Hello MrsBlueSky

I wanted to reply to your post to acknowledge that I've seen it. But not only that I wanted to say that I agree with you that cancer can be a great leveller.

I know from the many thousands of posts I've read here over the last decade, as well as from personal experience, how cancer can make you step back and reassess the relationships around you. People often reassess what is important to them, be it their career, friendships, or lifestyle. It can sometimes lead to difficult realisations, and perhaps what is then most important is how we choose to move forward. 

I can see from the posts that you've shared on the forum over the last few days that you've had some really difficult life changes to adapt to, and it feels like it's become really frustrating and overwhelming for you recently. I'm really sorry to hear this. You deserve to have the same air and space as anyone else, and it's sad to hear that at the moment you feel that you don't. 

It's good to know that you have the love and support of your husband and the companionship of your dogs to help you through this difficult time. I wonder if you've shared with your husband, or anyone else, how you're feeling? It sounds like it might be helpful for you to reach out for some support from your GP as well. It's not uncommon for people who have been through a cancer diagnosis to struggle with low mood, and there is support available that can help improve this. 

You are most welcome to give our team of nurses a call if you think it might help to talk things through with one of them. I know they will be happy to listen and offer any advice, information and support they can. If you'd like to speak with them, they're available Monday to Friday, 9am to 5pm on 0808 800 4040. 

If you find that you're feeling low outside of those hours and would like to talk with someone, then don't forget that Samaritans are available 24/7. 

I know that quite a few of our members have also found support through charities such as Maggie's and Penny Brohn, so it's worth having a look to see if there is a centre local to you that you could visit or perhaps an online support group or activities. 

Keep posting here in the Cancer Chat community if it helps to have a safe space to put down in writing how you're feeling. We're here for you MrsBlueSky. 

Sending best wishes, 
Jenn
Cancer Chat moderator