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Kristyna
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Hi, 

The past few days have been so strange. I found a lump in my breast that is unusual for me. I check all the time so it shocked me when I found it. I called the doctor, got an appointment Tuesday, told I needed to be checked out by the breast clinic and the following day I had a call for my appointment. 

I dont know what to think, could it be cancer or in a few weeks will this all be over and its nothing but a cyst? I keep thinking about the negatives, about how will my husband and my son cope if I am poorly, even things down to if I lose my hair will it grow back all grey, stupid things like that. I already have depression so I'm trying to not think like that but those thoughts creep in. I'm struggling to sleep as well which is not good either, as that's when my mental health usually goes down hill. 

Any advise is welcome xxx

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    Hi,  Am in much the same position as you.  Diagnosed with bc a couple of weeks ago.  I also suffer from crippling depression and am completely unable to sleep at the moment, which can't possibly be helping.  Am now awaiting appointment with consultant . She has indicated this will mean surgery and radiotherapy.  I know it sounds feeble, but I'm terrified.  Never had any sort of operation before. What will I look like afterwards - sounds so vain and shallow doesn't it?   Anyway, just wanted to say you are not on your own. Try and be strong. Mxx

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    Hi, 

    Thank you for your reply. I am so sorry that you are facing this journey, along with depression. You are not vain to have those thoughts, not one bit. You are entitled to them and I am sure there are alot of others that feel the same. I truly hope that your treatment goes well for you. 

    Its the waiting that is hard, the uncertainty, the what ifs which I suppose alot of people go through on a daily basis. I'm just finding it hard to comprehend what could happen. 

    Take care xxx

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    Hi, 

    It's easy to say , but do not be afraid. Your body and mind will overcome your fears if the worst happens.  And until the point you find out , no point worrying. Most lumps turn out as nothing , but the NHS has a wonderful quick response time and will look after you in all scenarios. 

    I was diagnosed with BC in april this year , yes it was a shock , but my survival instinct kicked in. No time for emotions or moping. Just finished my 6 cycles of chemo ( not as bad as I feared , kept hair due to cold cap ) ,awaiting surgery in early.nov for mastectomy and reconstruction. I am strong , it can be done !!

    Keep strong , fingers crossed it's nothing. 

    Take care

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    Hi, 

    Thank you for replying. 

    You sound like an extremely strong lady, and I hope all your treatment goes well for you. You can do this.

    I suppose in some respect its mind over matter. Unfortunately my mind likes to wander no matter how hard I try for it not too. We're currently renovating our home and I've thrown myself into that but I find night time the worse when its quiet and everyone's asleep, or when I'm at work and it just pops into my head, it takes over. I know I'm potentially worrying about something that isn't warranted. 

    I am happy though in that my appointment has been arranged so quickly, and I'm not waiting longer, they have been great with that. 

    Thank you again, and take care xxx

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