Hiya Marty666.  It's a huge shock isn't it?  To be told that your condition is not curable.  Back in November 2022, I was told that I had 'about a year to live'.  However, I am still here.  You have every right to rant.  As you say, seeing it in black and white makes your world fall out.  I know this is easier said than done, but try to remain positive.  With treatment you can live with this monster called cancer.  You will experience a whole range of feelings and emotions.  It's all perfectly natural and normal.  I take life one day at a time.  Sometimes I have good days, and sometimes I have bad days.  You will find the strength to get through this, you really will.  In fact, I never realised how strong I was until I was given the news that I was terminal.  Somehow you find a strength that you never knew you had.  Good luck mate, and hang in there.  

Many thanks for your words. I am at this moment having trouble coping with the news.Now found out I get the results of a full body scan in a couple of weeks and will find out if it has spread elsewhere.

It seems to me lately that just when you think you are winning something comes along to take you down again.

One day at a time

Best wishes to you 

Many thanks for your words. I am at this moment having trouble coping with the news.Now found out I get the results of a full body scan in a couple of weeks and will find out if it has spread elsewhere.

It seems to me lately that just when you think you are winning something comes along to take you down again.

One day at a time

Best wishes to you 

You're welcome mate, and if there are any other questions you have, please feel free to ask,  and likewise, best wishes to you. 

Hi again Marty666 - Macmillan have access to free counselling with BUPA and it can be accessed quite quickly. It might help you https://www.macmillan.org.uk/cancer-information-and-support/get-help/emotional-help/bupa-counselling-and-emotional-well-being-support

I find guided meditations (free on YouTube) helpful as it encourages you to tune into what is being said and it also means you are resting too.

Best wishes for your scan results. I agree with Blue-girl - sometimes it's not even in my thoughts and sometimes it's all I can think about. Some days are OK, some not. My worst thing is thinking about not being here for my daughters and my brother, who is my rock and comes to all my appointments with me.

Take care, Gwen 

My heart and kindest thoughts go out to you. I'm waiting to have a biopsy done soon on the10th of May on my uluva at the back of my throat, there's a bump/small round pink flesh coloured thing there. I really hope it's what I think it is. Ps I hope didn't mind me replying, sorry it's not perfect I'm all over the place at the moment.