hi im 36 mother of 3 n diagnosed dec 23. ive had 2 ops n 5 of 6 chemo n finding it very hard at mo. feel so peed off n cant get rid of that feeling. would love to chat. x
hi im teresa i have secondary breast cancer and on fourth chemo i know how u feel but it gets better my first was 2006 and i was clear for four years keep positive and look at all the good things in ur life im sure ur children keep i smiling god bless you x
I am feeling ok today, not as lost as I was, husband and kids are being brilliant, but like you say, a group of virtual strangers seem to be helping so much, but I think that's because you all know exactly how I feel.
I will be back on here tomorrow because at 3.30 tomorrow I got to go back to hospital for my lymph node biopsy result..... I got a beautiful dark purple massive bruise under my arm... lol
i know how you feel too. It is also hard when you are not sure whether to read stuff on line or not as not all of it relates to the individual and some of it is scary. However, this forum has helped me so much. I went through all the motions and get my results of the biopsy sentinel nodes next week. Then I find out what treatment i will have. To top it all, during the lumpectomy, my front crown got broken and today i went to the dentist to find it is irreplaceable. i will need implants but can't have them while going through the cancer treatment. I am also planning a wedding (no date set due to treatment) and was also worried about my hair. I have suddenly become vain! However, i opted today for a plate and will have implants next year. Best start saving!!
Today, I got my lovely daughter to take a picture of my lopsided (due to the band aid) and stained blue breast with the normal one also in view and then the underarm where the biopsy was taken. I couldn't find anything on the internet that really helped me to know what to expect. I am going to have more pictures taken by my daughter when they take the band aids off next week and continue to take weekly pics through the treatment. I thought this might help others, but also a diary will help me to express all my feelings.
Any others of you who would like to join me in a basic photo diary would I am sure help many others. I had visions of being hideously messed up and thought I'd have all sorts of negative feelings. I was worried about the lymph nodes being removed after I read about not lifting and weak arms. This is not strictly true, but what I read scared the heck out me. i don't always feel positive, but I am sure by expressing ourselves and being able to compare - to see we are not alone - we can be further united.
i know how you feel too. It is also hard when you are not sure whether to read stuff on line or not as not all of it relates to the individual and some of it is scary. However, this forum has helped me so much. I went through all the motions and get my results of the biopsy sentinel nodes next week. Then I find out what treatment i will have. To top it all, during the lumpectomy, my front crown got broken and today i went to the dentist to find it is irreplaceable. i will need implants but can't have them while going through the cancer treatment. I am also planning a wedding (no date set due to treatment) and was also worried about my hair. I have suddenly become vain! However, i opted today for a plate and will have implants next year. Best start saving!!
Today, I got my lovely daughter to take a picture of my lopsided (due to the band aid) and stained blue breast with the normal one also in view and then the underarm where the biopsy was taken. I couldn't find anything on the internet that really helped me to know what to expect. I am going to have more pictures taken by my daughter when they take the band aids off next week and continue to take weekly pics through the treatment. I thought this might help others, but also a diary will help me to express all my feelings.
Any others of you who would like to join me in a basic photo diary would I am sure help many others. I had visions of being hideously messed up and thought I'd have all sorts of negative feelings. I was worried about the lymph nodes being removed after I read about not lifting and weak arms. This is not strictly true, but what I read scared the heck out me. i don't always feel positive, but I am sure by expressing ourselves and being able to compare - to see we are not alone - we can be further united.
I like the idea of doing a photo diary... if what I'm going through helps other that are going through a similar sort of thing, then some good has come out of a bad experience.
Everybody on here talks about having chemo before an operation and you all seem to know what your treatment is going to entail..... with mine, I don't even know what operation I am having until the MRI results came through on the 27th of this month, and then I will find out what treatment I am going to have until after the operation on the 1st september.
The upside to all this waiting is my daughter will be back at school before my treatment starts, and I get a couple of weeks of the holiday to have fun with my daughter.
And if the worry of not knowing what cancer I have got and not knowing what treatment I am going to have is not enough..... there are the money worries to think about...... My husband suffers from depression and a debillitating disease in his hands and I am his carer (Irony) so we are on benefits and we have been told that I might not get disability living allowance as breast cancer is classed as temporary (Bloody red tape) We are in doncaster and have to travel all the way to Nottingham for an MRI, and then when I get to the radiotherapy stage of my treatment I will have to travel to Sheffield, 5 days a week for 5 weeks.... that's a lot of petrol money and parking............. But I'm getting a bit ahead of myself here.
Lymph node biopsy results tomorrow............................................ one day at a time
As for worry about losing your hair...... the one thing I have noticed from reading the posts on here is... All women worry about losing their hair!
That's one of the things that worries me too, as my hair is down the bottom of my back................. but I would wear a padded bra and walk around bald if it means being around to see my 14 year old daughter graduate from university, get married and have children.
The only way I can cope at the moment is to prioritise..... STAYING ALIVE....... and take one day at a time.
Writing all this down helps me to cope with the things that are happening to me.... and hopefully my experiences may help others going through the same
Cancer does leave you feeling pretty ***, and sometimes makes us look pretty ***.... So vanity is allowed
Sar, your wedding will be wonderful, wether you have your own hair or you're wearing a wig.... because you will have survived
Your fiance will know he is marrying a fighter and a survivor.......... and if cancer cant split you up..... nothing can.
So wear your scars with pride honey.... they mean you are here to tell your tale and help newbies like me.
Thank you for being brave enough to share you experiences
They have helped me and I am right at the start of this scarey ride
