Hi all,  sorry you were so unwell Lee, what a shame there is the cliche about sexy young female nurses and none about the male ones. Maybe we should complain about the lack of eye candy I'm sure some hot to trot wonderful bedside mannered male would make us feel better. Watch the wiggle when they walk and all that.

I just spoke to my sister and we were saying how living with  this disease you become a different person, and for all the crap i think i have become a better person and i have NEVER met people as warm and wonderful as all of you here. Please remember about unused wigs and scarves - already i have someone in Kent with a poster going up in two charity shops and the Macmillan centre tomorrow for collections. I have also had a lady ask if i can find her a short dark blonde wig. Funny thing was, i have one my aunt gave me so I rang her and asked if I could send it on. She agreed and for about £3 this lovely has a wig on its way to her tomorrow - duly washed and disinfected. The emotion in her voice at the releif of being able to have a wig before her nhs one comes throughand not costing her money she doesn't have made me feel very humble. I am glad I have decided to do this, I need as much support as I can get to make this BIG and widely available.

Anyway, the weather might be crap but hearts here are always warm. I have had such pleasure in helping someone this weekend it has lifted my spirits no end. My love to you all. xxxx

Hi Colly and everyone, Im feeling much better now and once I have finished my course of antibiotics I am going back to the gym,   I wont  be having rads as I had them 18months ago when I had my first bout of cancer so cant have it again will start taking tamoxifin tues for the next 5 years and hopefully all will be well   glad to hear your hair is growing back so quickly Colly I keep checking mine in the mirror but nothing yet!. and dont forget girls and guys maybe next summer we can all meet up for a well earned drink and toast our good fortune to have found each other xx

lots of love Lee x

Hi lee, glad you're feeling better. I do remember no you did mention before you've not to have radio. Think ive to start tamoxifen on first day of radio. My hair is coming back in, feels spiky lol. I still have a sore neck but breast doc thinks I just need to be patient and let chemo get out of my system, so hopefully it will get better soon. How are your nails? Mine are a mess x

Hi girls and Tony,

Thank you so much for the lovely messages... I can really feel all the love and warmth you are all sending me.

Colly... Yes honey, anybody with cancer can get a macmillan grant, ask your macmillan nurse (from the hospital) to get in touch with the Macmillan benifits advisor at citizans advice burea and they will call you in... you can apply for anything you need, I got the money for a new mattress and some clothes... but it can be for anything you need, whether it's help with a bill, a new washer or just some clothes... also, the macmills benifit advisor will inform you of what benifits you are entitles to... just take proof of all your household income.... It's definitely worth an ask.

Lee.. I am so sorry to hear that you have been back n hospital.... I do hope you feel better soon... and I am so glad you had a good birthday honey.

And as for all you other ladies, good luck with your treatment.

I am back at the hospital tomorrow as the infection has come back AGAIN the right side is lovely, all dried up and everything, but the left side has swollen again almost to the size my ariginal breast was, very strange, it's like my boob is growing back.... but I have been throwing up really bad and it burns to touch, and i have a raging temperature and feel grotty in myself... So Dave is taking me back to the Jasmine suite tomorrow and he's said he is going to kick off untill they sort it out as last ime I went, they just told me to go home, and said it would sort itself out in time and gave me an appointment for 7th December... so tomorrow he is not taking no for an answer...... this infection has been going on for 6 weeks and its worse now than it ever was..... It's not even as if I have an infection in my scar, My Scars are both fully healled, the problem is inside.

I will come on here when I get back from the hospital and let you know what they said

Thank you so much for all you support ladies and Tony

I would be a pile of snot and tears if it wasn't for all of you

Thank you

Love caz xx

Good luck tomorrow Caz,it is so annoying that this is still going on and pulling you down all the time.

Hope you get some good results.

Rose xxx

Hello Ladies and Tony

Hope this finds you all well, sorry I have not been on for a while but had a lot going on espically with the recent problems with my soon to be ex-husband. Well I am not going to depress myself or any of you with that update as I will just start ranting and will never stop.

Caz how did you get on today as I have been following your story on here and you have been through so much, I hope your husband helped you sort it out up at the hospital.

Colly, I have now started my radiotherapy I had my 6th one today so 12 more to go, so far so good just following all their advise about the creams etc as I know you are around the same stage in treatment as me. How are you getting on with it all, have you had any dates given yet for radiotherapy? Let me know how you are doing. My hair is really growing back now it's about 2 - 2.5inches long but has come back dark underneath but grey on top so have bought a healthcare dye for it so will let you all know how they work lol.

Tony how are you, I did reply to you about how things were with myself and husband but was unsure if you managed to read it the other week. Anyway what have you been up to and I must say your pic was great. Are you still at work and how are the family? I t would be great to hear from you.

Lee I was sorry to read that you have been unwell but glad you had a great birthday. I thought I had not read anything from you for a little while as I missed all those words of wisdom you give to everyone they always bring a smile to my face and at times I have needed that believe me.

Keep well all and speak to you soon

Littlesis

Hi all,

I rang the hospital and they told me to go straight in and see Miss Rogers... She said there is definite swelling and there was some fluid, but when she tried draining it, there wasn't very much fluid there at all... and it was clear again.... She sent some of the fluid away for tests and also sent me for some blood tests... She now thinks that I have an infection inside the tissue now and has put me on some heavy duty antibiotics.

I think I have turned a corner too.... I rang my GP this morning and cried down the phone at her and told her everything and i asked for help.

I have an appointment for friday to see her, and she will change my anti-depressants and sort out some psycological help for me.. and she wasn't very impressed when I told her how the breastcare nurse was with me....... an hour later the breast care nurse rang me, and arranged for me to go in on Thursday and have a proper talk and also get fitted for some proper silicone fake "breasts"... hopefully the weight and size will be better than these softee's (at least i wont find these on my shoulders)

So I think I have turned a major corner now..... Just need to get this stupid infection sorted.. My scars are fully healed, no sign of infection on the outside... its all inside.

Thank you so much for all your help and support

Love Caz xxx

Caz,

So glad that at last people from the professional world are listening and that you are getting the support that you so rightly need.  But it's not right that we have to stand up and scream and shout  or end up an emotional blubbering wreck to be heard. You have certainly been through the mill and hope that this is now the beginning of the end of your turmoil and hope that your experience will make some of them sit up and take note, if only for the next person who has problems.  Hope you are feeling stronger soon.

Patricia x

Hi littlesis, nice to hear from you, my radio starts on 26/11 and finishes 7/1, how's you're hair coming along, what length is it now? Caz glad things are starting to sound better, hopefully you'll be feeling better and breast nurses will get you sorted with new boobs, Patricia, youre hair is looking thick, how long did it take to get to that length? Lee good on you getting back to the gym, I must admit ive been lazy and need to get back into it, but think i'll wait till after my radio. Leonie where are you this week, hope you and your lot are well, and tell me about your hair and eye lashes lol. I can wear a wig but not a lot i can do about bottom eye lashes lol. Hi to everyone else, harry sara and anyone else ive missed. Ive done most of my xmas shopping, john off friday so doing a bit then and hopefully that will be me done. lots of love. Col xx