Thank you so much for your reply. 
You're right, I can imagine it's hard to remember your self care. It's very confusing and I do find my thoughts and emotions keep changing all the time. 
I wish your mum a speedy recovery and the best of luck when she starts treatment x

Thank you I hope you get some more information about your mum's cancer it's really hard only knowing a small bit of it as you're left with lots of questions and anxieties. X

:( My heart goes out to you. I wish I could take that away from you, my mum was told she had breast cancer in December 2018, I took her to all her scans and she very quickly became more unwell. 2 weeks later she was told it had spread, in the end it was in 8 different places. I had become her carer and moved 20 odd miles away the week before she was told because she kept it on the quiet. But i came to visit early mornings went to work then went back to her before the drive home everyday. She died on the 5th of March weeks later. I was 22 when this happened and then my nan died infront of me 3 weeks later. My dad tried to support me the best he could but my mum made it very difficult as they had split up the year before after over 30 years together. Im not saying this is the outcome for your Mum as it is early  its a different type that i dont know much about but i understand what you mean with treatment, i would be beyond fuming and confused about why and whats next. All i would say, is make sure you reach out to your friends and family now, throughout the whole process, you dont realise how damaging it is mentally until a much later time. If you need help, ask for it, i had a friend who was great, she supported me a lot but of course she couldnt be there day in day out to help and discuss things. I wouldnt expect her too. But dont ever expect do deal with things yourself alone. All the best x

I'm so sorry to hear about your loss, that sounds really traumatic. I hope you and your family have been able to recover. Thank you for your advice, I'll bear it in mind

Thank you :) it sure was, but i always try to think positive about her and who she was rather than what happened so that gets me through my days. Hope everything works out for the best for youm take care. X