Hi,

I am sorry to butt into your discussion but just wanted to wish you all well.

You all seem like tough cookies and am touched, truly.

I am currently waiting, I have my breast clinic appointment on 27th oct and really nervous, not eating or sleeping much to be honest but then I don't eat much anyway lol.

Really don't know what to expect with this appointment just that I will probably be having an ultrasound as I'm only 24.

The reason I went to the GP was because I have bloody nipple discharge and a rather deep dimple. I can't help but think the worst but do understand there are benign causes for this out there. Just glad my GP took me seriously.

Do you mind if I ask how you ladies felt at this stage? Am I insane or am I being normal?

Best wishes everyone

Kylie xxx

No Kylie,

You are not insane..... first let me say you are very sensible to see your doctors immediately.... you would be surprised how many think they are too young so don't bother.

I know this is a very scarey thing to try and come to terms with... and the waiting is the hardest bit.... If I had to discribe how I felt when I was waiting for appointments and tests then I think the only word I could come up with is....LOST... Very emotional and scared to death.... but I now know that all these feelings are perfectly normal.

If you are worried about what to expect, why not ring up your breast clinic and ask them.... they are normaly really good and have no problem explaining what you should expect.

When my doctor refered me to our local breast clinic, I was examined by a lady doctor, then I had to have a mammogram and an ultrasound scan..... I would suggest you take somebody with you... maybe your partner / Mum / friend just for a bit of moral support.... but I have to say that the breast care unit and all it's staff were brilliant and really did well to calm all my fears.

If you have any questions at all, please feel free to come here and ask, there is always somebody who has been in the situation you are in and able to offer help and advice.... we are all here for each other.

Take care honey... and try not to imagine the worst (easier said than done)

Love Caz xxx

Nice one Sara

Rosexxx

Sara, Sara, Sara,

What beautiful words and so right about the likes of Simon Weston...I was thinking of a similar thing when I got to that bit....isn't it funny that we call them imperfections too...we all have to have exactly the same but that is not how it works...people in the world are coming to terms with differences all the time. It wasn't that long ago that people with mental and physical disabilities were locked away from the public's gaze or shown in freak shows. Also mixed race or same sex couples would be stared at because people did not approve or found it odd...there will always be the person who is the exception and will have prejudice for whatever reason..anyways what I am trying to say is that people are far more understanding and unphased than we realise. I think like you were saying curiousity is what it is in the main...I went for my first chemo in my next battle and did exactly what you said...i.e. looked around for the wigs, why I don't know just curious was all it was I expect...There was a lady and her friend behind me sniggering away and I had to tell them to behave and not have so much fun having chemo...like I said on my thread it was good to see and got an extra giggle from the ladies :-)

If you have a look at the picture you can just see them huddled over sniggering....

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Anyways sorry for the ramble as the Irinotecan (evil irene) is making me a bit woozy so had better stop typing... :-)

Much Love to all you lovely ladeeees.

Tony xxxx

hi sara its lovely your are giving so much strength to people out there,i dropped down to see my sister today she so upset as she has been told,her cancer is not curable now,and she had been doing so well for 18months now, and her most recent scan had revealed the cancer had spread to her lungs and liver,i had been wondering if my visits were doing her much good,but then i had a lovely message from dizzie which made me realise what my visits were doing for her,its taken me a week to convince her to fight and take the course of chemo they offering to her,which she did and is feeling so ill today,i just want to wish everybody good wishes,and best wishes to you sara,,,,,,,,,

Hi Irishman,

Sorry to hear about your sister.My cancer returned in lymph glands in neck and chest and is also non cureable but I have been on oral chemo for 2 years and ongoing so let your sister know that there are so many different treatments now so dont give up hope.

She must be so glad to have you.

Good luck to you both.

Rose xxx

hi rose, colly, lee, patrica n all you lovely ladies

sorry its been so long, took 4weeks for them to sort the phone out n still having problems with internet. had a lovely holiday but never going away again with a 2yr old! yes charly was a ntmare for about 5 days so didnt come home all relaxed n refreshed. to be truthfull ive not been that great but will tell you about that another time.

hope you had a lovely birthday lee n congrats for finishing chemo. you too colly, congratulation. i wish you both well. n rose ive missed you, hope you are well. patrica i was sorry to read about your son. hope you n he are feeling better now n we can go back to our chats.

sara good luck with your chemo, be thinking of you throughout. n caz im so sorry you have been so down. i can only imagine how you feel but hopefully we can all help to pick you back up. hows the infection now? i hope its less painful now. kylie im sorry you have joined our gang of troopers, but we'll help you through as much as we can.

im gonna get off cos mum n dad are here to help me with charly, hes not very well n found out today hes asthmatic. its also my wedding anniversary, 3 years. couldnt of married a nicer man!

lots of love, be back on soon n probably winge a lot!

leonie xxxxxxxxx

Hi Leonie, so glad to see your back at last. Sorry your hol wasnt as relaxing as you hoped it would be, it is hard work being away with a 2yr old. Im keeping fine, got a few aches in my neck but breast doc seems to think its just caused by the chemo, my nails are a mes and brittle, breaking all the time, my eyelashes at the bottom taking their time to grow back, so have watery eyes when i go out in the cold, my hair is starting to grow back in slowly but surely, how long did it take your hair and what length is it now? I start radio on 25/11 for 6 weeks so it will finish 7/1, then hopefully a wee holiday away in the sun. Congratulations on your wedding anniversary. Take care all you girlies and tony too love col x

Nice Pic Tony, very photogenic x

Winge away lovely girl,its what we are here for.You need a holiday to get over your holiday !!I have always found holidays lovely but very tiring,all that packing and washing.

Hope the weather with you isnt as cold and windy as here.Have a lovely anniversary with your smashing man,the third of many.

Lovely to have you back

Rose xxx

Thank you for your lovely messages everybody.... I am sorry I am so miserable at the moment, I just can't seem to get my head round my new body image.

But no doubt I will get there in time.....Me and Dave had a good talk last night and I tried to explain how i am feeling and why i am so upset about everything, but he told me that it is me being sef concious and nobody is staring......... In my head I know what he is saying is true..... but my heart is breaking at the loss of the person I used to be..... So he just help me and told me that he loved me and everything will be ok in the end.

Lee... I hope you had a good birthday honey, I didn't see anything in the paper about a drunk woman hitting police with her boob, so I think it must have been a good night.

Lonie... I'm sorry that your holiday wasn't as good as you hoped... congratulations on your Wedding Anniversary..... it's my 3rd anniversary on the 30th of this month too.

Take care everybody

Love Caz xxx

Hi Caz,

I have put an update on your blog and urge you to give Fran a shout. Also try those positive affirmations, stand in front of a mirror staring at yourself squarely in the eyes and say 'I LOVE AND ACCEPT MY BODY' 10 times and do that several times a day...you may think it a load of ******** at first but like I said on your blog you will start to say it with grit and determination and eventually, I am hoping, with a big smile on your face, believe me when I say they work...at times it makes me cry (as big as I am), but I can sometimes see a glimmer in there.

Fran is expecting your call

Much Love

Tony xxx

Hi Caz,

I have put an update on your blog and urge you to give Fran a shout. Also try those positive affirmations, stand in front of a mirror staring at yourself squarely in the eyes and say 'I LOVE AND ACCEPT MY BODY' 10 times and do that several times a day...you may think it a load of ******** at first but like I said on your blog you will start to say it with grit and determination and eventually, I am hoping, with a big smile on your face, believe me when I say they work...at times it makes me cry (as big as I am), but I can sometimes see a glimmer in there.

Fran is expecting your call

Much Love

Tony xxx