It breaks my heart thinking about this but this is all I seem to do. 
im not fun anymore like I used to be.  
please tell me there's others like this? I just seemed to have changed. 
I had chemo last year, seem to have worked. I had a break, so I could do stuff and summer holidays and Christmas. but I had to get radiotherapy in December. then went for a scan this year, so I'm not back on chemo. 

im just so sad