Well done you, I really dunno what to do, I keep thinking I should just shave it off then friends and family say no theres too much hair left at the mo, so I'll prob leave it another bit yet. We are going to go outwith our town to let me get used to wearing the wig where no one knows me, weird i know but what if it blows off? The style of wig I have is very similar to what I had tho it is a few shades darker blond than what i had, i rally do need to get over this hurdle but as you said lee I'll know when im ready. Thanks babe xx

well today I had my 2nd chemo 1 3rd of the way through!! I'm now sat at home after a very very long day at the hospital, staff shortages and all that stuff,,,, anyway I'm sat here with a tube coming out of my arm into a little plastic box containing a syringe full of anti sickness medicine, so now I'm hoping that this time I wont be so ill, got to have this for the next 48 hours and then the nurse takes it out and I try the tablets.

Don't worry about the wig blowing off as there is wig tape that secures it firmly and remember this is about you and how you feel not your family and friends, do what is right for you.

take care lots of love Lee xx

hi girls

thanks for your support. im doing ok. are you meant to feel anything? my arm hurts more but sure its cos you have your arms up. other than that im expecting sore skin in about a week n any tiredness i'll probably put down to chemo anyway. body is struggling on but things are getting a bit easier n less painfull. i saw a lady i'd met before n she has the muscle pain n we were so glad because the other understood. its so hard to explain n i hadnt spoken to anyone else that has had the same problem. well 2 down n 21 to go.

we did a carboot today. mum took me for rads n jon set up with the kids. my brother was on another stall with his girls n my mums stuff but they didnt do well at all. the boys got about 50 quid (holiday spends) n we made about 90 quid (towards passports). so werent too bad for our first. bloody knackered now though!

so nice to see you colly n goodluck for tomorrow. hope you continue to feel well n had a lovely weekend with john after his holiday. n lee im so pleased you dont mind your new hair/head. good on you. still dont like mine though have got a little now. its like bum fluff mind! its lovely to hear you more up beat.

no baby news then rose. still time to be early though. are you still feeling better with thyroid med? sending you lots of love. you too patrica. are you having a nice rest?

little sis i dont know what chemo i had. its just one of many things ive forgot over the months. all i know is it can make you feel awfull but some only feel like that for a few days. unfortunately i felt like it all the time n walking was very difficult. most ladies swear by hot water bottle for sore bones. hope you have already started to feel better n good luck for the rest of your chemo. that end will come. ask anything you like n i'll try not to take too long to answer.

summer hols are going well so far. not too much argueing going on but the weather could be better. need to entertain the kids cost free this year which could be a challenge. probably will go to every different beach n just mark them off on the map. some gorgeous ones down here(cornwall). anyway i best go this has took hour n half. i cant remember what i want to write n then when i do i cant seem to get it out. so annoying!

love to you all leonie xxxxxxxxx

Hi girls

Lee I went for my bloods today and yeehaa it is only 6 sessions of chemo ive to have so thats good news, i'll be finished 6 weeks earlier than I thought. Sorry to hear your feeling sick, I also feel yucky for first 4 days but not actually sick. Leonie lucky you living down cornwall way it is lovely down there. Hope everyone is well. love Col x

Hi Girls,

Glad to hear that we are all feeling more upbeat and happier since I was last on here, my word the time seems to be flying past now for me. Have only just over one week left on my present sick/fit note, will have to go and see doctor to get another one me thinks. Not at all ready to return to work.

Leonie, the radiotherapy doesn't hurt at all whilst you are having it. The tables aren't that comfortable and the awkward positition that you may have to put your arm in could be the reason for your pain. My skin is really sore at the moment, it's like really really bad sunburn. They do warn you at the end of your treatment that it continues to work for a couple of weeks and symptoms could get worse. Some people are fine and don't react and others it affects. Sods law it would be me!! Lovely nurse at the hospice sorted out some gel for me which I hope will help. Have been taking painkillers for last few days, ibuprofen and paracetamol, which is helping also. Other than that it's 'burn your bra and let it all hang free'!!!!!!!!!!!! Well the hair is growing and as anticipated it a lovely shade of grey. Have been trying to match it up to the Dulux chart to find a more exciting name rather than just grey, Which has not been easy as it's only about 1 or 2 mm long. How does Lavender Grey or Regency Grey sound. We are meant to to having a lady coming to the hospice soon to talk about hair products that we can and can't use on our new delicate hair, it should be very interesting.

