Hi to each and everyone of you don't you think that we are all quite amazing to be able to even be able to come on here and tell our stories I feel like I'v made so many new friends.

Anyway Leonie I'm so glad that you've managed to get some funding for nursery at least you know that Charley will be having a nice time whilst you gain some energy back. You really are having a rough time of it but how nie that you could get to the beach, I take it you live nearby to one. That must be lovely. As for having a looney doctor me too!! Just nice to be able to speak to someone who doesn't judge and you can say what you want about anything!!!!

Don't know bout you lot but I have all different feelings creep up on me when I least expect them. People who are close to you want to see you positive all the time and tell you how well you look and now i'v lost my hair how much it suits me but no matter what personally I just don't feel remotely like the same person. People say losing hair and putting weight on are least of worries but it does alter how I feel about myself and has affected my confidence.

Anyway each and everyone of you if I don't mention you by name doesn't mean I'm not acknowleding your messages but I do think about you all.We are all at different stages and will hopefully stick together through thick and thin.

Take care and hope you are all ok

love Lou

Well said Lou,

There are so many of us on this site now .Good luck and bless you all and the lovely people who care for us.

Rose xxx

Hi Sinead

Just had a look at your pic with your skinhead and you look fab, right now I cant imagine me being brave enough once my hair falls out, but hey you never know. It is certainly too cold up here in East Kilbride to go out without something on your head and thats even if you have hair, the weather is awful, really wet and windy, the farmers seem to love it but I dont lol.

Anyways well done! Colette x

Well done you Shents, or should I say Sinead??? Your blog is just fab....Excellent - it's just too darn hot eh. I have been calling myself, annie lennox - lol. So with you and me together - anymore 80s pop lookalikes to join us?

I said to one of my daughter's mums - i have got the annie lennox look going on and they said annie who?? (LOL)

Shents,

You mean that isnt really a sketch of you on this site?

You are beautiful on the outside as well as the inside !!!I love your blog,you should write a book of your journey,you certainly have a gift of holding the readers, attention and keeping it interesting.Your son sounds as laid back as mine although mine is now 28 and still says dont panic as everyone is running around.They wind you up a treat and then make you melt just before we strangle them.

Glad to see you looking so well

Rose xxx

Hey there,

I have left a message to say you look bloody lovely...

At 46 I remember my youth as a skinhead when I used to love the girls with the shaved heads (obviously still do! )

By the way, if you are bored anyone, please feel free to have a look and follow my blog!

tonysonghurst.blogspot.com/

Much Love

T xx

Hi Sinead

I agree you do look lovely without your hair and I have nothing but admiration for you, I hope that once mine falls out, I too will have the courage to go oh natural!!.

In my heart of hearts I know I'm just clinging on to a dream but for now its all I have so I guess when those first strands start to fall the clippers will have to come forward and do their thing.

I do love reading everyone's posts they are so inspiring so thankyou everyone and also to you Tony you seem to be able to comfort everyone with your wise words (thankyou)

Im not sure whats going on with my computer at the moment but it keeps jumping into rich text and wont let me edit it to change it, if anyone has any ideas how to change this I would be most grateful x

Lots of love Lee x

HI Lee,

Glad you were able to find a wig that you like.If you do loose your hair you will have to tell us who you look like and we shall start a new thread where everyone has to add their lookalike without hair.i had visions of sinead Oconnor as well but looked more like Matt Lucas from little Britain.On the plus side you save a fortune on shampoo !www.cancerchat.org.uk/.../!! I didnt go out without my wig(unlike Matt) and they are so good now that no-one could tell.Dont forget to use chemo to its best advantage if you cant get an appt. at the dentist or doctors.i just say Oh OK the only thing is im on chemo and appts appear from nowhere.

We have to have some good out of this.;)

sorry cant help with your computer.I thought you liked to shout a lot!! Ive only just found out how to put a smilie on here.

Good luck.You sound so much more relaxed than your first post.

Rose xxx

Hi Rose

Yes I do feel a lot more relaxed now, and that is thanks to all of you, my surgeon is really pleased with my more positive approach and when I explained how I had met you guys online he asked for the website so he could recommend it to future patients.

I promise as soon as I go bald I shall post a picture 1st with my hair 2nd with no hair and then 3rd with wig hair, there has been some laughter today trying on the different wigs I didnt realise how different a hair style can change your appearance Ive been so boring all my life having the same style ...so heres to a new me x

Lots of love lee

Hope this isnt shouting he he x

Thanks everyone for your kind comments - much appreciated.

My little girl had a friend home for tea this afternoon, and she asked if she could see my hair. I took my bandana off, and she stroked my little fluffy head so gently.

I felt like a pet rabbit!

You're all doing so well. Its wonderful that we have this forum to give each other help and support.

