Hi

if you would like to talk about it message me and we can do it privetly

Erika xx

Hi Ladies (and Tony)

I thought it was about time that I checked in...... lots of things have happened to me in the last year.

I have really struggled since losing my mum, and seemed to have more bad days than good........ but that finally seems to have turned around now.

Let me give you the short version

I had reconstructive surgery April 2011 and unfortunately the left side rejected..... I then had to wait 10 months before they did it again..... this time it didn't reject, but the filler port went missing..... after 3 or 4 appointments, the surgeon finally sent me for an ultra sound.... and then they found the filler port, but it had collapsed under the bottom rib, causing the implant to flip over, so when ever i took my sports bra off, my left breast slipped down my chest about 6 inches (looking back now i can see the funny side ) but at the time i didn't.

I was supposed to be going on holiday to Portugal on the 13th of this month but I had to cancel because I had more surgery scheduled for 11th May..... The surgery seemed to go well and I have 2 boobs again, but it now looks like the surgeon has used a bigger implant in the left side than the right (deep joy) So I'm sat writing this with a chest full of stitches.... but I feel whole again for the first time in 20 months...... and the holiday has been re booked for last week in august, so that will give me something to aim for.

I dont know if i have to have more surgery until i go back to the consultant on thursday..... I will keep you all informed.

Another plus is...... I am doing the race for life on the 24th June..... in fact we have a team from my local pub "the corner pin girls" there are 7 of us doing it so far, my daughter, her best mate (landlady's daughter) a young barmaid, my friend and her daughter and our friend Ann, a pensioner who is a regular in the pub...... we have raised quite a lot of money already................... All the youngsters are jogging, and Ann got a bit upset because she said she was going to walk it..... I told her i was walking it too, so we would walk together...... to which Ann said "I will probably come last"..... so i just smiled and said "Ann, you're a pensioner and i will be a month out of surgery, as long as we finish, that's all that matters"...... so that is something else to look forward to.

I think I have rambled on enough now..... I am glad to see so many people doing so well

Love to all

Caz Xxx

Hi Anne

Hope you are keeping well and thanks for your kind words, I have to fight it as I became a grand mother this year to two lovely boys both my son's had children they are my world my everything, please keep in touch

Little Sis

(Linda)

Hi Colly

Thank you hope you are well, I am told it was very aggressive went from zero to grade three within a few months but hey like you said kicked its a.. once can do it again, so good to hear from the old crowd it is true when we all said we are like family and hopefully now this thread is starting up again it may help others once they read some of it.

Please keep in touch

Linda

As the boyfriend of someone who has been through treatment once, I know that I cannot speak from experience about having to go through the treatment a second time. So far it has been great news for her first course of treatments. She is now five years clear and I hope and pray that it continues.  I can offer you all the very best for the new year. Treatments have improved over the past four years, thanks to CRUK and others, so you will get the very best available. I know that the contributors to Cancer Chat will be of amazing support. If you feel that anyone close to you, (assuming) boyfriend, husband or any other male party fancies a natter I am only a post away.

RD

Hi Linda

We all posteed so many feelings and thoughts when we wer all going thru it the first time!

Iam so sorry to here your news ! Bast**** disease.

We are all still here to ask anything anytime ! I for one am a rubbish sleeper so if you need a early hours chat Iam your man! Xx

Will be thinking and praying for you thru this really tough time !

Thaer is still quite a few of us that keep in touch ,we are all happy to be there if you need a chat or a cyber hug!

Lots love Nina xxx

I am so sorry you have to go through this again - I know I appreciated all the kindness you showed me (I was having treatment the same time as you). I will be thinking of you and wishing you all the very best  x

Jan

Hi Nina

Hope this finds you well, It is so comforting that you all still come on here from time to time and am able to talk to people that k.ow of me from old, it would of been four years clear in February really thought that I would of made the five years I just cannot believe it can't get my head around why again you think you have done everything right over that time although I am told its a completely different type this time and in the other breast.

