Hi Jessie

My mum has been diagnosed with cancer too, end of August I think they officially confirmed it was cancer of cervix and womb. I totally get what you're saying I felt and continue to feel a lot of different emotions! My mum was given so many different scans before she had surgery (hysterectomy) and they were very reluctant to stage the cancer until they had done the surgery. It has also spread to her lymph nodes so when she is fully recovered she will have to have Chemo. Obviously your mum's cancer is very different so I don't know what will happen, but definitely get where you're coming from with the whole treating it thing! I have tried to be positive and a bit of distraction when around my mum and let her talk about her worries and then usually have a good cry when I get home! Zumba was helping but stupid lockdown means can't go but will be trying to do some exercise as find it a good release. All you can do is be supportive but most importantly look after yourself which can be hard to find time for but it is super important. 

Thank you I hope you get some more information about your mum's cancer it's really hard only knowing a small bit of it as you're left with lots of questions and anxieties. X

:( My heart goes out to you. I wish I could take that away from you, my mum was told she had breast cancer in December 2018, I took her to all her scans and she very quickly became more unwell. 2 weeks later she was told it had spread, in the end it was in 8 different places. I had become her carer and moved 20 odd miles away the week before she was told because she kept it on the quiet. But i came to visit early mornings went to work then went back to her before the drive home everyday. She died on the 5th of March weeks later. I was 22 when this happened and then my nan died infront of me 3 weeks later. My dad tried to support me the best he could but my mum made it very difficult as they had split up the year before after over 30 years together. Im not saying this is the outcome for your Mum as it is early  its a different type that i dont know much about but i understand what you mean with treatment, i would be beyond fuming and confused about why and whats next. All i would say, is make sure you reach out to your friends and family now, throughout the whole process, you dont realise how damaging it is mentally until a much later time. If you need help, ask for it, i had a friend who was great, she supported me a lot but of course she couldnt be there day in day out to help and discuss things. I wouldnt expect her too. But dont ever expect do deal with things yourself alone. All the best x

I'm so sorry to hear about your loss, that sounds really traumatic. I hope you and your family have been able to recover. Thank you for your advice, I'll bear it in mind

Thank you :) it sure was, but i always try to think positive about her and who she was rather than what happened so that gets me through my days. Hope everything works out for the best for youm take care. X