Hi Lonie,

I had breast cancer 3 years ago and had 6months of chemo,mastectomy,3more months of chemo and 5 weeks radio

so I know what you are going through.All the things you feel are perfectly O.K.It is a lot to handle and you have a busy time with your children to cope with as well.It is the uncertainty that I found hard to deal with and the change of lifestyle.I tried to resist the change but once I accepted that I could watch daytime T.V on bad days without feeling guilty and hoover less often I felt calmer.Try to do what you must and accept help,People really like to feel wanted and like to help.Don.t be hard on yourself.The tiredness and lack of sleep makes things seem worse but it will pass and you will get stronger .Keep chatting on here and try to spend half an hour on yourself ,going for a walk or gardening or just having a chat to a neighbour .You will get there !!! love R xxxx

thank you for your reply. am feeling less peed off today thank god. was sorry to hear what youve been through but glad it was 3 years ago, means its worked for you i hope anyway. yeah uncertainty isnt a nice feeling n you cant be possitive constant. its always in your mind 'what if it dont work' but even though its tough chemo is worth the try. im just glad its me n not 1 of my kids or hub or close family not because im brave but because i know i can cope with it being me n wouldnt if it was 1 of them. dont envy my hub poor sod. we only been married 2 n half years n have 2 year old n 2 teens from previous, its a lot for him to cope with. he does brilliantly but hes not the best house wife! still learning. you know its made me feel so much better having 2 replies n being able to talk about it. thanks for your kindness. lonie xx

hi patrica n ladies

got school reports yesterday n academically they r on target, which was a right boost. im feeling loads better but im so tired n cant concentrate n type. thats why ive not been online. this wont be a long 1 but please know it will take over an hour!. really want to talk to colly n little sis too, was so concerned about my hair falling out, really thought that would be the hardest part. luckily as you know you get over that bit quite quickly but not completly.

i havent heard about the day you talked about n cant wait to go on it. sounds like bliss! i want to make sure you n the others know about 'look good feel better'. its well worth a trip when you feel up to it. its all about make up. theres ladies showing you everything from how to cleanse to foundation + make up your own face properly. everythings free n you get a bag full of everything you need to do it! it really does make you feel better n when you want or can be bothered to make yourself look good, you can without going shopping n spending a fortune. im in the southwest but theres over a hundred running in england.

was sorry to hear your lovely weekend turned crap! just the way life acts sometimes ey. i went in 2 shops for shoes, found a pair that were so comfy n then wore them for 10 mins n they turned to be the worst ever. couldnt move off the couch for rest of the day. well what else did we sign up for?!

lots of love leonie xxx

Hi Leonie,

Ah! Chemo brain, that's what they called it, I'm like that as well, more so just after chemo session. You know what you want to say or do but it's like the batteries are running out on the pink bunny. Saw a t-shirt on line the other day, on the front is a drawing of a smiley face with spikey hair and the words 'I've got chemo brain, what's your excuse?' That made me laugh, not sure I've got the guts to wear one though!

I've heard about the 'Look Good, Feel Better' days, I think the nearest to me are Blackpool or Manchester.

The antibiotics seem to be working, thank goodness and am now talking to my son again (quite funny really how he came grovelling offering to do things for me, they think you've come in on the last banana boat!)

Good news about the school reports, at least thats one less thing to worry about. Gold stars all round!

Hopefully off to Southport tomorrow to see my eldest son and grandson. My grandson poor chap has been in the wars also lately. Was rushed into hospital early last week in an ambulance, being violently sick, was kept in over night, they think it was a virus. Unfortunately because I'd just had my chemo couldn't go near him, so now he's better and I'm on a better week I'm off to spoil him. That's what grandmas are for!

Love Patricia

Hi girls thanks for your posts, I look forward to reading them all. Was wondering if any of you can answer this question for me lol. Since having the lymph nodes removed on 18th May, under my arm is still really numb and I've not got full strength back in it and it feels quite sore as tho I cant put my arm down straight, is this normal, also I've been told about lymphodema and not to use an open razor, does this mean on any part of my body i.e my legs and other under arm or does it mean I shouldnt use an open razor on the side the lymph nodes were removed or should i not use open razor anywhere? all very confusing, at the mo I have one underarm shaved and the other is like a bush lol as I've no feeling in it to do anything, very weird feeling, like Ive been to dentist and its kinda numb but wearing off, any tips? I feel so vain sometimes and I know it wont be long before it all falls out anyway but in the mean time I wanna shave under my arms and my legs Col xx

Hi Colly,

I'm afraid it's a no as regards the wet/open shave on your 'bad' arm. It's okay anywhere else on the body. I was told that it would be okay to use and electric razor on 'bad' arm. The numbness will get better, may not go away completely but will improve. Hope that answers your query.

