Hi shell 

bless you this sounds horrendous.

please go ahead with the operation as you can be cancer free , by prolonging this the cancer stays in your body .

please just think you are saving your life by getting this operation done to be with your children safe forever more if there is no operation you can't be safe it's more safe to go get the operation done .

pkease think of it as a positive day cancer free when you wake up 

big hugs I wish you the best 

love Lara ️

Thank you, I will do it this time as you said I think of my children and will be happy cancer free x

Thank you, anxiety is a horrendously difficult thing but I've asked to be knocked straight out next week.

good luck with your appointment tomorrow x

Shells 

hope you are ok 

have you had your operation yet ? 
 

im sending you loads of positive vibes if you haven't had your operation yet coukd you possibly ask your team if you can arrive as late as possible so your anxiety is less ? 
for my operation I arrived at 5 pm my operation was 6 pm I went to a private hospital the time was booked I don't suffer with anxiety but I do sympathise 

I wish you lots of luck big hugs love Lara ️

Hi Lara, 

I'm going in again on Thursday got to be there at 7.30am and will be given a sedative and cannulated in my room before being taken to theatre at around 8.30am. I'm determined to do it this time no matter what but when your head and heart tell you something different it's hard.. but I know I can do it this time. 
thanks for checking in with me x

My wife nearly did the same thing just before her op last year. She said she has no fear of going under or with procedures in general, but she just freaked. She was ready to bolt. She mentioned this to the nurse as she was lying waiting on the anaesthetist. The nurse said she's seen a fair few folk up and bolting.

My wife said what bothered her was everything was too quiet, and the clock ticking was doing her head in. She said had people been speaking, she'd have been fine. But a sense of impending doom just washed right over her. She's in next week for her 2nd and final reconstructive surgery and says she feels better this time as it's a lesser op than the last one. So she gets where you're coming from and she doesn't even have the same anxiety as yourself.