I just want to say 'THANK YOU to those people who took the time to reply to me.  First of all, I wish to apologise because I did not take in to account that there would probably not be many people here because of the Easter break, and also I posted my request for advice in the nurses section which probably made people think that I only wanted in-put from the nurses.  Both my mistakes and once again, my apologies for what was a bit of a rant.  I am in my second bout of breast cancer which is in remission at the moment but by no means 'cured'.  I am also caring for my very ill and disabled husband who I think has the early stages of Alzheimers.  My beloved husband has no-one in the world but me and my biggest worry is if I die first, what will happen to him?  Most days I feel absolutely exhausted but I have promised him that I will never put him in to a care home.  I am not looking for any advice, I just wanted to explain why I went off on one and to apologise..........and once again, to those lovely people who, despite their own troubles, still took the time to reply to me..........THANK YOU SO MUCH.  xxx