Hi, glad everything turned out ok for you!

I have my MRI scan on wednesday...so hoping I get the resuls through quick and I know whats going on.

Good luck today. Really hope your MRI goes well n you get good results. Be thinking of you. Xx

Hi Rose, just to let you know I did tell Jon about it n he is coming with me. You were right n I was stressing myself out trying to think of a lie! Silly. At home with charly awaiting the dreaded outing. We shall see. Nina is waiting for her results n spose I'll be waiting mine later. Thanks for your support n lots of love xxxxxx

Hi Tony,

of course you should be here on this page, what would we do without you? I've had a lovely weekend, thankfully up here in Scotland we've had shunshine this weekend, which makes a change, so been outdoors all weekend, gardening, bbq and went to the park for a game of baseball. Hope everyone has had a lovely weekend, I've not been on here so much recently, I feel bad about that as I was never off this site when I was going through my chemo and there was always somebody on to give me good advice and now we have some new women on here who need my advice and Ive neglected them, so if anyone needs any advice, I'll def try and help if I can.

Sara, glad you had a lovely weekend with your family, hope the rest of you gals are doing well.

Speak soon. Col xxx

Good evening to all,

I read your posts and many many times wanted to replay and finaly here I am. I've posted before but I think this is the right place for me. There are couple of people who responded to my post and for the rest I would like to intro. myself. 37 ,Mum of two boys 8 and 5 and very suportive hubby. Been told just over a week ago that I have Breast C

Reading your posts has helped a lot but God am so scared. I have my pre op *** tomorrow and on Tuesday meeting the surgeon and the Thursday is the op day.

love to u all x

hello maki

so so sorry u have joined this club !!it is very scary but u can do thia and we will help u xxx

come here and rant,chat anything any time xxxxx

we all have different experiences but we all seem to have same feelings just at different times

please remeber u r not alone xxxx

BIG HUGS XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXNina xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Hi Nina,

Thank you for your replay. I will be posting more often. It is very helpful talking to people who have been and still going through the same thing.

Thank you x

Hi ladies Tony

I'm sorry Im not writing much anymore. I feel awful but I just don't seem to know what to say anymore. I always look at what has been written. Losing Lou was really hard for me. Now we've lost Rose I just can't get over it. The nicest lady n she's gone! I know the best thing to do is to keep on helping others n I will make sure this page lives on I promise. I will sort myself out. Lifes just so bloody unfair!!

Good luck tomorrow maki. N thursday for your op. I do think about you all n send you lots of love.

Leonie xxxxx

Hi Maki, sorry youve joined our forum under these circumstances, it just isn't fair, glad you have a supportive partner, as you're gonna need as much support as you can get, and we're here too to answer any questions you have, hopefully you'll get through this treatment without any hitches, I personally was fine, just tired, the worst thing for me was the hair loss, which is so vain but true, now my hair is as thick as anything, good luck with the op.

Leonie we all know how close you were to Lou and its understandable that youve not been posting for a while, losing Rose has been awful for all as girls, but the new girlos need the upbeat and lovely leonie, speak soon babe xxx

Hi everyone, firstly may I apologise for my outburst,the other day, It just seemed so unfair and indeed still does, but reading all your posts reminds me that this would not be what Rose would have wanted, we have new people here that need our help and Im siting around feelin sorry for myself, so once again I do apologise and to you  Maki a very warm welcome, this is a scary time and noone will blame you for having your fears, but.....

I myself finished my chemo in October 2010 and was back in work full time in January, never a day goes by that I dont thank the lord that I am still here with my sanity still intact, which incidently is largely due to these wonderful ladies and gents on here the truth is Maki there are many thousands of men and women that survive cancer every day thanks to the advancement in medicine, whatever your concerns dont hesitate to talk to us and you will get good sound advice and support whenever you need it, day or night.

Warm thoughts to you and everyone else

lots of love Lee xx

Girls hi

Stop now we dnot need to keep apologising for times when we feel a bit sorry for ourselves. we have been thru so much together!

we have helped each other thru all our treatment and then we had the terrible loss of Lou and Rose which has set us all back because we were such a team .

But we have beaten this at least for now !!so we need to live to the full and we need to carry on what Lou and Rose did and help support others like they did us xxx

You r all amoung the most fab people I have ever met (even if only online ) you helped me so so much please dnot hurt anymore we r all here for each other always xxx

big fat massive love and hugs xxxxxxxxxxxxx

Maki big positive vibes coming your way xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Nina xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx 

Darlin Maki

Thank you for telling us a bit about yourself, its lovely to know .

iam 47 diagnosed last july had surgery, chemo then radio now on tamoxifen doin ok , LIfe never completely returns to the old way but new normal can be even better that old normal . When you think what u been thru sometimes u cant believe it !!As u say we r all doing this for same reasons to b around for our kiddies and family . You can do this u really can . after thursday it will b cut out and that is big moment then u can concentrate on keeping it that way !!unfortunately I live on the south coast too far for a drink but few of us keep on touch via facebook if you want to add me (nina diplock) please come here often, sorry u got us when we r all greiving losses, but we know how lucky we r  !!!      

