hi im 36 mother of 3 n diagnosed dec 23. ive had 2 ops n 5 of 6 chemo n finding it very hard at mo. feel so peed off n cant get rid of that feeling. would love to chat. x
hi im 36 mother of 3 n diagnosed dec 23. ive had 2 ops n 5 of 6 chemo n finding it very hard at mo. feel so peed off n cant get rid of that feeling. would love to chat. x
Hi Everyone don't knw if you have missed me but I have certainly missed all you lot and have noticed a few new recruits. I haven't had a computer since July it had something seriously wrong with it and it has drove me mad not being able to chat!!! I haven't had chance to do a complete read through everything so could some of you bring me up to date with a few things. I'v noticed all your fab photos though you all look stunning and I hope you are all keeping as well as you can I'v missed you all terribly.
A quick up date on me! I had a scan in August after 3 lots of FEC and 3 lots of pacitaxol and gemcitibine. To cut long story short it has shrunk everywhere and since the scan I have had 2 more cycles of chemo and I'm now on tamoxifen.My consultant has said he is pleased with the shrinkage and now the tamoxifen should keep it at bay, hopefully!!!!! Its a bit scary knowing the poison has stopped think it was my comfort blanket!
I've now stopped wearing the bandanas they have started irritating me and give me a bit of a headache. Once i had gone out without it I feel theres no looking back. I have got a little covering of downy hair that the kids love.
My eldest Sophie went off to dance college, Alice started Comp and oliver juniors all on the same day and guess what I was having chemo!! Little Betsy is walking and is never still shes a little monkey!!!!!
I'm looking forward to not having to be up and down to the hospital and to hopefully tryingto lead a fairly normal life. The kids activities are keeping me busy and I'm hoping me and Nigel can get a little bit of us as a couple back, it has impacted on us so much sometimes I get so upset when I think about what has happened to us.I love all my family so much and sometimes I feel that this could have easily destroyed us!!!
Anyway sorry to go on please let me know how you are all doing and thanks for reading. I won't ever let myself be away for that long again.
Love to you all
Lou
dear girls n tony
cant tell you how worried ive been about you lou, im so glad you are ok n finished the awful stuff. was not a nice feeling wondering all about you for so long but what a great feeling to hear from you again. please dont do that to us again. theres always someone that can get a quick message to us. cor im so glad you are back hun.
tony you made me cry aswell! what a lovely comment. im so glad your life is becoming more normal for you n your family. its also comforting to know you feel like us, you are like a god on here. you have such words of wisdom n time for anybody, its good to know you are human, if you know what i mean.
anne, i still have many side affects from treatment. im not sure what is what. doc did tell me that herceptin can stop you from healing properly. i still have sores up my nose that wont heal n herceptin doesnt help. i put them down to immune system but who knows what does what. you'll be fine the further away you get from chemo.
hope you ladies on chemo are doing ok, feel for you so much. sara im so pleased for you, congratulations hun! unfortunately life still goes on, however mental it gets. think you could have a few years left of this if i was anything to go by! chin up ey.
you know i said about the car accident we had when i was pregnant? well i forgot to say the day i got the money through, was the day i found out i had cancer. it was always planned for family holiday, but took 22 months to get it. we now have the accomadation, flights n passports sorted as of tuesday. what happened wed,.....chicken pox at play group! so we have to keep charly off till next week just incase! would be a nightmare if charly gets ill.
rose im glad you are ok n the family are coping n enjoying that new little bundle. things will never be how they were before cancer, but we have a new ,enlightened life now. each day is an achievement in its self. got to be happy, just wish it didnt hurt so much.
love you all, loads! take care my special ones.
leonie xxxxxxxxxxxx
I have got an appointment at 3pm tomorrow at the hospital to get the results of my sentinal node biopsy and to find out what my next step is.
