Prostate cancer & death

My prostate cancer was diagnosed very very late by my incompetent GP! 2011 I was 49 came in from work during that night I got up to pee 16 times! Fast forward to 2019 after 8 years of going backwards & forward to my GP and hospital I'm 10stone! Thin but still strong my GP then stated I was fit & he wished all his patients were like me! 

Eventually when he does a PSA test it comes back 109 his my GP face is bright red! I have radiotherapy it failed my cancer is to aggressive Gleason 9. My cancer is advanced stage 3 prostate cancer! So no cure!

I tried ADT therapy it was awful didn't have a life sweating like a pig day & night 24/7 so now my PSA is going up again it's 126.5 death is knocking on my door I'm a practical logical person.

Im on the treadmill of hospital appointments for scans again to see if the cancer is in my bones etc etc (Metastasis)

I'm under no illusions that I'm 60 years old now & will I see 61 or 62 it's in God's hands.

I had to move GPs after the incompetent one let me down so badly in not joining up the dots for over 8 years! My new GP is on the ball  and up front which I want I want to know all the true everything that's how my mind works I'm logical & practical in my life I have to know everything.

So what's install for me?

  • My PSA is 430.4 Stage 4 prostate cancer now just waiting to die BUT I can easily accept death with a smile because I've lived a life to the MAX!

    No tears or fear I was born 1963 an have old style men are MEN values,my children 2 boys 2 girls know me and my ways so they cool with my decisions.

    I've always had faith & to be honest I'm curious how death will take me but that's because I've always been curious & a practical person with logic ( I was an IT manager)

    Thanks for reading and responding,I tell as many men as possible what to look out for the getting up at night is the first signs that a man must get a PSA test done

    They don't know why night peeing happens with prostate cancer but that's a sign with back & groin pain.

    I'm all good I'll update my PSA reading which I'm going for this Friday so I'll get the reading Tuesday or Wednesday but I know Death is coming I'm having dreams of when I was a child back in the 1970s it's the mind preparing me for death I'm still strong thin back pain peeing over 30 times per day! 

    I'm all good cheers mate