Hi, I’m 51 and  just been diagnosed with stage 4 breast cancer which has spread to my lungs and 1 nodule on my breast bone. Am in a world of turmoil, can’t eat, can’t sleep, can’t get my mind to stop being so negative because of the bad news I keep receiving. I had a mammogram last June which came back clear, then in November I went to the GP as found a lump in my right breast. Was diagnosed there by a nurse practitioner and they said it was fibroadenoma and not sent to the breast clinic. Told to keep an eye on it but it was a benign lump.  Went to a new surgery 3 weeks ago for the same issue as noticed the lump had grown and some changes in shape to my breast and was diverted straight to the breast clinic. Last week diagnosed with  stage 1, grade 2 surgery and chemo, then this week diagnose with secondary breast cancer, stage 4 treatable but not curable. I’m in denial this is happening to me, I have no symptoms whatsoever and feel well in myself.

I’m not ready to die, I have a great life and a wonderful family to be with who need me. Sick of being the receiver of bad news with what feels like I'm staring in the face of my own mortality. It is a truly awful place to be right now. I have a bone scan and MRI scan next week and praying no further spread. Would be nice to chat with anyone with the same diagnosis who is going through it or come out the other side following treatment.