Anger

I was diagnosed with secondary breast cancer four weeks ago and am now alternating between despair and anger. The anger is worse as it feels so destructive. I feel completely out of control and cannot imagine a future feeling this way all the time. I live in a country where euthanasia is an option and I find myself talking and thinking about it even though I don't want to die. I just don't know how to live with this. I know no one has answers. I just need to say this.

  • Hi Shirley A , I am in a similar situation myself,  I was told that this time I won't be cured after previously having triple negative breast cancer twice before,, I think you feel in absolute despair that there's not going to be an end to treatment,  I found a book called Radical Remission that I'm reading and it does help with trying to be positive  , I'm so sorry for how you feel but you're not alone..keep fighting  x

  • Thanks for your reply. I'm so sorry you are in a similar situation. It helps to hear from you even though I truly wish you weren't in this position. I have my next review in April when I hopefully will find out if the Letrozol is having any effect. It all seems so random. I will try to get hold of the book you mention. You're not alone either. X

  • Thank you Shirley A, I truly hope that the Letrozol is having an effect for you,  it does help to talk to others who are going through similar things,  but it is hard having to live with cancer full stop , good health is everything and I don't think some people appreciate just how lucky they are.  Stay strong and keep fighting x

  • Hi, It's so true that we take good health for granted so often. It's so precious. Thinking of you. X

  • I promised myself that I would not use the word Anger when I was informed that I had Prostrate cancer at 55, so far I have not used Anger in my day. However I do understand as to why you are feeling this. It is always a shock when informed you have cancer. I know living with Cancer is not easy but I feel life must go on and I will keep going all the time there is breath i me. Stay strong and positive.

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    Hi, thanks for your post. The anger just overwhelms me in the same way as fear and despair do. I'm by nature very emotional. It's the fact it won't go away this time that makes it hard. After 22 years I really thought I was ok. I'm sorry you're having to go through this too. X

  • Hi Shirley I was so sorry to read your post I was  diagnosed with TNBC breast cancer that has spread to my bones a month ago. My breast clinic told me I had thickened breast tissue in 2021 , the tumour didn't show up on a mammogram. It was TNBC and lobular. They found it on my third visit to them a year later by which time it was multi focal and in my lymph glands. I had a clear PET scan in June but it has now spread to my bones. I am 64. Mine is all down to clinical negligence. I am very angry also. I am now on capecitabine, no side effects so far. I am seeing my oncologist this afternoon and have lots of questions for her. I hope your treatment goes well. There are new treatments being offered all the time. Drink green juice, keep your immune system strong. Sending you lots of love.

  • So sorry that you have had to go through this. I really hope your oncologist was able to answer your questions. Let's hope we both have a lit of living to do. I'll definitely look after my immune system. Sending you love too. If you need to chat I'm here. X