Oh Jacqueline my heart bleeds for you,

Life is so hard and look what you have had to deal with and are still trying to deal with. Yes, everybody does say "it gets easier". I'm not sure I agree with that altogether. Having lost my father and other close family members I don't think easier is the right word. You tend to come to terms with it better but it does take time. It's harder when the person who died is so young. People also say everything happens for a reason, but how can it?

So Jacqueline I can't make it better for you, I wish I could. Those beautiful babies are your sister, they are part of her and so a part of all of you. Wherever you are, so is she, and always will be. Hug those babies tight, they will need their family. Keep going through the motions, cry and scream, your grief has to come out for you to begin to accept.

I also think we have anger in us and that takes time to subside. And trying to come to terms what your brave sister went through. She did it because she wanted as much time as possible with you all.

Look around you Jacqueline she will be there in all that you do. I do so feel for your loss.

Keep coming on here, rant and rave, whatever you feel like doing.

Take care, Miras.

Thanks Miras for your advice.  My sister was such a brave brave girl and would have done anything for her family.  I feel that spending time with my wee neice and nephew makes me feel close to her.  They are all I have left of her (as well as memories).  We spent so much time together that I really really miss her.  Why why why????????????????????????????????

My family has had such a hard time in the last year.  Within a year my mum's best friend died from cancer, one brother died on new years eve, another brother died about a month later, my sister died in May and my aunt (mums sister) died from lung cancer just about a month ago.  I am surprised my mum is holding up so well but I think she holds it all in because when I even mention my sisters name you can see the tears filling up in her eyes. Things could not possible get any worse.

Hi  Jacqueline, I'm so sorry to hear of your loss and the way you are feeling now. I lost my sister six weeks ago, she was a bit older than yours but I know somewhat of what you are feeling.I still can hardly believe that it has happened. Miras offers such wise and kind advice so I think we have to listen to what she says and hope that things will get easier. Your family has had such a rotten time of it this year  so I really hope that things start to get easier for all of you. Our sisters are probably looking down on us now and wishing we weren't so sad. Will be thinking of you.x

Hi  Jacqueline, I'm so sorry to hear of your loss and the way you are feeling now. I lost my sister six weeks ago, she was a bit older than yours but I know somewhat of what you are feeling.I still can hardly believe that it has happened. Miras offers such wise and kind advice so I think we have to listen to what she says and hope that things will get easier. Your family has had such a rotten time of it this year  so I really hope that things start to get easier for all of you. Our sisters are probably looking down on us now and wishing we weren't so sad. Will be thinking of you.x

Sorry Marietta for your lose and do think she is looking over us all as strange wee things happen.  I hold on to that hope.  My sister's wee daughter is just like my sister in every way and has taken over her role in the house, giving her wee brother and daddy loads of hugs and kisses and making sure the house is kept in tip top condition lol just like her mummy.  So so alike its unreal.