Hi to each and everyone of you don't you think that we are all quite amazing to be able to even be able to come on here and tell our stories I feel like I'v made so many new friends.

Anyway Leonie I'm so glad that you've managed to get some funding for nursery at least you know that Charley will be having a nice time whilst you gain some energy back. You really are having a rough time of it but how nie that you could get to the beach, I take it you live nearby to one. That must be lovely. As for having a looney doctor me too!! Just nice to be able to speak to someone who doesn't judge and you can say what you want about anything!!!!

Don't know bout you lot but I have all different feelings creep up on me when I least expect them. People who are close to you want to see you positive all the time and tell you how well you look and now i'v lost my hair how much it suits me but no matter what personally I just don't feel remotely like the same person. People say losing hair and putting weight on are least of worries but it does alter how I feel about myself and has affected my confidence.

Anyway each and everyone of you if I don't mention you by name doesn't mean I'm not acknowleding your messages but I do think about you all.We are all at different stages and will hopefully stick together through thick and thin.

Take care and hope you are all ok

love Lou

Well said Lou,

There are so many of us on this site now .Good luck and bless you all and the lovely people who care for us.

Rose xxx

Thanks Rose and Leonie, I woke up today and feel as though ive swollen glands in my neck, so hopefully it is just the chemo, this is the week where i should be feeling at my lowest, tho apart from that i feel fine and dandy, was away out clothes shopping with my youngest daughter, who is a very petite size 8, but 5ft 8 and looks amazing whatever she wears, so it was fun, got a couple of things for myself size 12 which look huge next to her wee items lol, oh to be 20 again. Anyway was supposed to go out for a meal with John tonight but decided to get a chinese and stay in and watch spain v paragauy and sit with my feet up,too tired after the shopping spree, even tho the nurses say dont eat spicy food, but i did just have a sweet and sour chicken, so hopefully that wont do me any harm ~(watch this space) lol. Enjoy the rest of your weekend. Colette x

Lonie and ladies,

I have just responded to Hntina and told her what a lovely group you are and that she should come on right over and get some support - hope you don't mind?

Her stream is :

Much Love

T xx

Hi Girls and Tony

You all are so great how you can keep up with so many messages - me, I can only handle one a day as my typing skills are to be desired, lol. Anyway, have read your messages up to date and nice to keep up and see how you all are getting on. Hope you all had a great weekend as I did. It was nice to celebrate my first weekend without a wig - my wig was getting unbearable - my 2 young children were happy to see mummy feeling better too, especially in this heat. I was getting the look but tbh I wasn't bothered. All i have to watch is I don't get it sunburnt, lol.

Take care and have a good week, Liz

Hi Liz and all the others here

Glad you have felt confident to go wig-less. I have just answered the door to a delivery man without even a hanky on my head. First time I've felt brave enough to do anything like that, but my hair is slowly making a comeback and I don't think it looks too bad...and its far too bloomin hot for bearskin wigs anyway. My 2 little kids are also now used to their skinheed mum, but not sure if they'd like me out in public like that yet...couple more weeks maybe.

You can see Sinead Shents by following the link to my blog. Please feel free to leave a comment on how I could style it better...

Love to you all -

Shents x

Hi Sinead

Just had a look at your pic with your skinhead and you look fab, right now I cant imagine me being brave enough once my hair falls out, but hey you never know. It is certainly too cold up here in East Kilbride to go out without something on your head and thats even if you have hair, the weather is awful, really wet and windy, the farmers seem to love it but I dont lol.

Anyways well done! Colette x

Well done you Shents, or should I say Sinead??? Your blog is just fab....Excellent - it's just too darn hot eh. I have been calling myself, annie lennox - lol. So with you and me together - anymore 80s pop lookalikes to join us?

I said to one of my daughter's mums - i have got the annie lennox look going on and they said annie who?? (LOL)

Shents,

You mean that isnt really a sketch of you on this site?

You are beautiful on the outside as well as the inside !!!I love your blog,you should write a book of your journey,you certainly have a gift of holding the readers, attention and keeping it interesting.Your son sounds as laid back as mine although mine is now 28 and still says dont panic as everyone is running around.They wind you up a treat and then make you melt just before we strangle them.

Glad to see you looking so well

Rose xxx

Hey there,

I have left a message to say you look bloody lovely...

At 46 I remember my youth as a skinhead when I used to love the girls with the shaved heads (obviously still do! )

By the way, if you are bored anyone, please feel free to have a look and follow my blog!

tonysonghurst.blogspot.com/

Much Love

T xx

Hi Sinead

I agree you do look lovely without your hair and I have nothing but admiration for you, I hope that once mine falls out, I too will have the courage to go oh natural!!.

In my heart of hearts I know I'm just clinging on to a dream but for now its all I have so I guess when those first strands start to fall the clippers will have to come forward and do their thing.

