Hi, i,ve never been on a chat site before, i,ve recently been diagnosed with breast cancer at 42, came out of the blue and i feel in turmoil, don,t know any details yet other than it,s small, in a lobe and i,m having a lumpectomy tomorrow.....i,m terrified, more waiting for results, i know you will all understand, i,ve got a wonderful husband and familiy but feel sooo alone!!  HELP!!

Hi, i,ve never been on a chat site before, i,ve recently been diagnosed with breast cancer at 42, came out of the blue and i feel in turmoil, don,t know any details yet other than it,s small, in a lobe and i,m having a lumpectomy tomorrow.....i,m terrified, more waiting for results, i know you will all understand, i,ve got a wonderful husband and familiy but feel sooo alone!!  HELP!!

Hi there

Sorry to read your message. Brings back memories! N yeah we all understand how you are feeling. The beginning is the scariest time cos you don't understand n know what's going to happen. The waiting is the worst part. Those feelings are hard to deal with n we can only try to help. Hopefully we can n stop you from feeling so alone. Good luck with your op tomorrow. I shall be thinking of you.

Love leonie xx

We will all be thinking of you Chin up Lassie xxxx

Hi

I know exactly how you feel and so will everyone else on this site.  I came on here nearly a year ago just like you and was frightened and felt helpless, but I got good advice and encouragement and I got through. It is the waiting for results that it the worse but one step at a time and you get through.  Like so many of us, I have gone through the op, the chemo and the radio and although I am still on herceptin I do feel I have got most of my previous life back, I even demolished an overgrown shrub in the garden yesterday and am back to my exercise classes so things do get better.

Good luck for today, and don't overdo it after the op, it is all a shock to your system, mentally and physically. Remember Hubby is probably just as terrified as you, so support each other.

Anne

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and Hello to everyone else, I have not been on for a while although I have been reading your posts and you are all in my thoughts and prayers.  I am going on a walking holiday this weekend!  The jurassic Coast in Dorset, not sure if I will make the whole journey, but I am still on the 'big one' so I think this should be a walk in the park!!!

You will find the most amazing people on this site who won't just support you at the beginning but all through your treatment and beyond. My husband and I were both given the news we had cancer last year (Rectal and Breast cancer respectifly). We both went through operations, chemo, radiotherapy etc., and we have come out the other side we believe stronger and better people - not so insular and more caring of others. I cannot begin to tell you how much we relied on others on this site (I don't believe they realise as I didn't post all that much just read and re-read their posts). We are soooo much better now although my husband is not completely well yet and I still get the odd tearful day - but nothing like last year. You will get there in time but patience is definately a viture you will need over the coming months.

My thoughts and prayers are with everyone on this site daily (especially you Tony Song)

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Hi Happilisa

Welcome doesnt seem the right word but u r anyway truly welcome !!It is all very frightning at first but as the others say step by step hope op i sok .thinking of you

This is a great place to chat/rant /sound off anything you like we all know how u feel and believe me you are so not alone !!a few of us also keep in touch on face book if your interested u can add me if u want nina diplock. I was diagnosed breast cancer last july had op/chemo and radio also just had knee op (that was outstanding from bbefore ) You and your family and friends can do this talk to them and us .

please anythingbwe can do come here and chat . It also sometimes helps to read the old posts and you will see that at differnt times we all have more or less same concerns !!

lots love and hugs nina xxxxxxx

Hi Everybody

I wanted to come on here here a bundle of joy, telling you all about my lovely new boobs......... but it all went so very wrong!

