Thanks Lara. My mum had BC in 2001 and the. It came back in 2012 - so the reoccurrence point will haunt me because of that. I know that medicine has moved on but I struggle to cope when I think about recurring. I will as you say try to shut stuff down if I can to stop me going to the dark places at 4 am.

Nims 

when you get a appointment with oncology for the tablets I asked her I had already been told about it on here so I asked my consultant & oncologist i absolutely kicked screamed demanded I had it I don't normally say about google but if you google the oncotyoe DX this will give you the information it's quite costly tge nhs do do it I had it on my private medical in the end but booked it as I was going to self fund anyway I needed closure and that's the only thing that was going to give me it it's next generation and based on your tumour alone . It's not for everyone but for me after my score I slept woke like I did before my diagnosis and felt like me again x 

love Lara x