I dnot want to interfere but think about telling your family pretence is hard, but also you r a mum, how would u feel  if they kept something this big from you ??they will b very upset but they can share your pain/sadness. Maybe after surgery (and hopefully if no nodes or thay removed you can give them that postive news and that you now working on beating this cr*p !! obviously you know them best

lots love and good luck with everything

love hugs nina xxxxx

Darlin Maki

Thank you for telling us a bit about yourself, its lovely to know .

iam 47 diagnosed last july had surgery, chemo then radio now on tamoxifen doin ok , LIfe never completely returns to the old way but new normal can be even better that old normal . When you think what u been thru sometimes u cant believe it !!As u say we r all doing this for same reasons to b around for our kiddies and family . You can do this u really can . after thursday it will b cut out and that is big moment then u can concentrate on keeping it that way !!unfortunately I live on the south coast too far for a drink but few of us keep on touch via facebook if you want to add me (nina diplock) please come here often, sorry u got us when we r all greiving losses, but we know how lucky we r  !!!      

I dnot want to interfere but think about telling your family pretence is hard, but also you r a mum, how would u feel  if they kept something this big from you ??they will b very upset but they can share your pain/sadness. Maybe after surgery (and hopefully if no nodes or thay removed you can give them that postive news and that you now working on beating this cr*p !! obviously you know them best

lots love and good luck with everything

love hugs nina xxxxx

Sorry I havnt been on much but Ive been on a wee break, I came back on yesterday then read about Rosie! I signed out again coz I really didnt know what to say, Everything I wanted to say had already been said So all I can add is RIP Rosie, You will be so missed xxxx

Well I finshed chemo 4  weeks ago and tomorrow Im in hosp for pre op assesment b4 my op on 14th July...not that Im scared rite? Nah Im bricking next week girls.

I have cleaned out wardrobes Drawers ( no not the wearable ones, although I now own some new ones lol and the old ones must go!!!) Im now onto windows n blinds!!!! I will do anything rather than sit and think about this *** disease.  On Thursday I have planned that I will go up loft and clear that out ( I  have some pretty summer things up there thaI havnt been able to wear, but Ive lot so much weight they will fit me now lol lol )

Anyway Ladies ...Upwards and onwards Sending much love to everyone

Hello to you all beautiful people....

Strange as it sound but I feel quite ok today. More like my self. I just got back from meeting the surgeon who will operate on Thursday. I must say I can't wait to have this crap out of me.

I hope you all had a good day today, the rain is slowly creeping but I dont mind. The day was lovely, worm and sunny. Hubby was the one responsible for feeding us tonight so we had pizza, chips and green salad with feta cheese yummy. The kiddies are in bed watching Horid Henry.  I will watch tv for a bit and then getting ready for work tomorrow.

How was your day today? What did you do?

PS

I came across this song and I thought I should share it with you

What a beautiful day, I'm the King of all time

and nothing is impossible in my all powerful mind

Love to you all

Mxxxx

Hi Maki

glad you're feeling positive today, let me introduce myself, I'm Colette or Col to my friends, I'm 46 with 2 grown up daughters of 23 and 21, I had a lumpectomy in May 2010, 6 sessions of chemo then 7 weeks of radio and ive been back at work since beginning of march, I have a very supportive partner, dont get me wrong this last year certainly took its toll on our relationship but we're back to normal now and im feeling very well, I also had all lymph nodes removed, I also am on Tamoxifen which is a pain as its put me into an early menopause, so the hot flushes are a pain.

Positive mental attitude, good luck with op, ask anything you want and i'll try and answer xxx

Hi Col,

Thank you for joining my little world, well not so little now after having all this briliant people on line to talk to.

I am very happy to hear that you are feeling well. Like you I am also lucky to have my hubby who is very supportive. My kiddies are 8 and 5 still little to understand what is going on, saying that I explained to CJ what is happening but he knows that mummy will be ok.

I am positive but I do have my low moments. I just hope and pray that the c didnt spread.

Have a lovely day and I hope we will stay in touch

M x

Hi Everyone,

I had my follow up today and yup - tamoxifin. Not looking forward to taking them but as border line 4/8 i am going to give them a try. The doctor i saw today was really really lovely  and there was nothing clinical about my visit, which made it so much easier for me. I have been thinking a lot lately about the things that I went through, physically and emotionally and realised that it really is a journey. So, welcome Maki to our wonderful world of journiers, where through anger tears and frustration you will find the hidden pockets of the most warm, beautiful people who will help you to reach the other side.

Maki, when my grandaughter (5) wanted to know why nanny was unwell, we tried to explain it in a different way to the norm. We pressed hard on her arm and told her that pressure can hurt. We then showed her a caterpillar wrapped in its pupus and told her that nanny had a sort of caterpillar that was trying to make a nest. The nest was not nice to have inside and if it grew it would press harder on nannys chest so the doctor had to take it away.  With regards to the chemo, we told her that the medicine to stop the 'sort of' caterpillar making more nests, would make nannys hair come our becasue the caterpillar thing likes making the nest with hair. And the good thing was that when the caterpillar had gone, the hair would come back, and that's how we would all know that nanny was okay.  It was the same priniciple for rd safety. We used to tell the kids that if they were silly enough to go into the road there was a chance they would be hit by a car. We told them not all broken things can e fixed and we didn't want them to be all broken and have to go in the dusbin for the dustman.  Guess who NEVER goes in the road haha!

You will find your way  I promise, even when there are times you wonder how that can be possible. Just accept though, that all of your feelings are normal, highs lows and everything in between, and accept them for what they are, a journey and come see us when you need support or a moan or even jsut a scream or laugh.

Lots of love to you all

sara xxxxxxxxxxxx

Thinking of you today hun, is today your op day.

Love Von xxx