I do love reading everyone's posts they are so inspiring so thankyou everyone and also to you Tony you seem to be able to comfort everyone with your wise words (thankyou)

Im not sure whats going on with my computer at the moment but it keeps jumping into rich text and wont let me edit it to change it, if anyone has any ideas how to change this I would be most grateful x

Lots of love Lee x

HI Lee,

Glad you were able to find a wig that you like.If you do loose your hair you will have to tell us who you look like and we shall start a new thread where everyone has to add their lookalike without hair.i had visions of sinead Oconnor as well but looked more like Matt Lucas from little Britain.On the plus side you save a fortune on shampoo !www.cancerchat.org.uk/.../!! I didnt go out without my wig(unlike Matt) and they are so good now that no-one could tell.Dont forget to use chemo to its best advantage if you cant get an appt. at the dentist or doctors.i just say Oh OK the only thing is im on chemo and appts appear from nowhere.

We have to have some good out of this.;)

sorry cant help with your computer.I thought you liked to shout a lot!! Ive only just found out how to put a smilie on here.

Good luck.You sound so much more relaxed than your first post.

Rose xxx

HI Lee,

Glad you were able to find a wig that you like.If you do loose your hair you will have to tell us who you look like and we shall start a new thread where everyone has to add their lookalike without hair.i had visions of sinead Oconnor as well but looked more like Matt Lucas from little Britain.On the plus side you save a fortune on shampoo !www.cancerchat.org.uk/.../!! I didnt go out without my wig(unlike Matt) and they are so good now that no-one could tell.Dont forget to use chemo to its best advantage if you cant get an appt. at the dentist or doctors.i just say Oh OK the only thing is im on chemo and appts appear from nowhere.

We have to have some good out of this.;)

sorry cant help with your computer.I thought you liked to shout a lot!! Ive only just found out how to put a smilie on here.

Good luck.You sound so much more relaxed than your first post.

Rose xxx

Hi Rose

Yes I do feel a lot more relaxed now, and that is thanks to all of you, my surgeon is really pleased with my more positive approach and when I explained how I had met you guys online he asked for the website so he could recommend it to future patients.

I promise as soon as I go bald I shall post a picture 1st with my hair 2nd with no hair and then 3rd with wig hair, there has been some laughter today trying on the different wigs I didnt realise how different a hair style can change your appearance Ive been so boring all my life having the same style ...so heres to a new me x

Lots of love lee

Hope this isnt shouting he he x

hi lee

my how you have come along since you joined! you sound like youre in a place where you can deal with it all n im so thankful for that. you said before you wanted to write words of wisdom to help others n you have. you have a story to tell just like the rest of us.

it would be so nice to meet all the ladies n tony 1 day. but some are up in scotland n northern areas n im in cornwall so god knows where we would meet! hopefully 1 day.

about the hair thing, think we all hoped we would be the 1% that didnt lose it. you even believe it a bit! you know even now it shocks me sometimes when i look in the mirror. i dont do it very often without something on my head. i still dont like it. i dont look n think thats alright. as ive said before, my ears stick out which dont help the baldness! i even think about hair colour then remember i havent got any. dont feel bad if you dont like it, just try n forget about it n dont keep looking in the mirror. you will look lovely in your wig, though dont know how comfortable it will be.

ive been trying to upload a pic on here, spent a few hours trying to. it wont upload my pic, any idea how we can do it? mum even tried doing it from desktop but that didnt work either.

anyway glad youre doing well. lots of love leonie xxxx

Hi everyone

just to let you know chemo starts tomorrow! so will update you on how im doing, Ive tried to get myself prepared ...Wigs, bandanas, healthy eating, exercise etc etc...so let the battle commence;) xx

Hi Lee just a note to wish you all the best tomorrow - good on ya for being prepared. I will be thinking of you tomorrow.

I too have an appointment tomorrow ready for my next op in 2/3 weeks time - so all the best and take care.

Hi Lee,

You go girl !!Good luck for tomorrow.Never expect to actually go in at your appointed time,I see so many people getting stressed because they have to wait but sometimes they have to repeat someones bloods and then fit them in on top of a full clinic.Take a good book,although I was far too nosey to read a lot !!

Good luck lovely girl.

Rose xxx

Hi Fi,

Hope things go well tomorrow.Only good news allowed this week so you should be OK !!

Fingers crossed for you,

Rose xxx

Good Luck Lee, I'm sure everything will be fine, I was in and out in 45 mins, so hopefully you'll be same, fingers crossed, my 2nd chemo is wednesday, lots of love Col x

Good luck for tomorrow FiFi x

yes Fifi

only good news this week so I shall keep my fingers crossed for you.

lots of love leexx

Thanks Coll

Let me know how you get on, the second one is the one Im dreading the most, somehow think thats DDay for my hair.

All the very best to you, lots of love lee xx