Hi everyone

I have stage 4 NED at the moment, long may it continue.  Melanoma turned up in my right lung 3 years ago 13 years after the cutaneous one.  It was removed and  I had another scan.  Because there was no further disease present it was suggested that I took a watch and wait approach.  So far so good, however the iodine tracer in the CT scans is so tortuously  painful. I get stressed leading up to a scan, don't we all? But the pain is making me fear it so much I start to shake as soon as i reach the hospital.  I can't find anyone else who is affected this way, the internet says CT scans are painless.  I also cannot find any case histories with other stage 4 who are watching and waiting.  The papers i read are unaminous saying that routine scans do not significantly increase life expectantcy. I moved areas shortly after the operation and I have only seen my new oncologist once, because of covid.  I do not want anymore scans but I don't know what to do?