Anger

I was diagnosed with secondary breast cancer four weeks ago and am now alternating between despair and anger. The anger is worse as it feels so destructive. I feel completely out of control and cannot imagine a future feeling this way all the time. I live in a country where euthanasia is an option and I find myself talking and thinking about it even though I don't want to die. I just don't know how to live with this. I know no one has answers. I just need to say this.

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  • I promised myself that I would not use the word Anger when I was informed that I had Prostrate cancer at 55, so far I have not used Anger in my day. However I do understand as to why you are feeling this. It is always a shock when informed you have cancer. I know living with Cancer is not easy but I feel life must go on and I will keep going all the time there is breath i me. Stay strong and positive.

  • Hi, thanks for your post. The anger just overwhelms me in the same way as fear and despair do. I'm by nature very emotional. It's the fact it won't go away this time that makes it hard. After 22 years I really thought I was ok. I'm sorry you're having to go through this too. X

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  • Hi, thanks for your post. The anger just overwhelms me in the same way as fear and despair do. I'm by nature very emotional. It's the fact it won't go away this time that makes it hard. After 22 years I really thought I was ok. I'm sorry you're having to go through this too. X

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  • Hi Shirley I was so sorry to read your post I was  diagnosed with TNBC breast cancer that has spread to my bones a month ago. My breast clinic told me I had thickened breast tissue in 2021 , the tumour didn't show up on a mammogram. It was TNBC and lobular. They found it on my third visit to them a year later by which time it was multi focal and in my lymph glands. I had a clear PET scan in June but it has now spread to my bones. I am 64. Mine is all down to clinical negligence. I am very angry also. I am now on capecitabine, no side effects so far. I am seeing my oncologist this afternoon and have lots of questions for her. I hope your treatment goes well. There are new treatments being offered all the time. Drink green juice, keep your immune system strong. Sending you lots of love.

  • So sorry that you have had to go through this. I really hope your oncologist was able to answer your questions. Let's hope we both have a lit of living to do. I'll definitely look after my immune system. Sending you love too. If you need to chat I'm here. X