I'm still feeling tired, need to find some motivation. Do have good days and days where I can't be bothered. I do have a long list of jobs that need to be done but just can't seem to find the inspiration to tackle them.

Col, Fantastic news!!! The end of that tunnel has just been brought that bit nearer. Lee is right , you do what you feel most comfortable with. In all this it is the only thing we have control over!

GI Lee, You sound so positive at the moment, it's great. So glad they are trying to get the sickness under control, haven't come across that method that you are using but hey if it works don't knock it!

Rose, sorry to hear that you were having problems and had to take a break from treatment. Any news on that baby?

Littlesis, Jump in anytime. Sorry I can't help you as I only had FEC. Seven weeks to go and counting, have you got your flags ready. Do you have to have any other treatment after?

Well feel at bit of motivation coming on so better grab it with both hands whilst I feel like it. Not that exciting just need to go and do some shopping.

Take care

Patricia x

Hi Colly,

Sorry you are feeling down.Chemo really does take its toll,it is a poison after all.Just go with the flow and take this time to snuggle up on the settee with a box of chocs .You are allowed to leave the housework and spoil yourself.

your photo is smashing,with or without hair you will still look fab.I always wanted straight hair as mine was wavy but it grew back straight and i want curls now !!!

Have a look on the Jokes ,they always make me giggle.

Take care of yourself.It will get better,honest.

Love to everyone else as well:love:

Rose xxxx

Hey there Colly

I'm so sorry your feeling low, but remember how you found out that you only now have 3 more sessions to go, thats a huge realisation and so positive, your hair as I've said will be a choice that you must make, I¿m still glad I took the plunge but I do have days where I feel ugly and un feminine but wig on and make-up done Im back to being me, so far no signs of eyelashes or eyebrows going but of course its still early days. This time there is no sickness with this new medication but I am so very tired and a little ratty!! but now I'm just on count down and this will not last forever. Patricia I'm so glad to hear from you and yes no rush for work, I bet your excited about your hair growing back and have you any ideas of what style you want to sport.

Well girls I'm getting a bit sleepy but love keeping intouch.

Take good care of yourselves

Lots of love Lee xx

Hi Lee,

So glad your feeling better, if you can call it that. I felt the nausea was one of the worst side effects for me. I could cope with being tired and aches and pains but the feeling sick all the time was the pits.

Yes, I am quite excited by the sight of hair desparately sprouting forth from my head, even if it is now quite the colour I'm used to. I have had short hair for years (not quite this short ) as my job is a cook/chef in a factory restaurant and it is so much easier and cooler for me. Only thing is now I keep looking in the mirror and convincing myself it's longer that when I looked 10 minutes ago. :D

I'm in no rush to return to work, my chest needs to be clear of the radiation burns and also I need to be a bit fitter as my job is very physical, even when I do return it will have to be gradual. I just don't feel I am ready to return yet, hope my GP sees it that way too.

Patricia x

Hi girls thanks for your lovely words, I do feel crap today and yest and prob will tomorrow then I'll be back to normal sun/mon as it's the same pattertn after chemo, I feel sick until I've finished taking the tablets. I also had a weird sensation wed nte after chemo of pins and needles in both my wrists, has anyone else encountered this? also last month my period came on time, not due until 16/8 but it came yest day after chemo, just to put the tin lid on things lol. I sent john out tonight with his mates for a drink as I feel as tho im being a right misery, he put up a bit of a fight but i said i wanted to watch the big bro eviction, think that was enough to make him go lol. Patricia dont you dare hurry back to work, I'm sure your doc will be very understanding, theres no point in rushing into anything especially ajob where your on your feet all day, Im a boring civil servant sitting at a desk all day and I'll definetly not be rushing back to work. Hopefully all going well my chemo will end 6/10 then a few weeks off then radio for a month, then a nice holiday then maybe back to work part time to see how it goes, as long as ive enough to pay my dd's then im happy. Lee hope your sicky feeling is gone, its horrid isnt it. Take care4 girls and have a good weekend. Love Col xx