Please keep everything crossed for me
Love always
Caz Xxx
everyone will be thinking of you tomorrow, keep possitive hun, and just remember, we are with you all the way.x
hi fingers toes and everything crossed Caz 4 2morrow millions of positive vibes comin your way love hugs xx
dizzyrascal have been really wondering how you got on first chemo went mine was ok bit sicky but fine kept checking to c if u were ok??
take care all
love nina
xxxxxx
Hi Car,
Crossed everything I can possibly cross !!May have to uncross at some point for a few minutes here and there if you know what i mean!!
All the luck in the world,
Rose xxx
Crossing things I didn't even know existed!
RD
Hi Caz,
Good luck for tomorrow. Everything is crossed here also.
Patricia x
Hi Caz,
Everything crossed and it hurts, but it's for you so pain not a problem
Good luck and you are in my prayers.
Much Love
T xxx
im doing ok, i was abit sick early hours of the next day, but really it was nothing much. i felt really tired the first couple of days and emotional. i have a nasty coldsore on my nose at the moment which has got infected, so i am on antbiotics for that. tomorrow i am having a central line fitted as they had problems with the needle going in the back of my hand, im not looking forward to that as i hate needles! i picked up mt wig last week, so that is here for if and when it happens.
Hey Dizzyrascal
Although I had bowel cancer I had a needle fitted too...I really hate needles and the thought terrified me, I almost never had IV chemo because of it but weighed up the odds and weathered through it...I had a PICC line fitted which stung a little but not half as bad as I thought. The worst part was the local anaesthetic which is wiped on with a cloth, that stung a little bit more and made me laugh out loud when the doctor doing it said this may sting a little....
As with most things the thought is worse than the actual event and once it is in there will be no more needle in the back of your hand every cloud aye!
Much Love
Tony xxx
hi dizzy rascal kept wondering how u were doing i was the same bit sicky and tired but not too bad
sorry about the needle thing mine was ok on the day we will hav eto see next one (on 11th)
have u gone for similiar wig or someyhing different ?i went to try last week to try but didnt get one going back this week
take care thinking of u xxxx
love nina xxxx
hi dizzy rascal kept wondering how u were doing i was the same bit sicky and tired but not too bad
sorry about the needle thing mine was ok on the day we will hav eto see next one (on 11th)
have u gone for similiar wig or someyhing different ?i went to try last week to try but didnt get one going back this week
take care thinking of u xxxx
love nina xxxx
Results are in
The cancer hass NOT spread to the lymph nodes........ And I don't need radio therapy.
I find out next week if I have to have chemo..... but that is by the by... I can cope with anything now I know it hasn't spread
I will let you know as soon as I know.
Its about time we had a bit of good news... and this is the best news I could have had. Xxx
Hi Caz that is fantastic news and made my day! News like that will help you get over the op and back to normality.
Fantastic!
Anne
xx
ONWARDS AND UPWARDS!! so good to hear this news Caroline,well done.Hope this makes you feel better about yourself :love:
Rose xxx
caz fantastic !!!!!!!!!!
now u can get on with your recovery i am so so pleased for u and your lovely family
big love and hugs xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Good news Caroline. Keep smiling
i have gone for a bob which is what i have now, its not to bad. but it does look like a wig at the front, so i am taking it to my hairdresser this week to see if she can thin it out abit. still scared for tomorrow when i have the central lining inserted.
that is fab news caroline! im so pleased for you!!!!! mine was the same. how strange that you dont need radiotherapy and yet i do.
Caz,
Excellent news you little trooper!
Still stuff to get sorted but a little good news does the morale wonders!
Much Love
T xxxx
p.s. Can you have a little glass of red to celebrate?
brilliant news caz! im sooo pleased for you. just what you needed to hear after all this madness. fingers crossed you wont need chemo too but thats still got to be the best news ever. hope you recover quickly from the op. oh hun, well done n hope this horrible time ends for you soon.
lots of love n ching ching!
Hi Caz,
That is such good news!!!! This news will help you so much mentally to prepare and enable you to move forward with the next step in your treatment. Just take it easy with the recovery from the operation
Patricia x