afternoons off work,or it will be their only day off & they don't begrudge taking me.he doesn't see it as a serious illness as u haven't had chemo & thinks I should just stop being mardy.im depressed & lonely & feel unsupported but if I try & talk I feel shot down.on the up side met the counsellor & that is really helping.hope the soreness & pain goes soon x
Chloe this is a difficult time for you and you are most probably going to get lower. It's time to look after yourself and if other people want to help you this is the time when you just let them. As for your bf just concentrate on you and yourself, thats all you are going to have the effort for. It's time to block out all those who irritate and cause you emotional problems.
It's also a time for you to be able to talk to someone or something. I wrote a blog on my experience gammaraygary.wordpress.com/about/ .
Chloe happy to chat and there on many on here to help too