I was due to go to Gambia Monday just gone but they told me I had to cancel my holiday as they could not take the risk of me going so that really upset me to I know I can have a holiday after and boy will I lol where I do not know, I know health comes first but you know what it is like when you are back on that roller coaster. I am told I maybe having chemo once a week for either 12 or 18 weeks depending what results come back from the surgery so will keep you updated on that and not looking forward to it although I am told it will not be fec but part of the Taxatier family(think I spelt it right) but hey as long as it get rids of it who cares, I will have to grow my hair all over again that's the part I hated most last time loosing my hair, we all use to say it and it hasn't changed now.

Well I can go on and on but what's the point it is what it is and I have to deal with it and praying it's not as bad this time around

Take care my friend and sending a cyber hug

Linda xx

Hi Sites I

Good to hear from you glad your doing well yes it was a really big shock but as you can see from what I have written earlier I know it's going to be hard but with all you guys around it will make my journey easier please keep in touch and stay safe

Your Friend

Linda

Hi Linda

I see from the time of your messaging that sleep is not your friend ! Hardly suprising! But  as I said I always seem to be awake around now so happy to have chat !

I having been thinking about you so much ever since I saw the post about your cr**news.It is what we all dread, but we will all do everything we can to help you do this again xx

It is horrible that you had to cancel your holiday, I know as you say health is more important but We so look forward to our hols! During your treatment you can plan a big one for when its over.Since I finished treatment in march 2011(diagnosed july 2010) we have had a number of really fab hols! It changes whats important to you you! We are going away as a family just the 4 of us for christmas ( we have 2 girls aged 21and 18 ) something we never had christmas in sun I think our experiences make you do things you want rathe than just think them ! So u get planning my girl! I will be taking my ipad so will keep up to date with how you doing !

How is everyone around you doing ? Do u have good support ? I remember how rubbish it feels watching the people you care about being upset ! I personally found that one of the hardest bits! So thats where your cyber family here come in ! You dnot have to be careful what u say to us for fear of upseting us (although we care deeply ) you can rant away on here say what you like to us moan, cry, say anything even stuff friends and family might feek inappropriate! We all know what those times are like !

Please please remember we will be here for ya !

Lots love cyber hugs your fellow insomnic friend

Nina xxxx

Hi Linda

Absolutely gutted to read your post n can't tell you how sorry I am. Awful news. I promise I will be here for you too. Mine was very aggressive n op was in December. Still here n waiting for my 4 year clear. You will get through this. It must be terrifying to go through it all again. Unfortunately my body didn't recover from chemo n has left me using wheelchair on odd occasions that I do go out. This is why I haven't posted. I'm feeling too poorly to write more today I'm afraid. We will lift you up n carry you through this nightmare.

Loads of love to you. Leonie xxxxxx

Hello everyone. Hope you don't mind me joining. My Mum has just been diagnosed with breast cancer if you have a look at my other posts you will see what the doctors have said. They have put her on hormone tablets until her op as first she needs an mri because the mammogram and ultrasound are showing the tumour as different sizes. The mri is on the 27th and then the results and to talk about her treatment plan is on the 7th january. Seems so long to wait her consultant said he can get rid of this but I am still so scared the cancer is grade 3 and either 15mm or 30mm, depending on which measurement is right. I'm just scared the hormone tablets won't work and we will go back and the tumour will have grown. I think all of you are so brave on this thread. My Mum is being very brave right now too. Carrying on as normal. Sorry for the lack of paragraphs I'm on my phone xx

Hello everyone. Hope you don't mind me joining. My Mum has just been diagnosed with breast cancer if you have a look at my other posts you will see what the doctors have said. They have put her on hormone tablets until her op as first she needs an mri because the mammogram and ultrasound are showing the tumour as different sizes. The mri is on the 27th and then the results and to talk about her treatment plan is on the 7th january. Seems so long to wait her consultant said he can get rid of this but I am still so scared the cancer is grade 3 and either 15mm or 30mm, depending on which measurement is right. I'm just scared the hormone tablets won't work and we will go back and the tumour will have grown. I think all of you are so brave on this thread. My Mum is being very brave right now too. Carrying on as normal. Sorry for the lack of paragraphs I'm on my phone xx

Hello Bumblegirl

Glad you joined our conversation as we are here to help and support you for as long as you need it, as you can see this thread has been going for a while and full of good information if you care to read through it, we all need the support at a time like this whether we are going through it or have a loved one doing this journey.