Keep going everyone - stay positive

Much love

Shents

hi girls

well we had a right weekend of it. saturday lunch a kid knocks on the door, liams broken his leg or something! we called an ambulance. oh god whats happened?! jon goes to car, wouldnt start. so off he ran. liams crying n got a hole in his leg jon said. he fell off a branch he was sitting on not very high up, then a broken 1 stuck in his leg. his mate had to lift his leg up to get it off the branch. so jon runs home then to garage to get a new battery n tries to run home again. ambulance takes liam hospital n we follow once mum n dad arrives n key was working. jon is knackered on drive over!

so anyway, doctor said he would have to go to surgery. needed to make sure it was clean n try to close it up. after a few hours they move him to kid ward. liams being wheeled in his bed n heres me in wheel chair following him. what a sight! 7pm n he still hadnt gone down for op. then we were told he wouldnt be going down til about 10. not ideal for me to stay in hospital with infections n ill people so jon drove me home. so i had charly to look after with dylans help n jon goes back to hospital to stay with liam. 3 nts they were in! luckily he was a good little boy, til mon after nursery. then he was a right mardy ******! liam went for 2nd op on mon n luckily hadnt tore any tendons n had it stitched up. it was size of a golf ball n inch n half deep, tore through his muscle but should be fine as it heels. hes been a soldier n handled it all so well. but ive been stressed, worried n very tired. feeling better today apart from 'the legs'. jon however, is dead knackered after 3 nts of hospital. we are back there tomorrow to sort out about rads. dylan went to school today only to call up about 11, i feel sick mum. oh not something else!

so as you can imagine, we are hoping for a quiet weekend. might not get it like, but still hoping. hows you lot doing then? i hope treatment is going well for you all. patrica? where are you? miss you we do! anyway take care all of you.

lots of love leonie xxxx

hi lee

my how you have come along since you joined! you sound like youre in a place where you can deal with it all n im so thankful for that. you said before you wanted to write words of wisdom to help others n you have. you have a story to tell just like the rest of us.

it would be so nice to meet all the ladies n tony 1 day. but some are up in scotland n northern areas n im in cornwall so god knows where we would meet! hopefully 1 day.

about the hair thing, think we all hoped we would be the 1% that didnt lose it. you even believe it a bit! you know even now it shocks me sometimes when i look in the mirror. i dont do it very often without something on my head. i still dont like it. i dont look n think thats alright. as ive said before, my ears stick out which dont help the baldness! i even think about hair colour then remember i havent got any. dont feel bad if you dont like it, just try n forget about it n dont keep looking in the mirror. you will look lovely in your wig, though dont know how comfortable it will be.

ive been trying to upload a pic on here, spent a few hours trying to. it wont upload my pic, any idea how we can do it? mum even tried doing it from desktop but that didnt work either.

anyway glad youre doing well. lots of love leonie xxxx

hi lee

my how you have come along since you joined! you sound like youre in a place where you can deal with it all n im so thankful for that. you said before you wanted to write words of wisdom to help others n you have. you have a story to tell just like the rest of us.

it would be so nice to meet all the ladies n tony 1 day. but some are up in scotland n northern areas n im in cornwall so god knows where we would meet! hopefully 1 day.

about the hair thing, think we all hoped we would be the 1% that didnt lose it. you even believe it a bit! you know even now it shocks me sometimes when i look in the mirror. i dont do it very often without something on my head. i still dont like it. i dont look n think thats alright. as ive said before, my ears stick out which dont help the baldness! i even think about hair colour then remember i havent got any. dont feel bad if you dont like it, just try n forget about it n dont keep looking in the mirror. you will look lovely in your wig, though dont know how comfortable it will be.

ive been trying to upload a pic on here, spent a few hours trying to. it wont upload my pic, any idea how we can do it? mum even tried doing it from desktop but that didnt work either.

anyway glad youre doing well. lots of love leonie xxxx

Hi everyone

just to let you know chemo starts tomorrow! so will update you on how im doing, Ive tried to get myself prepared ...Wigs, bandanas, healthy eating, exercise etc etc...so let the battle commence;) xx

Hi Lee just a note to wish you all the best tomorrow - good on ya for being prepared. I will be thinking of you tomorrow.

I too have an appointment tomorrow ready for my next op in 2/3 weeks time - so all the best and take care.

Hi Lee,

You go girl !!Good luck for tomorrow.Never expect to actually go in at your appointed time,I see so many people getting stressed because they have to wait but sometimes they have to repeat someones bloods and then fit them in on top of a full clinic.Take a good book,although I was far too nosey to read a lot !!

Good luck lovely girl.

Rose xxx

Hi Fi,

Hope things go well tomorrow.Only good news allowed this week so you should be OK !!

Fingers crossed for you,

Rose xxx

Good Luck Lee, I'm sure everything will be fine, I was in and out in 45 mins, so hopefully you'll be same, fingers crossed, my 2nd chemo is wednesday, lots of love Col x

Good luck for tomorrow FiFi x

yes Fifi

only good news this week so I shall keep my fingers crossed for you.

lots of love leexx

Thanks Coll

Let me know how you get on, the second one is the one Im dreading the most, somehow think thats DDay for my hair.

All the very best to you, lots of love lee xx

hi lee im sorry im too late to wish you luck. hope all went well today. i was excited about mine starting, i soon lost that feeling.

leonie xxx

Hi Lee,

Just to wish you good luck today! Try not to worry to much the proceedure isn't that bad and we are all here for you.

Patricia x