I came out of hospital and rested, the pain was so bad (but it will be worth it) so I persivered.... then after a week I started to feel feverish and I noticed a lot of redness round the dressing, so  I went back to the Jasmin suite and saw my surgeon who told me I had a mild infection, they took a swab, gave me some antibiotics and some spare dressings in case it started weeping, and sent me home.... I went back the following Tuesday, told the surgeon it had been weeping, so she had a look and decided that she could still feel some fluid under the scar, so she was going to put a little nick in the scar, just so she could drain it out.....  as she put the scalpel into the scar, a fountain of yellow and green puss bubbled up and poured out all over me and down my back, she ran to get a nurse and it took the two of them over an hour to clean me up and finish draining it..... they sent me home with a massive dose of antibiotics and a carrier bag full of dressing... and intructions to come back on the friday... so after feeling very ill and in lots of pain for the week.. I went back... I told her that I had used the full bag of dressings..... The surgeon came in and examined the wound and said... "this infection goes all the way down to the implant".. when i asked what that meant, she told me "Your body had rejected the implant... it's got to come out"She also said they are going to remove some of the surrounding tissue just to make sure the cancer hasn't come back and caused this..... They then attatched a stoma bag to the wound so I could empty it 3 times a day myself and gave me an appointment for Wednesday to go and have the left implant removed.

Then I have to wait for 6 months before they they can try again.... they are not going to try inflating the right implant, they are going to leave it and do them both together...... so I won't even be able to wear my prosthesis.... and when I mentioned this, my surgeon just said "You'll cope, your a strong lady"

I am sick of being strong..... I thought I was nearly done and now this..... How much more do I have to put up with.... when am I going to catch a break?

I am sorry to be so negative.... but I have really had enough..... I know I don't have a choice in this, but how long do people expect me to keep smiling and being positive

I will come back after my surgery and let you all know how it went

Love to all

and sorry again for being so down

Caz xxxxxx

Hi Caz and All

Well firstly it is good to hear from you and what are we all here for if you can not have a moan and groan, at least it gets it of your chest (ops sorry for that).

I am so sorry you are having all these problems especially after the year you have had, I to was told I could of had my implants done 6 months after all treatment but when I started to ask a lot of questions with my breast nurse, doctors they suggested I waited about a year as I was told the Radiotherapy can cause problems i.e hardening of the implant, tissue still to firm etc etc so now I am waiting until January next year. I know it is hard but I look at it that I have gone 1 year so a few more months is not going to make a lot of differance. I am sure that when you reflect on everything you will realise that waiting will be the best thing so you can have those NEW BOOBS that you will be proud of.

Keep your chin up Caz as I know you can, speak to you soon

Love Littlesis xx

Hi Caroline,

I am so sorry to hear that things haven't gone to plan. I believe lots of people have had trouble initially with reconstruction but you will get there in the end. Of course you don't feel 'positive' at the moment to be honest I got heartily sick of people telling me thats what I had to be. If you can be - absolutely marvellous - but if you can't don't beat yourself up about it. I have decided against reconstruction but then I am 63 and I know you are much much younger. I had the right breast removed and didn't want to be on a diet for the rest of my life to keep them both the same size ha ha. All the very best to you for your op and I hope the infection clears up really quickly. One thing that was said you ARE a strong lady but even strong ladies need a cuddle now and again - sending you one

Love

Jan x

Hi Caz,

Exactly what this site and all us lovely people are here for...we are here to hold you up, especially when you are down.

Let us know how you are feeling, has the infection gone down a bit?

Much Love

Tony xxx

Oh Caz What a dreadful time you are having....

On the " your a strong lady" God I can relate to that my dear, and I know exactly where you are coming from. I have a friend who constantly tells me Im strong and stop moaning and get on with it and kick this terrible thing in the ***.

I was in a bad bad place last week and just said to hell with it, no more. I took all the pills I have in house and REALLY thought about taking them when my son found me. The Dr got called in and she told me the same thing. Why you thinking like this your the strongest person I know!!!!! Come into my body , come into my head , see just how "strong I am"

When I first got my result the surgeon said this will be a walk in the park for someone strong like you!!!      I ask you Do they really think that words work when your at the complete end of your tether?

Ive still got 2 chemo sessions then op then radiotherey So still a way to go BUT If the boob has to go, they will be told take them both I have no need of them they have served their purpose by feeding my 5 babies and served my figure for 60 years and I have decided NO implants, but thats my personal choice and Ihope yours turn out well...

Hope this aint been too morbid

Colette and Nina thanks for the FB chat and mesages last week It REALLY did help me come back from the place I was in xxxxxxxxxxxx