Sorry to hear about your mum she will be fine while waiting to see the doctor and she will be treated accordingly, I assume it is hormone based with what you have said once she has the Mri and ct scan they will know more, has she had an ultra sound and mammogram yet? How are you feeling through all of this, we are all here for you whenever you need us, this is the second time around for me went through it nearly four years ago, my two sons are born worriers so I understand your feelings fully.

Please keep in touch and let us know how things go take care

Little Sis (Linda)

Hi Littlesis, So sorry to hear that you are having to go through this s**t again and as you say probably knowing what is coming with the chemo is the worst but then again at least you have the arsenal of remedies for the side affects ready to help.  Personally I haven't touched a ginger biscuit in the last four years. As the 'girls' have said we are here for you to rant, winge, cry, off load what ever is worrying you..we are all strong!   I am sure that you will get through this.  Love Patricia x

Hi Bumblegirl,  Sorry to hear about your mum.  If you have the time try and read this thread from the beginning. You will find some useful information and some funny stories but on the whole you will find a little community that has stuck together through thick and thin.  We have been here for each other and have continued to stay in contact after four years.

Yes your mum will be worried underneath that brave exterior but we all have our own ways of coping with it.  Myself at times I wanted to talk about it and other times just wanted to be normal.  This site also gave me the opportunity to talk to people who initially I didn't know but had the same bond and understanding.  Any time you need to talk we will be here.  love Patricia x

Hi Patricia

How are you and hope you had a good Christmas, thank you for your kind words really appreciate it, it is so good knowing my little cyber. family are here to help me again  as we all know we need all the help we can get going through this nasty despicable disease and so pleased I found the thread again, when you read through it does help to ease your mind believe me, well enough of the past now for the future and a new fight begins

Speak to you soon and stay safe and healthy

Little Sis (Linda)

Hello All

Hope you all had a good Christmas with your family's, well I am having trouble sleeping and haven't even started the Chemo yet, although I have been through this once I slept quite well except when I was on the steroids after each lot of chemo, I now find that I just can't  sleep and wander if anyone else is the same, yes I know it can be understandable but what can be done to help me any suggestions welcome.

Thank you all

Little Sis

Hi first time on site i have just been diagnosed with breast cancer every thing happening so quick have had masectomy been told I will have to go back for a further op to remove more lymp nodes now so scared and i am not sleeping well and very emotional.

Hiya ladies

I think you both need to see your Drs to get some sleeping pills. I was the same n still am but I have zopiclone nightly. Some find diazepam helps them to relax. I haven't found anything natural to help. Bless you both, your thoughts will be driving you mad. I'm so sorry to hear your news Kaleah. It all does happen so fast. Try to take it in stages. First op is over, get through the next one n then think about treatment.

Sis, family are doing well n all growing up. Lil one is 5 now. Unfortunately I think this is the best I'm gonna get. 1 in 4 people that survive cancer treatment end up with a chronic illness. At least I know why I haven't got better. Good news yesterday, I got my 4 year clear. Was talking to Bon jovi last night n she had to fight it again last year. Heartbreaking for you all. Wish you lots of love n be thinking of you.

   Leonie xxxx

P.s did a fundraiser for cancer research in September dressed as superheroes. Raised £1200. Don't forget that there are people supporting research n them top scientists will find a cure. Stay strong. Xxxx

Hi Lonie

Thanks for getting back I have thought about seeing the doctor but I am trying not to take sleeping tablets as will have enough things to take soon enough as you know, had a good night's sleep last night so fingers crossed lol.

Well I saw the breast care team on Friday as surgeon on holiday but they are pleased with the healing and phsyio also pleased so far so good, am going back on the 2nd Jan to see surgeon and Oncologist so hopefully they got it all and I will get my plan for chemo will keep you updated.

How is Bon Jovi doing now would love to speak to her again as she will know if things are different second time around any chance you can contact her, I will try on here though

Well take care my dear and speak soon

Little Sis (Linda)

Will message her now. Xxx

Thank you xxx