Patrica x

Hi girls,

Colly,I had 17 lymph nodes removed from under my arm .Because they have to cut through nerves it does stay numb although some feeling does come back.It is best not to use an open razor because if you nick your skin and it becomes infected your arm will swell.Perhaps you can invest in an electric razor or epilator.The strength thing is normal,I have problems pulling or pushing things although I have nut suffered from lymphodema I did go to a class and was given advice.e.g. do not have blood tests or blood pressure taken on the operation side,wear gloves for gardening and when cutting food to avoid infection Youand if the arm does swell elevate and ring hospital if it is really bad.

You are not vain,just human and now is a good time to pamper yourself with lots of moisturising creams.Good luck and if I can help please pick my brains (wont take too long,as you have all said the chemo plays tricks with your mind).

R xxx

Thanks for the advice, I thought that would be the case with the razor, at the moment I cant put my arm down straight by my side, bur I suppose it was only over a week ago I had all the lymph nodes removed, so still feels quite sore and numb. Catch you soon col x

Hi girls only me again, with another question lol. If my consultant is quite happy he's removed all of the cancerous lump and all of the lymph nodes and he's happy with his margins, which is obviously the surrounding area, then why do I still have to have chemo, I could understand if there was something there that the chemo could kill off but I'm confused, anybody able to help with this? Col xx

Hi Colly,

I was told like you that they have got 'it' and my lymph nodes were clear but still had to have chemo and rads. The oncologist said that this was to improve my chances of it not returning and improve my survival rate and to basically mop up any stray cells. Now however low the percentage rate of benefit to having this treatment is, I'll take it! As anything is better than nothing in my mind and have to say the oncologist made my day when he said I was still young! Don't exactly feel like it at the moment though.

Patricia

Hi Patricia, hope this finds you well today, yeah Consultant did say all thais to me, but I've heard of so many people who have had mastectomies, lymph nodes removed and just radiation, all very confusing, and like you because 'I'm young' lol this is the best cure, suppose I just need to get on with it, take 7 months out of my life and get over this. I live in a town called East Kilbride which is about 10 miles from glasgow there are no wig shops here so I need to go into glasgow to have a look, John and I going in friday, should be lots of laughter and tears, he wants me to get a black afro, ive said i will if he does lol. Got hair appointment 14th june 3 days before chemo starts, so i'll prob get a short bob to start with and take it from there, the thiness I might be able to handle, but not baldy patches, that would be awful, anyway my mum coming up in half an hour and im still sitting in my jammies, i should really move myself. Take care, catch up soon xx

Hi Colly and girls,

I too had 3 months chemo and 5 weeks radio after mastectomy.Apparently it is in case a cell or two has managed to slip through so zap it before it causes trouble.

Go mad and have a funky wig,mine was better than my own hair and I saved a fortune on shampoo and hair dye.!!!I think there is a maggies center in Edinburgh,they are really good and can help with make up,relaxation and fill in forms.They are all free .We have one in Swansea that I go to and it is good to meet others in the same boat as you.

hope your treatment goes well. Rose. xxxx

Hi Colly and girls,

I too had 3 months chemo and 5 weeks radio after mastectomy.Apparently it is in case a cell or two has managed to slip through so zap it before it causes trouble.

Go mad and have a funky wig,mine was better than my own hair and I saved a fortune on shampoo and hair dye.!!!I think there is a maggies center in Edinburgh,they are really good and can help with make up,relaxation and fill in forms.They are all free .We have one in Swansea that I go to and it is good to meet others in the same boat as you.

hope your treatment goes well. Rose. xxxx

Thanks Rose, everything about chemo/radio etc just confuses me, but I'm sure i'll soon learn. Thaks for the tips xx

Thanks Rose, everything about chemo/radio etc just confuses me, but I'm sure i'll soon learn. Thanks for the tips xx